Haircut !!

I had my haircut !!



Back to the Secondary school style !! ^^
Don't ask me why I do that !!
Cuz I oso don't know !@#$#%$#^$^&

New Chapter or New Story ?

I Love driving around alone in my car at night.
Without much vehicles and pedestrians on the road.
I could relax my mind and just enjoy the short journey re-watching the drama of my life.
Circling around town and every corner of places I could fit the car.
Listening to songs and music while reminiscing every pieces of memories I could get from every single places I been to.
Family,Lover,Friends and even total Strangers.
Every single events that happened,
Has their soul printed on those every corner,
Came back to me as if I'd abandoned them there.



As I watch the stars and moon that I'd forgotten for a while.
I found back that Peace in my mind that left me alone some time ago.
Looking back to the pages,
There are Happiness and there is Sorrows,
Laughter, Tears, Promises, Betrayal, Comedies, Tragic, Heartwarming and Lies.
But...still
How could I missed so many things that I could wrote them in my page of Life?
There are still a lot of people I'd missed them out in my page.
People who I Neglected for certain reasons,
People who I Disappointed because of something or someone.
Did I ...written too much of nonsense and chose the wrong character for my scene ?
Or the script had already been set and written from the start.

I guess it's time for me to burn them away.
I'll just let the New story go on his own.


Let's go Baby... a New Chapter of a New Story is starting!! ^^

WARNING

Help me Define the word... "Friend"...

is it...

"the person who is important to you when needed, and should be discarded when you don't need them" ...

or

"the person who you called when needed, and can't even spare a minute to answer one call from them when you don't need them"

Well, I found this meaning of "Friend" in you...
I hope you know who you are IF you happened to read this post.

I just want you to know, please..do whatever you like, but if it's over the line...it's over..
A goody good guy may help you on anything at all if needed, but, they have their own pride and respect as well.

PLEASE DON'T GET TOO OVER

Insomnia

From 13th Nov 1 p.m until right now 15th Nov 4:50 a.m
I'd only slept for 2 hours
I can't believe that I actually lie down and do nothing on the bed until the morning.
(Despite the "Muslim singing" and the Chicken alarm)
The things in my head are torturing me long enough to keep me awake.
A very long time had passed, and I thought that I already gotten through all.
But I was wrong.
The moment ... appeared in front of me.
All the hard work and miserable time I'd gone through,
All goes to waste in just mere seconds.

The rain today was salt to my wounds.
Being alone ,quiet and cold in the house.
Sick and helpless.
It was a very long day....



In the Past,
I love to Sleep.
Cuz the Dream are the only thing I have.
Me n U.
Right now,
I don't even dare to close my eyes anymore.
Cuz Nightmare take the only Dream I have away.
You Left me Alone.

Sorry

Actually was thinking to write out the whole "Complicated" day I been through to surprise Chris n Dennis B'day...
But it was such a long story and the song playing on my laptop keep on spinning in my head.
And I end up writing this crap ... =='''

Out of Randomness


Sorry,I Love You

Baby I'm so Sorry
Oh My Love
Baby I'm so Sorry
Oh I'm Sorry My Girl


Look into My Heart
Can you See My Love
Baby I'm so Sorry
Everything doesn't matter
Oh bring it on
Come back to me

It's Sunday
Oh Morning Girl
My eyes open and I'm alone
Everyday Every night
I want to hold you my girl

Baby I'm so Sorry
Time and Time
Baby I'm so Sorry
I'm so Sorry Girl
Look into My Heart
I just want to hold you my girl
Everyday Every night
I wanna hold you my girl


Oh what should I do
Oh baby please tell me
What should I do

I want to see you My Love
I wont run away
Gonna stay awake all day
thinking of you

Just listen to me
Baby I'm so Sorry
My Love
I'm so Sorry Girl
I'm so sorry
Baby I'm so Sorry
Sorry that I Love you My Girl
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry


Oh your long black hair
Making my day, I don't have to pray
So beautiful and so damn rare
The way you treating me
Feel it all in my Heart
Forever from My Heart
I Promise you

She's The One

Another random post of what I always write while getting bored and listening to my fav songs
~,~




Time to let it go
Please don't let me go
I can't let you go
You gotta listen
Please ... listen


We can make this work
How can it be true
Breaking up is so blue
We gotta make everything alright
You make everything alright girl

Forever your my girl
Forever be my world
You're the only one
You're the one


Back to the corner
When all still isn't over
How can this be
When everything is still even
I'm still in heaven

Baby don't worry
Baby I won't be going
You won't be lonely
You are my only
Baby I won't be going
Even the sky is falling down
It won't bring me down
For you I won't

Forever be my girl
Forever your my world
I'm the only one
Your the one

There's only one thing left to say.




