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处女座 终极完美分析

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

　　
很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离\\'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，
宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样
来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。
处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。
处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

Things that Girl should Forgive a Guy

10 Things that Girl should Forgive a Guy

女生应该原谅男生的10个地方 ：

1 如果喜欢他就告诉他，即使被他拒绝了，也不会丢面子，因为在他心里，会因为你的真情而非常非常感激你。

2 如果他喜欢你，要明确地告诉他你对他的感情，喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就是不喜欢，千万不要怕伤害他而犹豫不决，不要让他等到最后才受到抛弃，因为男孩子的心一旦破碎了就很难再好起来。

3 男孩子也有自己的脾气，只是因为爱你而压抑着，不要总是任性，有时候他们的决定也很有道理。

4 男孩子莫名其妙的向你发脾气，那是因为爱你，把你当成最亲，最贴心，最有安全感的人，千万不要冲着他发脾气反击，静静的等着，等他消气后满怀后悔来抱着你。

5 他为你准备的东西，即使再难看，再廉价，也要去珍惜，因为那里面融汇着他整晚的思绪。

6 相信他会给你多么多么美好的生活，要给他鼓励，因为鼓励会让他创造奇迹。

7 不要总是打探他去哪，告诉他注意安全，你会等着他就可以。

8 不要总说我爱你，他会半真半笑的说你烦，但不要不说，因为有时候，他们比女孩子更需要这句

9 他为你掉眼泪了，那么他是真的非常爱你，珍惜他的每一滴泪，不要道歉，不要安慰，握着他的手，默默的为他擦去泪滴。

10 要信任他，他爱你，就什么都不会骗你，即使真的有欺骗，也是为了让你们的爱情能够永远不离不弃。

Everyone can Laugh at me

Im sorry....I tried to be happy, But I cant , no matter how hard I tried...
without you in my last chapter its just impossible..
Im sorry for being so weak...
Cuz you duno how important you are to me...

This Song

This song..80% are describing my feeling...haha..coincidence...

说好的幸福呢 - Jay


你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了 走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢


This song are listed in one of my Personal Theme d xD

1st day ,
its better than I thought it would be.
Although the outcome is a sad one,
but after I know the TRUTH, I had no reason to felt sad anymore.
Cuz I know the cause, reason and what she wants
And "Sadness" is not what she wants.
Whats the point of being sad while she still can living her life happily ?
So...^^ gona stay happy also..
Now..
Can only hope and wish things will work out the happy way....
Probably in weeks..months..years?.. It doesnt matter..Let fate decide...


*note to TXX , Of course I hope we can back together la..
Its a lie If I say I dont care atall if she does give up on me.. xP


Tomorrow presentation...haiz..T,T worry~~!!

A Lesson Everyone must learn

All things went clear...
I finally know whats the reason.
I finally get to know her Heart Voice
I finally get to know her complaints this whole time.
I'm so sucks....I didn't know the way I care bout her have been pressurizing her and making her so miserable this whole time.
I'm so sucks!! I know nothing this whole time.

But I'm glad she finally being True to me.
I just wana let everyone know , please..if you had any dissatisfaction, complaints or anything you think I'm wrong , please dont hesitate to tell me and point out my mistakes. I wont angry nor upset because of that. Its better than you keep it and just leave me repeating the mistake again and again right?..
Im tired...Its been 2 days I haven get a real sleep because of that matter.
Now that Its clear ...time to replenish back my spirit...
Gota prepare for the coming exams d..
Gota live my life to the fullest..
I hope the day where our fingers seek each others again will come soon.

Take care~ Im oways here waiting for you.. You will see a different me , I promise..

Be true to each other is the way to strenghten up bond and making each other a better person.

