拥抱

Found this story on the paper...Just type it all out to share ^^
Translate it in English later xP



上大学时我没来得及谈恋爱，说来你也许不信。听说读完研究生工作好找多了，我便把所有时间都用在学习上。就这样４年过去后我没能离开那个大院子，而是拐进了它的研究生院。

读研究生的几年里我曾经萌生过一次念头，可是我那同学表妹太矜持了，恰巧又要准备毕业论文了，我狠了狠心便把那事放下了。

找工作果然没那么苦难，跟那些搂着老婆、抱着儿子频频出入人才招聘会的同学一比，我心里约略平衡了一些。

我在一家大集团做网络管理工作。我喜欢这份工作和获得可观报酬。所以我拼命工作，经常早出晚归，成了工作狂。老板赏识我，给我加了薪，还把他侄女介绍给我。我一看尽是我那同学的表妹。

也许这就是=缘分。不过我仍然把几乎全部精力都用在工作上，因为公司又聘请了几位硕士和博士，我内心产生了新的危机感。

至于女友，我极少有时间和心情与她谈心，有几次谈着谈着手机就响起了，我便对着手机大呼小叫......

女友在一家传呼台工作，经常整夜整夜守着电话机，给那些深夜里谈生意谈恋爱，或者谈天儿的人们提供方便。

这样，我们往往就生活在两个时间段里。

有一回傍晚，我下班回家，她刚好上班，我们在同一列地铁上相遇了。我们被许多人隔着。我伸长帛子告诉她说：＂我们分手算了啦！＂
她没听见，大声问：
＂你说什么......＂
我只好大音量重说了一遍。
她显然还是没听见，微笑着气急败坏的想：以后在说吧。其实我并不想与她分手，她是个可爱的女生。我产生了那样的想法与那个糟糕的环境有关。

有一天，还是傍晚，我又在地铁站等车回家。车来了，我刚踏上车门就看见她从另一个车门也上了这节车厢，她又去上夜班。我盯住她，拼命往她那边挤。我无论如何得跟她谈谈。她也看见我了，努力向我这边挤。我俩终于在车厢中部相会了。她尴尬笑着，我也是。

她好像知道我的心思：
＂说吧，这是个机会，再过三站，我下车了。＂

这时我身后一个人狠狠挤了我一下。我一下贴在她身上。我第一次感受到了她美妙的气息。身后那人又挤一下，我们完全贴在一起了。我甚至在嘈杂中听见了她美妙的呼吸。我不知不觉已经拥住了她，也说不清是自己的力量，还是借助了身后的惯性。

她低下头，轻声说：
＂抱紧我，别让我倒下......＂

我就抱紧了她，全身荡漾着幸福。
＂其实，那天在车上你的话我都听见了，但愿是听错了。＂她说。

＂你一定听错了......＂我说。

她不在说什么，许久才说：
＂多安静，这世界上就我们俩。＂

我们 抱得更紧了，这已与车上的拥挤无关。一切都凝固了，只有车在飞速前进。
突然有人拽了我一下，把我从梦中拖了出来，是个老头，他提醒我们：
＂年轻人，车到终点了，再走就是往回开了。＂

老头美妙地微笑着，摇晃着，下车了。

原来车上早没人了，空荡荡的，车厢中只有我俩拥抱着站在中间。我们继续抱着。又过了很久，广播说...

她才轻轻推开我，车上又开始拥挤。她随着人流向车门＂飘＂去。

我心里说：
＂该娶她了......＂

这时，她终于回过头来了，拼命朝我挥着手，用力喊着：
＂我全听见了！＂

我踮起脚，用力地点着头。


环境不同爱情的状态不同，一份美好的爱情总是不容易获得，但是一旦拥有的时候一定要去珍惜它。两个人拥抱在一起，这个世界就是属于两个人的，没有任何人可以打破两个人的世界。

Never brought to Life

Take me somewhere we can be alone
Hurting me like there's no tomorrow
I'm tired of waiting
Wonder you ever will coming around

Save me I've been feeling so alone
All there's left to do is run
I kept waiting but you never come
Just thinking how we can't get along

Dreaming through the night
One hand on the steering-wheel
and the other on your heart
Break by the light of dawn

Crush me I've been feeling so alone
All you have to do is run
I love you and that's all I really know
Wasting my life thinking of you

Baby please come back
Makes me wish that
I was never brought to life

Maybe - Secondhand Serenade

Didn't you want to hear
The sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
The expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold, hard road when you wake up
And I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
And I'm here to sing
About the things that mattered
About the things that made us feel alive for oh, so long
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

And someday
I promise I'll be gone
And someday
I might even sing this song to you
I might even sing this song to you, to you, to you
And I was crying alone tonight
And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So just come back
I'll make it better than it ever was
I'll make it better than it ever was

Maybe it's just me
Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye and your calm, hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Better In Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'mma be ok


Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do)
It'll all get better in time

Freaky December

Edit from the song,
Love Story by Taylor Swift
Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade
Your Call by Secondhand Serenade


We were both young when I first saw you
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
I know you don't think that I am trying
Waiting for your,
Call I'm sick,
Call I'm angry,
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes

And I'm tired of being all alone,
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home

Juliet save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Juliet save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think
I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have
How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad you'll pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes



Thinking of you
Even though it hurts
But still it comforts me from all the Sorrow im facing..
Is it good or is it bad?