Note***

I'm NOT EMO-ing

Don't Wake Me Up

Suddenly "xin xue lai chao" logging in my friendster.
Digging to the hidden side of my hard drives.
Looking back at the old pictures ...

I really miss the old days so much T,T

I wish I could turn back the time just this Once...

Even if I couldn't change anything , even if I have to live through all of it once more..
I got no regret....

... too bad...Time is Irreversible

I can Only Dream

Liar n Fakers

Lie Lie Lie Lie Lie,
It was all a Lie.
Lie Lie Lie Lie Lie,
Everything
Lie Lie Lie Lie Lie.
*From the Lyrics in "Lets Break Up - Lee Seung Gi" *

I Hate Lies
Lying to me is worst than stabbing me with a knife
I'd seen a lot of Lies,
White Lies or Black Lies
Even thou I Detest Lying
Every time I'll just forget and get over it.


I'd seen a lot of People,
True Friends and Fakers.
Every time I'll just play their games along.
Cuz I believe everyone has their reason.

This time,
It's just too much,
I had heard the same Lie for too many times.
That mask of yours disgust me.
I snapped.
I can't take all the faking and lies already.
I got sick of it, disgust by their looks and words.
Acting "Mr.Know Nothing" when I'd already knew everything is making me crazy.

Faking myself to believe every lies.

I'm sick of that smiling face
Sick of them who thinks they knows me well
Sick of those thick faced.

I know who's my true friend is and who's not
I had ENOUGH!
I had to be Denial

I'm Sick of
Living in pretense

I'm Sick of you People !

I was like ... Mesmerized

Since our Miss Sungai YangTze keep complaining me for being Emo all the time. ==''
Guess I'll heat up my blog here from being cold n emo ..

Alright, so How I'm gonna heat it up?





EAsy~






Try Guessing ?



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...Come one



It's Obvious!!



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I'm obsessed with...


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YoonA ~ lah u doink!!! xD



Alright, It's not like I love to blog about her.. (err..actually I do..xP)

But this time, it'll really makes the boy's heart melts, your eyes shine, and of course..

Envy and Jealousy from the girls ! hahahahaha

So okay, I got this from Soshified

YoonA was chosen as a model for Amore Pacific's Innisfree - a company that promotes use of natural cosmetic products.

I'll let the photo do the talking and your eyes to do the judging.. ^^

Bye bye for now~ =)

*p/s click photo to see larger picture*








I Love this one~ ^^
Beautiful Place + Beautiful Girl

忆难忘

每一天
每一分
每一秒


画面总是不停浮现
影子总出现在眼前
试着遗忘所有一切
但却没勇气睁开眼
有过冲动握着你手
偏偏忘记已是过去



有没后悔那天邂逅
是否应该拒绝问候
你应该不应该舍弃
握在手中的那糖果



其实绝非爱得不够
看透不需真正拥有
说了一千句别执着
却阻不了心脏跳动



遥远背后看守就够
全然退后豁出所有
衷心祝福后就放手
这种感觉没有尽头
为你幸福付出所有

Loooooooong way to go

Near Death experience
...

How many times does one person need to experience,these so called "Accident" until they actually die for real?

I look back to the old days from 4-5 years old to my 19th.
I'd encountered alot of .."things" that suppose to take my puny lil life away.
Falling from high places to drowning
From Suffocating to near Heart attack
From "almost" broken neck and backbones to car accidents.

Wonder if someone never notice
Wonder if that driver never break
Wonder if the mattress wasn't there
Wonder if ....

wow... i don't even wana think about it right now

I guess it's not my time yet... xD
I still got a loooooooong way to go man...