Something worth to die for

23rd November

Alright, continue with the story from this morning.
Went to NSQ meeting in 10am.
Major chest pain. Like something was burning a hell out if me inside.
Sore throat are getting worsen, and I have to endure starvation after da last sandwich I had yesterday 5pm, the last meal I had with her was fully digested till this afternoon 2pm.
Went to Kopitiam n have my 1st meal of the day.
Went to DP with Kent and Kenjii
note* Accompany Kenjii find his girl .
After that I "beg" my friend to accompany me for the day.
Cuz being alone will make me crazy in such a mood I'm having now.
We loiter around in DP with no directions or purpose.
1st time Im in the mall with a messy hair and plain silly looking T tht I only wear at home.
Great...how can I show my face again there? T,T
Memories of what's happening yesterday just flash through my head.
How sad....cuz things turns out the way I dont wish to happen.
My greatest fear had just came true.
But nevermind..atleast I'm being honest to everyone and myself for not hiding what I really thinks. Cause that is what I always believe in.
Honesty,Trust and Faith can make the world a better place.
haha..but it seems Im too naive..

After lunch
We went for pool with Kent n Kenjii
And joined by JS n Dennis after awhile.
Guess what...I met Weekiat there again =='
n so we play pool for 2 hours+ like I used to do when Im in a bad mood
*at1st I wana go Jetty n feel da sea breeze..but its damn hot and I scare Im gona jump to the sea ..xP kiddin~

While I was playing, I felt a sudden excruciating chest pain that I can barely even stand up straight.
I just went dizzy nausea.
Plus, my finger are cramping for the 1st time in my life! when Im playing.
With all those symptoms, Im suffering dehydration.
cuz since yesterday night I havent even touch a drop of water except a VERY SERIOUSLY CONCENTRATED Coffee in the afternoon at Kopitiam.
Thanks Kent for buying me a bottle of water.
And I still felt dizzy throughout the game and also in the evening.
Ohya, I have to thank Weekiat too for the concern when we are in the pool centre.

We went back to MP after the game and have my 2nd drink at Mp pearl.
Together with Dennis,HS,Kent,Kenjii
We chat alot and they all make me laugh alot today.
But little do they know how aching i'm, suffering inside.
A few times I was sobbing when I recall back the sweet times "WE" had ,
and why things had to turns out this way today.

My chest are still aching, or should I say burning.
I don't know how long it gona stay like this.
But God, please, Stop torturing me anymore.

Im glad my friends are around,
They always cheers me up with their silly act and jokes.
They just never change. =)

They plan to eat at Wong Kok.
But we end up eating in DeFun or Xin Tian Di.
because WK was flooded with people.
I didnt order any food cept for a glass of "Stocking tea"
Im hungry, but I just don't have any appetite to put any food inside my stomache.
Well, don't worry..Atleast I ate some of the "Tauhu" HS ordered.

Im so envy, how Dennis and HS can be so sweet together.
No arguments, no fighting and how they can talk about almost everything together.
and so as HS cousin n her bf. They came to find HS when we are in XTD.
They plan to go ride the Eyes Of Malaysia.
n they ask me n Kent to come along.
Aww..don't they scare I really jump down from there?
haha..
How funny and ironic at the same time.
Me n Kent turn down the invite and head home.
Well..Kent went home after I fetch him to get his bike at my house.
n I went Habeeb, near MMU to find my classmate.
Its their turn to accompany me at night time ..haha
Like usual, they are funny as ever..
I feel better mentally,although the burning pain inside my chest are still tormenting me physically.
Now I know why they call it a Heart broken.
The feelings are just like you really broke your heart.
Blood rushing out from your heart n overflowing your chest, suffocating you from taking a breath and torturing you with that burning hot gas.
Its like a Hell was living inside your body.

Eric,PJ,Tze,Alvin,HongY,KYee,Sim
We went to cafe for some games and it did bring my mood up ..
but ...
when we are paying the bills
I found out that I hav only RM 9 left for this month to spend.
One of the 4 big problem I have.
Running low on cash to use.

Im sucks..
Probably the biggest failure in the man history.
Cause I have nothing.
I'm having problem on money cause I dont even have a career.
My laptop is dead.
Big and alot of problems in my studies.
n now..I even make the one I love the most leave and hate me because of my Curiousity n Jealousy for asking her too much.
I had nothing left.
How I wish I cud just dissapear so that I wont bring problems to my friends and family.