From my experience..December are freaky..
Many..unfortunate things happened in December
I don't believe it
until everything happened again this December like it happened last year's December
I m kinda sick of this ..

Addicted

You're like a drug
Blood to vampires
Something irresistible
An addiction to me

Unequivocally knowing
How Edward Cullen felts
Hands grasping in fist
Resisting...
Towards Bella Swan

the scent of yours
Perplexing my every thoughts
The voice so melodious
That it upheaval
Every heartbeats of mine

The touch Stung my hands
My throat felt tight
I had lost my breath
Just by your side

How hard is it
To keep a distance
not hearing your thoughts
To not hold you tight

I'm a good liar
I have to be
To change that habit
that just gets worse and worse

thinking of you
seeing your face in my mind
every second that I was away
it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy

To constantly reminding myself
Your not mine
Very dark
life was like a moonless night

So maybe this is hell. I don’t care. I’ll take it.

*took some quotes from Edward Cullen* xD

角落

凌乱的思绪
脑海里漂浮的影子
全都是你
反复的想着
试着寻找那熟悉的记忆
你的发香
你的笑容
一一反映在脑海里
挥散不去

提起手机
拨打了最熟悉不过的那个号码
嘟…
“您拨的号码并未接通，请稍候再拨…”

开启了手提电脑
上了网络通
你的名字
显示在无上线那栏
到底该怎么联络你
到底何时才能对彼此坦白
到底谁能给我一个答案

一直以为放手
是那么简单的事
一直以为潇洒的离开
心里就不会留下刺
原本拟下的所有约定
如今成了没有结局的故事
为何没有人懂我
我该怎么表达
我该怎么告诉你
你其实还在
我心里的某个…… 角落。


你离去的背影
泪盈满眶的画面
依然荡漾在我心底
我只想说
我还爱你

Copy from *Rainbow*

Wow...100% right about me .. @@'


Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity but all in all you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

You are on tenterhooks and appear to be extremely nervous and upset. You are bored and you feel that life has far more to offer than this present day mundane existence. The way that you feel indicates that you have the need for a responsive and understanding relationship. You are prepared to follow up any opportunity which may present itself. However you are very choosy and you refuse to be swept off your feet unless integrity can proved to be 100% genuine. Therefore you are holding back, keeping your emotions in check because before you let down your guard you have to be sure. You are too trusting and you have no desire to be hurt again. You are responsive to conditions around you - but forever under control.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophesy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.



go try it yourself..
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

Teach me How

I don't know
Why promises can be broken so easily
Yet, Why is it so hard for me to forget.
It's easier to leave, than to be left behind
I choose the latter.

Teach me,
Teach me how.
Explain..
Love and Obsess ?
Care and Possessive ?
Difference in Being honest, straight and Ego ?
I Can't seems to do things right every time.
I Just want to improve everything
but it seems we are going the wrong way.
You didn't tell me when im wrong
And I don't know how to explain my thoughts
Scold me..hit me..Just let me know
Teach me right from wrong
Im not as wise as everyone thinks
Im only human
Imperfect ...



Why everyone misinterpret what I want to say..
What I want to express out...
Friends..Family..
No one knows..
Teach me,
Teach me how.
How to speak..
How to express my thoughts?
No one really understands
A friend of six years long
Misunderstands me..
I lose...Im lost..



Nobody really cares if you’re miserable
Behind the smile is everything you'll never understand.
When i cry at night,the only thing i can think to myself is,
How can i seem so perfectly fine in the morning?
Why do i smile like nothing is wrong and how does not one single person notice that i'm not ok?

How would you feel when your awake by the sound of quarreling instead of your alarm.
How would you feel when you have to be someone your not everyday.
How would you feel when you cant do anything to help but making things worst.
How would you feel when the one you need the most left at the critical moment.

A year without blood shed...brings so much misfortune both myself and people around me.
Please...
If I have to shed blood to bring an end to this
I'll bleed out all my blood for everyone I love

最痛不是事情发生在自己身上，而是发生时自己什么也做不到

White flag - Dido

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
Or tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Tagged by Mai

1.Do you think you`re hot?
- Im cold *shiver*

2.Upload your fav picture of you!
- Fav pic o..in my phone..wana c? find me la xD

3. Why do you like that picture?
- Err..bcuz its me?..xD

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
- hm..aiks..long tym d..last time is with HER ..@@''

5. The last song you listened to?
- Shuo Hao De Xin Fu Ne - Jay Chow

6. What are you doing now beside this?
- err...msn..

7.What name would you prefer besides yours?
- Kay..