Nostalgic

Tonight is kinda weird...

Seems like I'm repeating the same night as last month.
Eating my Maggi + Sausage + Egg + Chocolate Milk + Bread for Dinner
While watching "Hello Baby" alone at home.
Siting on the same place, facing the same direction, eating the same thing....


I want changes...
I need a drastic change in my life...
Anything... anything at all...

RAndom

I Have a Dream
I Have My Wish
I Hold on to My Words
I Do What I Said
I Break No Promises
I Hold on to My Commitment
And I Don't Regret !

All this sums up Me being an Idiot
xXP

I'm 19

I guess I should've wrote something about this..
to Thanks everyone who had Wished me..Celebrate with me.."Surprise" me... Sia sui me n so on..
haha

Ok...

Firstly, have to thank my bros: Yoo and Chris
They gave me a present 5 days before my B'day ==''
A Nike T-shirt with my nickname on it.. haha Cool~
Thanks ya guys.. ^^

Just Do It~


4 days later..

XunHuai,WeeChen,Kent,JianShen,WeiChian celebrated mine and KaiWen's at Jetty
2 B'day in one.. Save Money huh...haha..and 2 days earlier somemore..
but too bad I have to leave early to go to da "Next Street" right after I ate the cake.

Meet Shenny,Limyet,Shant at Dreambox
If it wasn't the waiter "slipped" I really wouldnt have know it was to celebrate my B'day..haha
But, in the end they still GOT me ..
Shant n Shenny make a prank , Shant makes me believe there's a pervert outside the toilet and Shenny is in trouble ==''
and so....
Rush out the room to bump into a "squad" of waiter and her with a Cake ..
Ok.. I admit.. It really Surprises me..

I really enjoy the day with 3 different batch of friends with me.. ^^
After class dinner with a bunch of Friends in Campus
Sing K with my Secondary school friends
Kena tipu by da "S" gang.. swt~

Next day,
Having tea with Eric,Alvin,Weekiat,Angela,Andrew,Weijie at Nadeje before Eric n Weijie go back Kelantan...
Thx for the Layer cake Eric =)


After having dinner at Kg.8 with da rest of the gang
We went to have a yamcha session at Mori
Dom and Ziyan was there before us..
Wow, what a surprise to saw Chee hou singing there.. haha
JianShen,YeeYang and ChinMing coincidentally was there as well..
Everything looks normal at 1st..but after that
They told the singer to sing B'day song ..and the worst things is I have to stand up..
walao.. T,T n CheeHou only found out it is me.. haha..
anyway..thanks guys..^^

Alright..it's 12am + n I continue my night to Aloha
Siwei,Michael n wife,Kent and Kelvin was there..
have a few drinks there and again..the singer on stage sang B'day song again..
Imagine B'day song in a club...swt~
but anyway..have to thanks them also la..haha..^^
a second round to Arena! wohooo.. met another Kelvin there..haha
A great night..but scary as well when on the way home..
Kent drove his car on the one way road in the Opposite Direction!!! @@''
And I have to take that risk by following him behind ..swt~ Good thing nothing bad happens..n no Police...haha..

Oh..btw..thanks Weekiat for the meal at LeGarden
and Of cuz my Birthday present for the day..
ManU won Arsenal 2-1 ! xD haha


And the best for the last...
Thanks May, My 3rd aunt for her present~ ^^


Love it ~

A very unique day this year..
With many different people..different pattern..different style..haha
Glad to have you all~
And here I thanks everyone who wished me through Phone, SMS, Personally, E-Mails, Comments, Wall post etc etc
And I wish you all have a Dream Come True as Well ~ Cheers~ ^^

Silent

I'm gonna stop speaking from now on for at least a week or longer.
And this only meant towards Close Friend and Friends
(Conversation between "strangers" like Hi Bye friend or Lecturer etc etc won't be affected)
Don't ask me why..
And I hope you guys don't get pissed off by me when you're trying to talk with me. xP
So all my friends listen up!
If I ever say a word to you guys..please remind me to shut up.. Thank You ~ ^^

Oh ya..
one question
Am I consider as a Good person or a Bad person?
I got so Terrible meh ? >,<

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

That day PJ suddenly write the lyrics n send me ==
n so making me crapping here again..xP


Going back to the Corner,
Where I First saw You.
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag,
I'm not gonna Move.