Now im back home..alone again..and Im still suffering from the pain of my burning chest...and the grumbling sound from my empty stomache that prevents me from going to sleep peacefully..
n I had to say sorry to all the friends that suggest me to forget bout her and go on with my life.
Im sorry I cant do that, Cause shes already a part of my life,
n no one can ever replace that place.
You can call me an idiot, sucks, obsessed or whatever...Thats just me..
n Thank you for those who giving me support and courage to hold on ..


Im really grateful.. and thanks a million, to all my friends who are giving me both mentally and physically support this whole time.

They can sacrifice their time just to teach a stupid math idiot like me so that I can pass my exam.

Time to time reminding me exam is coming when im still dreaming everyday.

Accompany me when I felt lonely and bored.

Never let me down when I needed them.

Giving me advise and telling me what I do wrong and correct me to the right way.

When I pissed them off with my bad attitude, they only angry for a little while and will actually try to let me know that what I did was not appropriate and change me into a better person.

Let me know that they are always here for me no matter what and will be available 24/7 if I needed them.

Sending me msges to make sure I'm alright although I have told them many times that Im fine.

They never felt tired, annoyed or frustrated Listening to my crap stories when I need someone to talk to.

Woke up in the middle of the night just to answer my phone and hear my "grandmother's story".

Encouraging and giving me confidence when I was about to give up.

Tolerate and still acknowledge me as a friend eventhough I have been treating them alil rude.

Don't want to see me die cause still wana see my "xiong lan" face..haha

Come out just to have a tea with me although he's still rushing to complete his homework.

And most importantly they are all True to me. Where we share no secrets and they never lied to you eventhough what they are gona say can hurt or even humiliate you.

Thats what strengthens our friendships..cuz nothing can affects our friendship..RIGHT GUYS ? !!!

There's still alot of things these Friends have done for me that I cant manage finish listing them all cause they are still growing more and more..

Although sometimes they Tease me, make fun of me, making jokes out of me
But it makes me felt that Im actually something to you guys, and you guys notice my existence.

Somehow we are all important to each other and want to hold on to this friendship forever.
And we wont fight nor hate each other for some silly misunderstanding or whatever that might hit us. As long as we are true to each other. Nothing's gona bring us apart.
Thank you, all my friends...


Family,Friends,Her..
They are the most important thing in my life
I don't want to lose any of them
I'll do everything to keep them in one piece...
Even if I had to die.
( Dont worry my friend, I wont commit suicide ==' I still need to live so I can take care of them )

Insomnia

Cant sleep..i stayed up on bed for the whole night...
well, at least i get to doze off awhile in the morning..
its 9:19am currently. It felt like something was crushing my chest, and something are trying to get his way out from my chest. It hurts so bad I can hardly even close my eyes.

I online till 4+ am yesterday..and I find that I'm not alone.
Every hour there will be a friend came and ask how am I and giving me encouragement.
Accompany me through the night when I need someone the most.
i really appreciate that. I thank you all here.
Midterm is coming.
How ironic, just like last time when I'm having SPM.
You left when I need you the most.
It's such a coincidence every time.
Just like the song, LeeHom's "Your Not Here"
当我需要你的爱 你不在


I just hope everything will turn bright and return to the happy times we used to have.

Thanks my friend

John ..Agnes..YT..Rainbow..Eric...PJ..XH...
Thx u guys..thanks for accompany me when im sad..
Especiall John,Agnes and YT
u guys giv me a lot of point of view..right or wrong...
Thanks..I learn something new and valuable too...
I'l share it next time the next blog maybe..what I have learn..
well..feeling better now..gtg sleep den..nyt..

Save me, but Dont let me Live

Its been quite awhile i wrote something here..sorry
cuz my laptop is "dead" as you all know...
using my other laptop from KLANG right now =='
N so sorry..today I hav to write something, well..unhappy. For my 1st post after a long time of absent..