People i tag :
1. Vincent
2. Dominic
3. Marilyn
4.Eric
5.Chinhuey
6.Way Loon
7.Elaine
8.Rainbow
( I only tag ppl who hav blogspot that i know..) @@'

8. Who is number 1?
- Primary classmate

9. Number 3 is having a relationship with?
- Zachy zachy? xD

10. Say something about number 5?
- hm..Loyal

11. How about number 4?
- Faggot...xD

12. Who is number 2?
- a friend in MMU

Tagged by Ah Mao Marilyn xP

1. Put your iTunes/any other players on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 1 X infinity number of friends who might enjoy doing this.

+++

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
So sick-Neyo *wow..exactly my answer @@*

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Can't live without you *....*

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Make me a fool

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hate that I love you-Rihanna ft Neyo

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
FAll for you *=,=*

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
What can I do *err..*

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
I believe I can fly *think im crazy maybe*

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Bleeding love

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
My heart will go on

10. WHAT IS 2+2?
Wei Yi - LeeHom *swt~..wats this tag thing for o *

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Xie Xie - Wilbert Pan

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Ni bu zai - Lee Hom

13. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Can I have this dance *swt~ dont want la*

14. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Forever love - LeeHom *hm..nt bad..AH MAO!! TEACH ME HOW TO DANCE!*

15. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Zui chang de dian ying - Jay Chow *The longest movie* huh??!!

16. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Ai cuo - LeeHom * Wrong love..haha..swt~*

17. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
When you say nothing at all *lol...hidden meaning in the answer*

18. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Jie kou -Jay Chow *Excuses..haha xD*

19. WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Dogfight-Move *wow..creepy..the list of songs kinda match the question @@''*

20. HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Make me a fool *hm..din kno i put this song twice in the player @@'*

21. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Bad day *aiks..*

22. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
You're beautiful *huh?? swt

23. WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Rage you dream -Move

24. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Kiss Goodbye - LeeHom

Why ar?

Why ar?
Why always not me but people around me ar?
zzzzzzzz

I don't know what to say
What if Im not there..
What if we didnt go there..
Why bad things just keep happening on people beside..
Why not me..
Im sick of it !

Family and friends..
Why i always end up harmless!!

I stand by thee side
Watching , just watching
The dark angel do its prank

Family, friends and foe
Things just happened
One by one
Defenseless
Helpless

My hands are stained by the innocent's
Why not me?
Throw it all at me
Or is it my life that worthless ?
That Even bad luck abandoned me


MISFORTUNE
I dare YOU to come at ME
Leave those around me alone!!
Bring it on!

Thank You

Damp cold breeze
Shivers through the bone
Sleep at five
Eyes opened at seven

Moody day
The last moment
People gathered and play
One last entertainment

Messages written on everyone's back
by every friends we had in that
Photos taken, signature signed
Remain forever in our minds

Contribution and Appreciation
What in me are just Guilty conscious
Reddy nose and tears trapped
Holding on as people shed

Shakes and hugs
Little girl~
One big hugged
My tears dropped
How touching the scenery was
Leader and members alike
THE BEST!

Thank you
Thank you
and
Thank you

Its all we can say
Without everybody
There's no word for Success

Brothers

The camp ends today
people left with both happy and sad on their faces

Nearly cried out when they are sharing their thoughts
Appreciation...Experience... T,T

Overally! learnt a lot from it..
Althou i hav only been there for 2 days where its suppose to be 4
met new friends here..
both younger or older than me..
guess what..the youngest are just 13 years old xD
shes cute..well...naughty..swt~
Bruises and cuts are over my body ..haha..
nt from playing..
but carrying all the stuffs..and busy-ing saving people @@'
NSQ "YOU AI" camp!! SUCCESS!!!
AWAITING FOR THE NEXT YEAR !!!



agh..back to home at 6pm..
ZM called..ask me out ..wana talk with me wor..
so ..i went Portugis Settlement at 1030pm+
wa..My whole body aches and tired from not having enough sleep.. T,T
Meet him ,PS n MY there..
PS n MY went straight home right after I reached..
n so..Me n ZM ...well...just sit right there..n chat OUR LIFE..haha

He told me alot of his own life that's happening recently..
Surprisingly..his life right now was almost the same Im having..but mine are worser la..heh..
Our family both having problems financially recently..
n he talks bout his own opinion and point of view on alot of matters..
sad things..frustrating things..alot we have in common I discovered..

today is not a day for me..
what the hell im crying the whole day o !!!