They try to hand me Money,
But they Don't Understand.
How Can I Move on,
When I'm still In Love with You.

Whenever I step in here
This song played and played repeatedly
and I never got sick of it..

Maybe...
Cuz I'm not Moving..

When can I start to move on
Pack up my backpack
Throw away that cardboard
And that picture of you


Three years later...
This song will remain in my page for Three more years
I'll stay here for Three more years
I'm not gonna move
I'm not moving
Maybe I'll really get famous
As the man who can't move

When you wake up one morning
If you start missing me
And wonder where on Earth I could be
I'll be right here waiting
And I'm not gonna Move

I'm the Man who Can't be Moved

"Hello" (Random Post)

Hello Hello
Remember what I do wrong, so here I go
Putting a Hole in My debilitated Heart
Are we really so Far apart?

Hello Hello
There is no place I cannot go
Walk out the door and up the streets
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Your Heart is the only place I can't be

You touched my heart you touched my soul
You Changes my Life and all My Goals
Goodbye my Lover Goodbye my Friend
And love is blind and that I knew when
Sometimes Goodbye is just a Second Chance

And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
I'll just make the same mistake again
I'm not calling for a second chance


I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
As you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be

And I think I'm gonna Hate It Girl
How you embraced my hand and say Don't Let Go
How you say you Missed me when you're Alone
Now there's only Me and my Silent Phone


Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars fall down
And wonder where did I go wrong
Once again I cannot sleep
Hello Hello
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
I'm so Hollow..

Replay

A random post I made up while i'm listening to my fav songs..=)



I dedicated my all to this song
Yeah dedicated to all my brokenhearted people
So sick of love songs
But still singing that love song
Are you ready..

Lets go...


We hold and held
I sing and sang
Close your eyes
Hear the bells
Memento of ours

Im going back, yeah I'm going back
I found it, yes but it's all now black
You left and , yeah I fell
You break it and now my sorrow swell

What can I do now
Oh I'll make it all well
We gonna take it away
Day by day
Yeah, Forever baby
Day by day
Forgive me ..

Oh my heart break like a wave
Oh Girl say my name
Lets spread the fame
Lets play the game..

Oh girl I cry cried
Falling apart ,
Oh girl I cry cried
To not say Goodbye


As time passes..
Don't bury our Promise...
I can bear it in some way...
I can stand in some way...


Oh you're my everything
And I think I'm gonna hate it girl
Make up...
Need a Replay
Shake up...
oh Let's Replay
Break up..
Accept my Apology
(I need a Replay)
Oh Let's make up
And make our own Love Disease
Incurable Disease
Let's singalong
Scream my name and feel our pain
Break my voice and it's all vain


I think I'm gonna Hate it girl
But Let's Replay..Replay...Replay

Memorable Day - 20th July

20th July

Today is a very Special day..For me...
I can still remember last year as if it was just yesterday..
20th July .. it was a Sunday in 2008...
This year it landed on Monday huh... =)

But..
Too Bad...
This year is different.. Totally different..
Don't know whether I can officially "Celebrate" today as an anniversary in the future or not..
Don't know whether I can even mention it in the future or not..

Happy 1st year to Me ~ ^^


The story still have to go on..
Cuz the story isn't over yet ...


Wherever it takes me to...
I still have to keep building my Bridge..

My Sassy Girl

My Sassy Girl...
Yea..I know its a based on a Korean Drama from few years ago
I never watched the drama before
So I don't really know how different is the story between these two..
but today I watched this movie and found it really touching in the end.

Hm..guess I'll go find the drama and see whether it's better than this movie or not..xD

Here's a short synopsis from the net :

My Sassy Girl is the tale of the first and last time Charlie Bellow falls in love. From their initial meeting, trouble is the name of the game. Imagine an amorphous mass of dating disasters and you get an idea of the relationship between the young couple. Some mysterious force with the strength of gravity between two planets must be at play between Charlie and Jordan as the relationship truly makes no sense on the surface. Everything seems pitted against the two of them. Things suddenly come to a halt when the two write letters confessing their love for each other. Agreeing to meet a year later to read the love letters together, Charlie and Jordan go their separate ways...