Note* The things Im gona write now are unimportant to you guys..so you can ignore what Im about to write and save up your time to do something much more meaningful..like hanging out more with your love ones.. closing the gaps, strenghtening the bond you guys have, and understand each other more when you have the chance, than reading the crap im writing here...I just wana express n vent out all the Compressed Grief~ by words..






Cold..typing in a air-cond room
Hands shaky zzz..sore throat =='..my feet are cold too..haiz..
but it cant compare to how my heart feels right now..Freezing numb

My buddy..(you kno who you are) thx fer listening to my complains..n so sorry you hav to sit infront of da comp n work out ur fingers to reply me n giving me ur ideas..thx
or else i dun even kno what to do and maybe you guys will see me in the news da next day ..haha



ok..here goes...

I don't know why we cant speak things out..EVERYTIME!!
If your talking bout Privacy...I have tons of reasons why Privacy policy dont work here..
FIND ME to know it !!!


I asked...

Who am I to U?
or
What am I to U?

You answer me "Is that a Question?"
Nice answer...
Now I know Im "Nothing". Thanks
原来我什么都不是...




I Sucks!!
know why?
I suck...Cuz I try to know everything bout you, understand what and how you think.
How you act towards certain circumstances so I know how to handle things when theres problem between us.
But what I get?.."I-Dont-Care" from U
Busy?..Alright..Check your inbox...or your call log..I dont think my messages nor Call duration are longer than anyone in your inbox.
Now your in your holidays..I asked you out..n try to talk face to face.
What I get?.."Dont want to talk, I dont know, Whatever sort of answer...and even answer that makes no sense.
I dont get it..You told me distance is a problem..No! Thats just an excuse, and I hav to be cruel to tell you the problem are U..ok Us..n I say U is bcuz u are not helping atall...even there is no distance the problem will still emerge one day.
I have try my best to overcome, and get to the point what was happening.
But you always fence up a wall, why?..What actuallly am I to U?
When it comes to us both, I can tell you everything. But why cant you?..not even when i asked.
I try to hold things together..why cant you help abit?..Cant you tolerate abit?
Sorry to say this , but sacrifice abit?..

You say I intrude your privacy, but do you know why I do that?..You don't know why..
You didnt even asked.
You can say Im a heavy thinker..easy jealous...childish...watsoever
I sucks..cuz I went through so many non of my bussiness thing
I sucks..cuz I try to make things right but your not giving any help atall and making it worst
I sucks..cuz everytime the problems will end up im da one whos get to blame.
I sucks..cuz I too softhearted to even scold you.
I sucks..cuz I fail to show you what your problem is and putting all the blame on myself.
I sucks..cuz I fail to know what are you thinking everytime.
I sucks..cuz I have to guess your thoughts everytime we had problems n fail to do so.
I sucks..cuz I always make you angry and dissapointed by asking you question that you refuse to answer.
I sucks..because I care so much bout both of us and it ends up Im intruding your privacy
I sucks..because you dont even telll me what you are unsatisfied with me.
How am I suppose to know what I do wrong when U dint tell me anything.
I cant read mind, Im no God...please...
I sucks..because I can sacrifice everything for U but you cant even sacrifice a minute for me.
I sucks..because in the past i woke up in 6am so I can send a Good morning to U while my class is in 2pm..
I sucks..because I stay up with U till 4am so tht I can hear ur Good night n say da same to U althou jz via SMS when my class is 8am in the morning and a presentation are waiting.
I sucks..because I thought someday you will realise and atleast acknowledge what I have done.

..Talk bout a minute...I had my phone on 24/7..ringing non stop for the ringtone when im a sleep so i dont miss a msg or a call from you.
I dont even dare to off my phone even in an exam..
Theres a time I even reply you in an exam having the risk I'll be catch for cheating.
Everytime a message comes in, the 1st thing I thought was U, but ends up disappoint everytime.
Now I have overcome that symptom cuz you told me you were too busy...
Ok..I understands..althou I do hope "once in a while" when you can actually "think of me" for only even one second..but..you never did..don't believe?..wana check my inbox? I nvr delete your msg..