Afternoon sobbing at the campsite..
Night ...ok..i admit..I cried..infront of a man..haha..shame isn't it..
but im nt embarassed to talk about it!
ZM is a bro!!..
he listened to me...mentally supported me...
Thanks for listening to what I have kept to myself all this long..
I do feel better after venting it all out ..and yes..plus a cry.. =='
Can't helped..it came out itself..
haha..ironic..I still remembers the response I get when I 1st told "her" my problems..
"BULLSHIT" ....imagine the one that you need the most at the moment told you that..

ZM..thanks..I felt better!!! xD ..ur the man...
n sorry that I made you felt guilty ...its not your fault..
I have my own responsiblity too..
It's my own personal family matters anyway..you don't have to put yourself into it alryt?
We'll fight together aite? muahahaha...you still got MayY wat..wakakaka..
We go MU watch footballl in the future...xD

Please Look at ME

Can't you see oh
can't you see?

Look at me
Back in the scene
No flowers no rings
Shame on me

Recall the memories
What did you see?
A true heart I had
Is it worth a penny?

Theory memorizing facts
I wasn't able to achieve
A test today..
Its all mischief

English I had
tomorrow it will be
Last thing to do
Before a camping spree

Leeches and speeches
Two days a night
Muddy and buddy
Tomorrow I will be

I wanted to see you
Embracing your warmth
and Hold you tight
In my dreams perhaps
Everything about you
Trap
Agony impales the heart

Wake me up when the world ends
Not anyone, but You

(yish~!! duno wat da hell..words keeps coming to my heads)... =='

No one can Replace

An angel's smile lit her expression
Alluring it catches every sight
Just a fraction of a seconds
Her dark eyes flickered to mine

Sky blue
Her color today
Sitting three tables away
Left side of me
A pen on the hand
Bite on the lips
A crush...?

No...

Broken wings
Lost..
Where's the heart?
Left side of the chest
Empty
a Crush
Yes! the heart was crushed

Dangerous
As it tear you apart
more and more
Breaking every single piece
Merciless

Clueless
I had no idea
what else to write
I don't wish to end this
No one hears my cry

Shine
How I miss the sun
Shade by the clouds
Missing the wind
How sweet that moments are

The sand that covers my feet
The stars shining above
Salty aroma rubs off my cheek
Your warmth with me
Priceless

You are the heart
Can't fall in
No Love
The sheep falls for the Lion
A good way to die

Single mingle
Alone in one
Till the clock of life stops ticking
Only you and no one

Left Over Valediction Eternity

Unfnished

Teddy teddy..
Once in a smile
See your tears
and hear your prayers

Teddy teddy..
Once in those arms
now replaced when new one comes
Old and forsaken
Unable to cry
No one remembers


In such silence
A mask is in need
Sealing every emotion
Reminding the spoken promise
Fading from your face
Aches... comes to reach my veins


day by day it cuts through the spirit
nothing i can do but to drop a tear
and numb the pain
A book an aspirin
Barely match the tone you sang
Touch of your hand
Smile on your face
A place where saints and angels are
Reason to see another day
I will fall for you over again

A twist in my story
Counting the seconds until you break the silence
Whispers turns to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
And it turns into laughter
taking away all our fears

Serenade you whisper
our hands in one
A world like no others
belonging to us
No words can describe
How divine our love
Only you and me can obtained

World isn't a matter to me
Give up all and just had to breathe
Same air as yours
till the vision turns to shadows
All I want is to be in your arms
Opening the door to the kingdom
Heaven, we called


(Alright alright..im just writing crap here..fill up my free time..nothing is wrong with me aite! =) *PEACE*)
aiks..shuda been studying right now..haiz..==''
Good luck to me tommorow~ ! ^^

Kay - Rainy day

It was afternoon
Wake up from mare of night
I was trembling
From the cold and fear alike

The rain pour down from grey gloomy sky
Cold air that shivers through the bone
The cracking sound of breaking droplets
Playing havoc with the rythm of my heart

It rain for almost the whole day
Dawn to dusk
no ending like the rivers flow
The cold atmosphere and the damp aroma

It was full of emphatic

A piece of bread
My breakfast and lunch
Watching out through the window
Not knowing the time

Books of missing pages
Fill up my missing time
I was stunned when my handphone groan
A message I picked up, empale through the heart

It was numb

A good luck I get
Four days advance
Should I weep or joy?
It was out of my might

A movie I went
A Transporter he said
Package delivered
A hundred percent

Four man we have
Brothers alike
Chit chat and ate
A night that we had

And there go my phone
Asking my site
I said it out fast
Zero reply that bites

And there goes my day
Movie, friend and rain
Gloomy, sadly, Nostalgic
Why I hate the rain?

What answer should I gave?