I really love the ending and the thing both the hero n heroine said...

This is a few of my favorite quotes..

Jordan Roark : We have to stay alive, because we have to see how the story ends.

Charlie Bellow : Whatever she was going through it was beyond anything in my experience and beyond my ability to fix. I had no right to judge her, if I chose to stay with her – knowing the risks – all I could do was give her love and respect, and see how the story would end…

Charlie Bellow : If we never see each other again... And you're out walking one day and you feel a certain presence beside you... that will be me, loving you, wherever I am.


*Conversation between Leo and Charlie*

Charlie Bellow : On the reasons to stop seeing her side we have: One, on going physical danger. Two, high likely-hood of a broken heart. Three, uh career sabotage. Four, she is clinically insane. Five, she seems to enjoy my pain. Six, fourteen piece matched set of Louis Vuitton emotional baggage. Seven, I haven't even kissed her yet, for God's sakes. Uh eight, she's ruining my life.

Leo : And the reasons to keep seeing her?

Charlie Bellow : I'm in love with her.



Nice movie ~ =)

YoonA ^^

Got nothing to do..
Although having class few hours later at 7 a.m =='' sux ..
But still.. My mood is up to make this post..xD
*Since YT ask why I didn't make a post bout it..I'll do it now..xD*

Girls can take few look as well and get some idea on changing your own hairstyle~ xD


Starting with the 2007


To this... ^^


To this... xP


To this... xD


To this ... @@''



To this ... ~,~v


To this...=)



To this... ^^



And Now to THIS !! ^^
Aint it Pretty? xD lol
























Forgive me for being so... obsessed... ==''
Just for fun... ^^

Peace

8th July 2009

Lied on my bed at 3:44 am
Woke up at 9:05 am
Reached class at 10:14 am
Class Ends at 11:32 am
Fall sloppy-ly on my Sofa at 11:50am
On my Laptop 11:52 am
The Tv 11:52 am

A piece of Secret Recipe's New York Cheese cake (leftovers from Mum's Bday)
A glass of Lemon Ice Tea
Die Hard 4.0 movie
Alone and Peacefully
Watching one of my favorite movie
Eating one of my favorite cake
Drinking one of my favorite drinks

So peacefully that nothing comes into your mind
Where it just you, the cake, the beverages and the action packed movie
The first time ever I'd experienced such... Peace
It all takes place between 12:20 pm to 3:00 pm

Once in a while...
Life can be Good sometimes...
But still it's a long way to go..
There's a lot yet to be learn and done

I Forgot

Have you ever forget to breathe ?
I actually forget to breathe just now..
It's almost as if I concentrate on doing or thinking something and "forget" to breathe.
Freaky... @@''

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Totally random from this point onwards ... =)

I forget to breathe
I forgot to tell you something
Forgot to apologize for nothing
I forgot that life's not fair
I remember wanting to believe
But now I don't remember why


It's starting like the dreams I had everyday
As we pass by a fragrant road in this beautiful season
My cautious footsteps pound in my head
When you come closer while smiling for me
Everything has a scent because of you
Like the ocean in summer
Like the sky in late fall
It's a dream that starts when the blue light sparkles

Where's my Tinkerbell ...

Trying to remember
Remembering the rhythm
Recalling how it beats for you
It came and go

When your near me
You know I can't see things clearly
I can't breathe
and my heart stop beating
I forgot how to breathe

One of my Fav Movie

Don't know why...just feel like posting something about this...


A movie that inspire me the most on LIFE

A movie that makes me feel ashamed of myself right now

It's a movie from few years back ..I watched it 2 years ago..
and recently I repeatedly watched it the 4th time already..=)

The Pursuit of Happyness

A movie based on a true story
about
an on-and-off-homeless salesman-turned stockbroker.

p/s this is also the movie that make me start playing Rubik's cube.. xP

I Need a Spelling Lesson

Great~

The 2nd week of my "Beta" year had just passed..