*Snap*
Great...what I have been writing just now..I hope it doesn cause anymore misunderstanding or making u piss off..Im sorry..
If Loving U will make me sucks
I'll be a Sucker for all my entire life...
I love you...

p/s. sorry buddy..I kno ur gona scold me for this..but I'l remain to be a sucker for the rest of my life if i have to..n thx anyway..

My Laptop Died

O damn!!
Yesterday my Laptop officially DIED!!!
so..i wont be around "on the line" for sometimes..haiz...sian...heartache T,T..
my best buddy...sobsob...die..

N so again Im talkin crap

Alright..its da 1st day of 2nd semester
10am ..my alarm rang...im still sleeping like a log...n witout knwing it, i have been snoozing for 30 mins.. da Old man Zhou still haven finish his game with me ma...kacao...
n so..the game continue till 11 am..finally i won the game..with my half open eyes..
unwillingly...brushing my teeth..takin a nice hot bath..eat my breakfas..pack up my things n doze a lil on da sofa n my way to school..

Our 1st class - PCA (Computer Application)
boring class...the chubby youngster look alike lecturer...teaching us COMPUTER..from the basic..n i MEAN IT! BASICS!
n so..like wat i usualy do infront of the comp.
Surfing the web...n xplore what they hide in the comp also xD
n guess wat..i found lox of malays song ..even videos with names duno wat wat sunat..swt~
i dare not to open it thou @@'

Alryt ..lunch time..rainbow bday today..
so we just sang a simple bday song..cut the cake..n tht simple..xP swt~
very "bu hao yi si" >,<
n also have to thank rainbow today..for teachin me,weekiat,sheng ..the trio of Math idiots..xD
Sincerely!! THANKS!! WE WILL DO OUR BEST!! T,T

alryt..most of da time im spending my time in school..
kinda feel bad ...cuz all I did today at my grandma's was just EAT..
..after ate den off i go, fetch my mum home n went to the library..
Total 19 mins at my grandma's place...

em..now for some off topic things to write...

1st..*I assume most of you have seen in my personal msg in MSN

-To God who I hate so much..Thanks for everything I have today..
Well..although they looks like nothing big..nothing special..
but just because of that..we dont know how much lucky we are to have them.
Until one day we lost it..then only we know how precious n How stupid we are for not noticing it and paying attention to them.
( I dont believe GOD, just that I doesnt know who to thank for..xD)

We always WANT something we DONT HAVE.
Thats why we work hard to get it, n we also complain when we doesn get what we expect to get back..
Human nature..for wanting something we dont have n neglect something we had.
Cause we thought that is what we SUPPOSE to have.

n SO!!
How to live happily with no worries n harmony~?
EXPECT NOTHING!
Expect nothing back from what you gave.
Expect nothing from someone you hope what they will give.
Expect nothing from the world cause they dont care a shit bout you.
Expect nothing from GOD cause he's just sitting right up there n SLEEP.

But,
Give everything to the things you Care.
Give everything to the ones you Love.
Give everything to your Passion.
Give everything into your Life.
Show GOD you are happy without them.
One day,
You'll find out The Joy of giving,
Rather than fretting everyday why you got nothing.

A lesson I learn...from thinking too much everyday..=='
Was thinking why I waste my time on something bad where I can use that precious time to plan my future..find ways to work things well..Correct the mistake I've done n so much more...

ok..enough of talking crap here d..tired..sleep lo...

Small Fish wedding

Saturday~!!
Aunt's wedding function today for Malacca
everything went well...cept the girls..still choosy bout their clothes..shoes..aiks..
The afternoon are just, well..normal..where i had nothing to do at home but watch tv..on9..read da papers..(while the girls are still busy choosing their shoes..)
basically my life for today are just boring..till evening..
well..not bragging myself..20 mins for bathing + clothing and my hair ^^
n off i go ..fetch my mum to da hotel at 6..n back home again...cuz she had to arrange and bringing some stuffs..well i dont care la..


