Sa-d Man

I don't feel so good...
Mentally and Physically...

All the things that shouldn't comes out came all at once...

Unable to describe.. that suffocating blood gushes all out to the head and burning me inside out from the chest....

Just can't figure it out ...what's wrong with me...
Did I ate something wrong?..
I slept too much just now?

Hate this feeling.. ==''

WHATEVER!!!! WHO CARES!!!!

I got plenty more important things to be done !!!

FIGHT!!!

Walao ..again..

Walao...busy finishing the moral...
6 am sleep again....sian diao..zzzz

Insomnia

Cant get it off my head...
6am...still cant sleep...haiz..
Confused...
Everything just doesnt feels right........
What should I do...Am i doing it right?...

Should I....

It's beeen months since I last had my haircut..

Messy long hair right now ...zzz



Hm..Want something New..Something different...








Should I make it Short?












Leave it longer and dye it?...


Stick with now..change it alil n look emo?

Or...


Bald?!..




Noway....@@' I'll shoot myself first !


Or...

Maybe I should curl it like him...xD


hm...
any opinion? ..xP

I could be a Better Man

I thought that I was stronger.
Holding on to my words.
I swear it's True

You look inside
You would see how much I really cry
You'll find secrets hidden,
Best friends and Lies.
But what you'll see the most
is how hard it really is to stay strong
when nothing is ever right
and everything is always wrong.


Have you ever wanted to talk,
But never really dared?
Or missed that opportunity
To tell them that you cared?
Pretended that it doesn't hurt,
and said that its ok?
Spending each day wishing
It'd all just go away?
Acted how you're "supposed to"
So no one ever knew
And never let them see
How you really felt inside?


A chapter in the story of my life
A lesson to make me stronger
I thank that broken heart because that made me who i am...

I hope I could Understand...
I could be a Better man...


We find rest in those we love,
and we provide a resting place in ourselves
for those who love us.
For all you are and will be.

Random post

Ever heard of the story.. "The Boy Who Cry Wolf" ?
Well.. somehow the story came up on my mind ..every time before I sleep...

This is post is written based on whatever my mind comes up with at the moment..
It's gona be shitty..meaningless..confusing..


A boy who lie about everything...
Well..I'm not gona tell what he lied..
But the people around are not happy with it..
He's selfish and would do anything for his own benefits..
He lie..He cheats ..and He betrayed..
He scammed..He act..and He use people as a tool..
He felt no remorse...He felt no Shame...He only thinks that He's Right...
He always gets away with it...
But,that's what he thinks..
Even when caught red handed..
The boy will make up silly stories and excuses that doesnt makes any sense to get away.
People around are already sick of him,
People already gave up on him..
No one actually trust him...
True friends who once stay beside him.
One by one..driven away by him..when they aren't on his side..
Still living in his own fantasy..
The boy still doesnt realise how much he is hated
Inside everyones heart..The boy is Hated..
He doesn't have any true friends..
People around him arent any good man or woman..
People around..are just waiting for the chance
The chance to GET HIM
But still ..He doesn't know..
Some sincere people telling him all the truth..
advising him to change..and turn back..
Still..He doesn't care or take it..
A very hardheaded and egoism boy they said..

One day,
When the people are starting to back on him..
The people starting to stay away from him..
Whatever he said are no more accepted by everyone..
He still hold on to his ground..
Telling everyone to Trust him..
Blaming his fault on everyone beside himself..
Blaming others for accusals..
Complaining there isn't any true friend..
Anything to say he's Right and never Wrong!

Eventually..in the end..
The boy can't take it..
The boy left town..and went abroad..somewhere to start anew
But, It doesn't last long..
When the mistakes he done..
Are Repeated again and again ..wherever he goes..
His Life was ruined..
He got desperate..
Searching help from everyone..
Anyone he could find..
And now judgment hit upon him..
He was cheated all his money..
He was deceived by those who say who would help him..
He had been used to commit crimes..
Set up and framed..
Abuse and mistreated..

The boy's life..Full of Lies
and yet He search for Trust..
"A Liar who cry Trust"

Sometimes...When I... If...