First, the number of people in class are tripled compare to Foundation year..
But, Loneliness level are 100 times higher.. sob

Pros and Cons

Good thing is..I pay more attention to class now..listening to every word the lecturer was saying..
Miracle huh..xD

Bad thing is.. damn.. lack of all the jokes, fun, gossips bla bla bla..
Class are just plain boring ...
Some Indian lecturers are giving me a major headache..
Not being racist here..( well..a lil..xP)
Their English with their Indian-ish accent are making my head spinning like they do when they talk Tamil..swt~
I wonder how my Financial Accounting going to pass..T_T
Seriously need help when exams coming..
Save me !! Someone ?!!



Totally Random~

Sometimes when I reflect back on all the beer I drink I feel ashamed.
Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the brewery and all of their hopes and dreams.
If I didn't drink this beer, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered.
Then I say to myself, "It is better that I drink this beer and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver.

Make sense huh...

I am free, no matter what rules surround me.
If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them.
I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do

Responsibility... Is there anyone here qualify to be call Responsible?




The correct spelling - Happiness
I spell - Happyness

Happiness cannot be achieve with only 'I' myself..
Happyness needs 'Y'ou to be achieved together...

Simply Random

I understand that Scissors can beat Paper, and I get how Rock can beat Scissors, but there's no fuckin way Paper can beat Rock. Paper is supposed to magically wrap around Rock leaving it immobile? Why the hell can't Paper do this to Scissors? Screw Scissors, why can't Paper do this to people? Why isn't notebook paper constantly suffocating students while they take notes in class? I'll tell you why, because Paper can't beat anybody; a Rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play Rock/Paper/Scissors, I always choose Rock. Then when somebody claims to beat me with their Paper I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "Oh shit, I'm sorry. I thought Paper would protect you.. =_='

Life is like a roller coaster, I'm about to throw up..
and
I'm not Crazy, My reality is just different than yours..

and
Sometimes I just sits and thinks, and Sometimes I just sits..




无重力 - Willbert Pan


画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头 被停格

电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠落的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单漂浮着

无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛 飘荡的心却摔得更重

我爱你 你爱我 是不是还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的全落空
无重力 爱坠落 粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手 还能抓住什么

我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落 最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我 撑到最后

画面不动了 情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因 让时间停了
在伤心的镜头 被停格

电梯不动了 爱也停止了
可是坠落的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单漂浮着

无重力腾空 慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛
飘荡在半空的心越挣扎却摔得更重

我爱你 你爱我 是不是还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的全落空
无重力 爱坠落 粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手 还能抓住什么

我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落 最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我 撑到最后

（I love you）

我爱你 你爱我 是不是还不够
我不懂 为什么 付出的全落空
无重力 爱坠落 粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手 还能抓住什么

我爱你 你爱我 算不算 是承诺
全世界 都沉默 没声音的嘶吼
无重力 爱坠落 最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我 撑到 最后

Starting a New Me

Ego-ism blinded us

Ego leads to Selfish..
Selfish leads to tons of Problems

I always ask what's wrong with people
but, Before that...
I should have ask what's wrong with me first..

Expecting too much and giving too less..
Overconfident in everything and being un-confident at the same time
Being Maturely Immature at the same time..
Trying to be someone I'm not.. Is gona take a hard effort.
I'm gonna change myself from this second
No matter how and what it takes..

Teach me when I'm wrong
Scold me when I'm wrong
Hit me when I'm wrong

I rather being scold in the face and change myself after wards
then being hated by people in the heart without me realizing.

I'm still learning..
I'm still growing up..
Lead me..Teach me...Guide Me...

Friends,Family,Enemy,Strangers,Whoever...
I Love you all~

Hypocrite

I'm a hypocrite
Everyone agree? =)

A guy who always said, want the best for the others..
But in the end always ending up hurting people in a way ..
Accidentally or Purposely ..
Always done things without consideration of the others
In my own narrow minded way, I thought what I'm doing is always right
Always thought that I have the best way for the others..
Without realizing I'm just being selfish all along.