Alryt, me before going~ (witout da coat)



45mins after waiting my grandma n dad got ready...its 7pm lo..
at1st my dad wants me to drive *I didnt fetch him ,not even once yet*
But due to "the size of the car and da passenger we have to fetch later"
it ends up he drive his own in his own car..
so there we go..reach Renaissance...2nd floor..
A lil secret here..
Actually Renaissance hotel wasnt even in our choice for the function.
I hope they don't sue me for saying this..
but the service is kinda s***
The food...aiks..i better go to a restaurant..
da price..no doubt..bout 800+ a table
So why we still held it here?
erhem..becuz thers a "lao keh po"
well..shes my grandma fren's sister =='
Brainwashin my grandma how good they are..n how much discount they can offer us..da food...wateva...
n so..ends up here..I'l talk about that "lao keh po" later...thers a lot of 'interesting' things i wana tell..
em..ok ..stick with the main point..
smile~ a pic before "usher-ing" da guest.. =)

dang..embarassing today..where every1 around recognise who m i but i dun recgnise them..swt~

Too bad dear didnt come today...There's lots of people i want her to know and vice versa.
n thers lot of people urge to see her also..haha
well,it had to wait..em..mayb chinese new year? haha..


Ice sculpture~ nice ?

Totally 19 tables FULL
n some people went high during da dinner
n sing n sing n sing...songs that are older than me @@' didnt have their picture thou cuz im busy-ing eating haha..
oh btw..da lao keh po also sang..==' well..she sings da most..zz ..n straightly i lost my appetite..not bcuz her singing..but the way she dress..OMG!! too bad i didnt took her picture..cuz I DONT WANT TO!! you guys out there are sure gona go WTF!! WTH!! Oh jesus!!
man..heres something to let u guys imagine..
ok ..here goes..
Imagine a 60+ years old grandma..short...'chubby' but not elastic..xD get wat i mean?..
wearing a 2 line night gown..showing her 'butterfly' arms..round plumpy tummy..n da face..oh damn..how thick!! we are in the 21st century man!
Simply just imagine a old grandma wear like a teenager..with heavy makeup from da 50s.
sumtin i just dun get it..my aunt, the bride only have 1 night gown..but da LKP chg her clothes each time after she sings..swt~
oh ya..she sang "da bei zhou" (a Buddha scripture) man..tak boleh tahan !! xP

ok..talk too much bout her..i'l stop here..
let u guys see something nicer..
Alrite..the bride and the groom
there's plenty more..but not with me now
i'l upload as soon as i got it..











Alrite..i kno da cake blocked da groom's face but its not my fault !! My sis took it !!


Alrite..kinda late ryt now..i'l stop since im lacked of photos to continue da story..
n a bit sleepy..due to Wine + Beer + Chinese tea

To be continue.....

Can I have this Dance

Ok..today...is today..(bai chi*)
today is not yesterday...(of cuz la..==*)
Today is another day, same like the day before yesterday..(heh?)
It means boring like the day before yesterday lo..
also means nothing particular happen...Meaningless..(oo..)

hm...sista watchin a SG drama jz nw..
n ...sumtin breaks my faith n confident..haiz...Distance does matters...lol

So sick of love song..
so tired of tears..
so done with wishing..you were still here~

haha..sry..was listening to "So Sick"..cant control myself xP

alryt ..continue..
but den...the song "Can I have This Dance" from Highschool Musical 3 was played..
(inside some blog of ppl i duno)
found out it kinda nice..n da lyric..well..great =)
here goes...

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

man...how sweet
n ya..im a boy posting bout this HSM3 thing...anything wrong wif dat? haha..
too bad..its too late to recommend the song for my aunt's wedding thou..haiz..
btw..any1 can recomend a site where i can embed the song here?...share share ma..xD

oh oh..talk bout politics..
Barrack OBAma won!!
The 1st 'Black President'
hm..y cant Malaysia learn a lil from them ?
where every1 are still cares about Racism.."skin colour" swt~
Obama won on his own terms, strategically and symbolically..ths all da ppl are saying..
Their president are chosen..despite da race..Its all about Capability..
Msia?..so sorry lo...