Why always regretting doing something only after I'd already done it.
Can't I be more rational and wise for one heck once in a while??
I'm always got deaf...
Blinded by emotions
Always confident about knowing what's inside people's mind
Paranoid is a word for me..


Doing everything with a heart of hoping the best for someone
Aren't always a good thing ...

Think before You Act !

Ｄｒｕｎｋ？

Now only i Realise im such a hypocrite..

Went to Aloha again wif NSQ frens..
Headache..drunk i guess..
i dun even know wat im doing now cept for writing a blog due to my moodiness..xD
but now nothing matters anymore
thx for everyone today that went Aloha..
Especially Si Wei !! ^^
Kent..Ah Heng tht already drunk..xD
and one more MMu fella whom i forgot his name..sry ya..
swt~

Glad i still have all of you guys.
well..of course everyone that i know is included depsite the NSQ frens＾＾
ｈｅｅ
ｇｕｄ　ｎｙｔ　ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ．．．ｓｗｔ～
ｉ　ｍ　ｄｒｕｎｋ．．ｚｚｚ

搞笑 - Show Luo

那一条牙膏 在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬
这么多年 早就喜欢 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道
你好不好


我们的小狗 食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位 少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

我在搞笑 却在最后 眼泪拼命掉
你的离开 失去多少 我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀

还在搞笑 是否拥有 麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌 却避不开 催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到
你好不好

Something Girls Never know

Something Girls Never know

Girls wont understand why Boys want to learn to be Strong.
Because they know It's Fragile inside despite the Rigid appearance.

Girls wont understand why Boys doesn't cry easily.
Not because a Boy can't cry,
But they know It's Over when the Tear drops.

Girls wont understand why Boys still care for them even after a Break up.
Because they know,
They aren't trying to be friend,but to get back that Love they used to have.

Girls wont understand why Boys always get mad at them.
Because they know,
Scolding them is to hope that they don't get con by others in the future.

Girls wont understand why Boys care so much bout your ex.
Because they know,
Not that they aren't confident bout themselves,
But afraid that you'll leave them as well.

Girls wont know why Boys always blame themselves after a Break up.
They are just hoping that there's only one man crying in this relationship.
And in the mean time hoping the Girls can find a better relationship.
As long as She can be Happy
It's the last Wish a Boy can have.

No one Knows...

Short Updates

woot~

It's been a while since the last updates...
Been very very "Busy" for the past few days..or weeks..xP

Following Yoo around..following best buds around, pool-ing, gaming, lepak-ing, watch football match, working on assignments and project at the last minutes, mahjong..etc etc..
wow..damn busy huh...xD

Final Exam is coming next week !
and seriously* I haven't revise any of the subject yet T,T
Having problem with all the subs..damn... *Should da pay more attention in class huh~*



http://mlkstd.mmu.edu.my/~1081101095
yep~ the website project for PCA I have working on for 2 whole day are finished ^^
If ya gona complain bout me being obsessed with yoona..
NO I'M NOT!
just that it makes the process of making the website fun instead of getting me frustated for doing it .. xD

Time sure flies..It's now May
I can still remember all the incident that happened lasst year at this time clearly as if it was just yesterday..haiz..nostalgic..

Oh, and not to forget...
Thx "Small Fish" for buying Eclipse and Breaking Dawn for me ^^
Fresh from KinoKuniya and paid in SGDollars
aiks...feel sorry I didn't pay a cent for it ...
THANK YOU!!!

One more month to go and we're going to Beta year *I hope I pass all the sub >,<*
I got Marketing Management as I want it..
I don't know whether if that's I really wanted..
but whatever...I'll do my BEST!!!
Marching for Success at age 27-28 !!! ^^

Random

Nothing to mention
Nothing to see here...

Just a very random post to shout out
IRONIC........

xD

I miss the old times....xP

Post for Fun xP (Life Threatening)

I said I'll make a post bout Yang Tze and Ah mao..
and here I am for this Short simple post...xP
Don't kill me ya...xD


They both look alike?

But I personally think that she looks like "her" ... xD


And for Ah mao...





See...80% Look alike !!


YoonA !!! xD
To prevent everyone from having nightmares after seeing the post..


Cheeers~ ^^

Friday,Saturday,Sunday

Weekend !!!
aite...gonna start with Friday...

Ziv and Yoo came to Malacca from K.L to support us..
Am very grateful and appreciate their help...THANK YOU!!! ^^
but one question both Ziv n Yoo ask still bugging me until now..
" What you really want? ..."
Seriously..I always thought I know what I want all along...
but now I realise I don't...

A better Future with loads of money?
A car?
A big mansion like house?
A lovely wife with 2 kids?
CEO of a Big company?
Peace?...

haiz...this gonna take some time...

alrite..nvm..continue with Saturday~

Going to the PC fair at Mahkota with Chris...
plus..fetching noob Kiat and his friend along...
Man..the crowd...
suffocating...
Met loads of friends there..working..promoting..shopping..xD
Bought myself a 320gb external hard drive for RM 255 ..man I'm broke now..T,T
no more money to buy anotha speaker...sob..


My New Hard Drive that Make me go Broke..T,T

After having dinner ..went to have a movie with Chris..
" Knowing "

It was a good story..but the ending is kinda...unacceptable..haha..
atleast its not a hero save the world kind of movie..xP

Went pool-ing with Dennis and Kent afterwards...
until midnight and we went to have supper at Chris neighbourhood..
chit chatting like idiots..laughing..fooling..embarrassing..xD
a great time although it's just four of us old buddies...


AND SUNDAY~
Woke up at 10 am..
bath and got ready...
Eat my breakfast..the BIG PAU every Sunday.. bought from my parents..
and went out with Chris..........again...
Dennis and his darl HueyS for........... breakfast AGAIN.

Went to MP for bowling ...3 game !! ..wa...money are slipping away from my wallet T,T
Daytona...Time Crisis...Secret Recipe...
aiks...No more money....AGAIN...
And something ridiculous happen as well...

When we are in the toilet at MP's food court..
I accidentally bump into a guy..
Sudenlly he called me...
At1st I thought he is too "sensitive" and want an apology from me..
but turn out asking me .....
"Are you interested to be a model? "
I was like...wtf... Me?
Nonono..I'm not interested..sorry ar...swt~

First..Im thin like a stick...un-photogenic...why would I join..making fun of myself eh..haha..

Lepak around the mall..the time sure flies..
Went fetchin Kent back to MP AGAIN! from his house at Malacca Baru..(zz petrol banyak eh..)
Have our Dinner at US pizza..(Pizza Hut is full!)
and went straight on to Facebook..GAMING! xD
it's been awhile we play together..^^
Have a short Tea at the mamak..watching MU lose to Everton..(Penalty) T,T ..sob..
Bad day...haiz..

Overally...Today ..Yesterday..and day Before Yesterday is the Day of SPENDING MONEY!
My 2 month of "salary" ...Gone..T,T
How to Survvive till May ??!!!

Oh btw...
Short Hair =)
well..the front and back only la..xD
some ppl prefer short some prefer long...
so i choose to stay in the middle !! kakaka..

I Lied...

I lied to the world..
I lied to everyone..
My family..My best friend..Friends...and Myself..
Hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!
Out of my mind..... =='

Lied to everyone for myself ..
Selfish huh..
Faking a smile..Giving them a shitty looks with those confident words..
No one ever doubt..
Doing it like a pro..

Is this gonna end.. ?

I suppose ...it will never met its ending..
Until I can really met someone who could end all this..

七个对不起

七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起”。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男 孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。



大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。



婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢 慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道 了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。


渐 渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说 话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我 始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为 你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……

A Story to Share

A true story I just read from the net.
I don't know whether it's a true story or not thou . xP

**

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog's owner, his wife, and their little boy were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home.

As we made arrangements, the owners told me they thought it would be good for the four-year-old boy to observe the procedure. They felt he could learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker's family surrounded him. The little boy seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on.

Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker's transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker's death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.

The little boy, who had been listening quietly, piped up, "I know why."

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I'd never heard a more comforting explanation. He said, "Everybody is born so that they can learn how to live a good life - like loving everybody and being nice, right?" The four-year- old continued, "Well, animals already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long."