I stil remember i saw da news last few days..
i duno much bout politic..but i can see a chinese(i forgot his name) was giving his suggestion in the ...i think dewan rakyat if im nt mistaken..man..those ..erhem..Bumiputera are teasing him..making jokes..man..i can see dey are nt serious atall..
Disappoint..haiz..wat country have i live in ?!!
but still i love my home...n i repeat..my home..not Malaysia..

Hell of a day

Hell of a day
Woke up in da noon today
Feeling bad...wasn't in any mood at all for da day
Jz ryt im about to eat my 'cold' breakfast for lunch,Mum called..I have to fetch my sis from school
Ok..i finish my Brunch in 10 minutes..take my wallet,hat n off i go..
now..something bad happens to ruin my day.
i lost my car keys..accidentally 'throw' it to da bushes..n i hav to spend my time searchin for it under the damn hot sun.
After im back home..im drop dead at the sofa..hot...tired...

AFter a refreshing bath..it does clear my mind abit..my mood are slight restore..
but...it doesn las long..until i checked my exam results on9..as predicted..no miracles..my math = Fail
alryt..tht din ruin my mood dat bad..
Dennis called..ask me out to survey the location wher he's gona celebrate his bday
so..i wait fer him to fetch me...in hunger...till 8 pm wher i suppose tob eating my dinner at my grandma's
went to hav dinner at Kota Laksamana..kent..sharon..dennis..we had alil citchat..n it brighten upp my mood quite alot =)
den we went klebang lo..pantai puteri n etc..n found out its nt suitable..
so we plan to held it at Chrystal bay..da results are stil unknown cuz we are still discuzing..
jz right when we bout to send sharon back..dear send me a msg thru an unknown number..
telling me shes not coming back this weekend as she had to represent her family to attend her cousin's engagement..
another disappointment of da day ...haha...haizz...Im running out of time..how i hope we can spend more time together thou..
But each and everytym it ends up in disappointment n regrets..at1st i wish to settle it all ..communicating wif her this weekend
seems it had to b delayed...problems are gona remain unsolve fer awhile..
Its soooo weird..each n everytym when i hav da chance to talk..but i end up duno where to start..or i forgot wat to say
n jz when i kno wat to say..shes nt here..bz to answer a call..simply jz nt ther to listen..
even if shes beside me..she'l ignore wat i said ...din pay attention..=='
always the prob stays hanging..and she nt knowin it atall..n in the end..i get all da blame fer being inconsiderate..
well..if im nt...ders noway im gona stand u..the real inconsiderate one my dear...

"hang on..hold on..dun give up..."
"you went thru a hell of a hardtime to get wat u have now..cherish it.."
"shes da one for u wat..isnt it?"
"This is her your talkin about..of cuz its nt ez for u..but ur gona b THE ONE!"
"etc...
well..this is all da shit i have heard from loads of frens..but dun worry..im hanging on to this shit ..haha
thx guys..u kno who u are..
im well prepared for all this..but sumtimes i also need somethin to supprt my mental n heart wat..ryt?
im nt invincible thou..
Its a matter of time and faith ..
well..i hav time...but faith...u haven giv me any thou..so sorry to say this...

well..continue with my daily stories..
we went pool after fetchin sharon home
Thx dennis n kent for accompany..
haha..i beat kent today without him even scoring 1 ball xD
n on da way back...thx dennis for hon-ing along da empty road for me to vent out my moodiness..
heres da pool photo..xD



P/s Jz telling whoever u guys outder ..im a person who crave for attention..jz incase u din kno..thts y i hate Loneliness that much..

Nothing more to say after this

请了解，我是人，我有感情，我有感受
Please understand,I'm a human, I have feeling and emotion
像你像任何人一样
Like you and anyone out there
每个人都渴望被重视和关心
Everyone wants to be care and valued
你们需要的，一样我也需要
What you guys need, the same thing goes for me
请别自私，请明白
Please don't be selfish, Please understand
我们都是一样的
We are all the same

想说的只有这些
This is all I have to say
说再多你不了就是不了
Pointless to say more
希望你看到
Hope you can see
我想表达的东西
What I'm trying to let you know
如果还是不行
If things still don't work out
放心，是我的错
Don't worry, Is my fault
是我太天真
I'm too naive


最后结果不重要
爱与不爱没关系
还活着的这一天
是上帝给的机会
你是唯一的终点

Over the rainbow
No colours or whatsoever
Left only sorrow and sadness
You are far beyond reach

Yearn for a starting
Only you can give
Unknown, Are you still here for me?

4th November 2008 1:20 am
Written,
Kay'

Another day

wow..today..blur..woke up in da afternun..cant even diffrentiate dreams n reality
until my fren came to my house oni i start to regain consciousness haha..
after fetchin a few frens we went DP
I jz realise i forgot my wallet when we bought da movie ticket..swt~ how unlucky..
we went fer a lil walk n drink at MP
n dey all talk bout those interesting things happen in school..haiz..how i wish to b in da secondary school life again...T,T NOT!!!
haha..n wat funny is dey are all teachin a fren of mine how to Hold a Girls hand..xP

We went bk to DP at 5 cuz da movies are startin at 530pm
wat worst tht can happen bside i left my wallet at home?
Great..n it happens ..i cant get in to the cinema =='
I left my wallet ,IC ,Licence at home..n the movies are 18PL
swt~ n the stupid supervisor make me to prove im 18 years old..WTF!
how da hell im gona prove when i left my wallet at home?..n hey...every1..u b the judge..do i look below 18?
n threatening me to call the police sayin im tryin to cheat my way in..
So i said...Lapor la..!! n dat stupid guy jz went silent n try to walk out frm me..
I was like WTH!! did i have to cheat for a mere movie n to a lousy piece of shit like u?

..i hav to "sacrifice" my fren to drove me home..take my wallet..n miss 30 mins of the movies..haiz..anyway...thx pal..
F**kin Malay PIG..curse u work as da "doormen" fer ur lifetime..
if it wasnt so many ppl der i wud hav throw him my IC right on his face n stuff his mouth with the tickets
Fuhh! Angry!!
man i hate PIG..


After the movies we went our separate ways..
i went home n eat my dinner ..then off i go to my laptop again..
Ivan nudge me n call me via Msn..
wat a surprise..he tot im havin prob in my relationship after seeing my personal msg n blog..
wat a fren he is ei..haha..
we had a long chat bout both our life..past, now...future..
2 hours went by in a flassh n off her go to watch football..haha

jz when i tot im alone again..a senior of mine when i was in YB giv me a nudge..
Devilgirl89( i duno her real name)
aw..its been a while we chat..
well..off we go..realtionship topic again..haha..
why every1 likes to talk bout relationship prob wif me?..xP
well..kinda happy when she say shes happy to chat wif me compare to her otha fren..^^
1 AM..shes off..n im alone again..haha..

i sent a msg to dear..well..sumtin lyk a rhyme..to wish her goodnyt...
but ..i duno why..her reply feels lyk shes angry..
did i think too much ?..but my instinct nvr wrong bout her..
mayb she misinterpret it n misunderstand the meaning behind the rhyme..
cuz when i read da rhyme da 2nd time n try to think in a negative way..
it reali does mean sumtin not good..xP
n so..i send her a msg via Friendster..y not sms?
cuz i dun wana mess up her night..just incase i think too much n upset her again..
so in frenster msg..she will read it a couple of days later or anytime but now..
just hope she'l reply me ASAP...n time fer me to do xplanation d..haiz..


2:38 AM
i guess its time to sleep..haiz..tmr a boring day again..haha..