Just some silly survey I do in the middle of the night when Im seriously Bored... =='




*Sometimes..*

sometimes i just need:

- some time..someone..something

somtimes i want:

- knock my head on the wall

somtimes i like to:

- Nag alot..

sometimes all it takes:

- just one lil thing to crush my all..

somtimes i picture:

- the future in my head (which it never gona happen)

sometimes i wish:

- I can change everything..

sometimes i find:

- the world is silly ..

sometimes i take:

- things for granted..tht sux..

sometimes i look:

- around and all i see is..reality

sometimes i hate:

- myself for devoting

sometimes it’s nice:

- when good memories and happy thoughts came into my dream..

sometimes it hurts:

- just by thinking and looking at somethin tht shud hav been long gone..

sometimes it makes me happy:

- when false hope lying to me..but im still fighting to achieve!!

sometimes it’s sad:

- when everything goes isnt the way you hope..

sometimes i listen:

- to people thoughts..

sometimes i sleep:

- with regret of the day..

sometimes i like to watch:

- movies..or just passerby while sitting on the street..

sometimes i feel:

- empty..Dead..

sometimes i rant:

- to the sea ...

sometimes i never:

- realise how stupid i am..

sometimes i really:

- plain Stupid...

*When I’m ..*

sad, i want:

- just one pat on the back and the word.."Everything will be Fine"

happy, i need:

- Friends..family..love ones..to Share~

mad, i wish:

- I will not be mad..

overjoyed, i find:

- Im and look ridiculous..

indifferent, i like to:

- ignore..

content, i never:

- stop request for more ..xP

frustrated, all it takes:

- is just one Understanding..and patience..

*If..*

You saw your best friend on one side of the road, but you also saw one of your close family members on the other side, and they were both in serious danger, who would you go to help first?

- Saving my family members and shout to my friend to be AWARE!! (Family are The Most Important..I'm sorry..)

You had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose?

- I would be happy to go to the past..but I'll choose the future..since going into the past will only make myself experience the same old thing AGAIN..and probably the same Bad things that happened..I don't want it anymore..

Jesus was standing right infront of you, what would you say to him?

- Arent you supposed to be nailed on the cross?

Alright alright~

Alright...no more yoona picture here..xP

juz a simple post im gona update..
briefly post some photo i just grabbed from frens and talk a tiny lil bout it =]

Start with the beginning of the month..
Our group of 6 having presentation on PBU a.k.a Business Management on Nokia for Mr.LJ *xD swt~* class

Our group ~ ^^ and Congrats Rainbow our Best Presenter awarded but Mr.LJ ^^




And next...is our Drama presentation for English..

The simple script of ours are based on the short story.. The Devil
Basically..the story are almost completely the same as the original cept that we perform it in a comedic way ..xD
ohh..and for the info..im the old - gona-die *touchwood*-poor old man..xP
oh boy..im the only character that are not greedy in this drama..xD
see their *evil* face @@''
Oh..and im not picking my nose..=='

@@'' Shocked.. Ah Sim looks horny..xD but he's got a few pretty dance moves up his sleeves oo ..

The two "Devil" in our drama team..xD Evil Mickey and Ultraman @@''

This is the group presenting the "Champion Bull Fighter"

they got the best performance overally in the group..
im the foreign guy from China that met up with two bull, two Ahmad or Mohammad wateva..and one "TV girl" in Malaysia @@''
The wacky ..weird.. oh my god ! got two bisexual!! *one already changed his clothes..* PM11

Wtf!! !@#$

Alright..after PM 12 finished their drama aswell.. we went to Le Garden to have a celebration dinner ?
Im dying while everyone enjoying heh..haiz..

Guess i was out of my mind...~_~'

Group photo ~ =) but Dominic was out of the pic..geeez..

Perfect~ =) but sei Yong xin..head so big block my face.. =='

Our PM11-12 Football Team !! xD


Guess stop here for awhile..
wana continue watching the drama "You are My Destiny" now..xD chaoz~






Owh!!! Btw~










Sorry~








I ...











Lied.......












YoonA !!!!! xD
hahahahahhaha..








paiseh paiseh..joking nie..am not as crazy as you guys think i am..xP
Just For Fun ^.^v *PEACE~!*

Hectic

Hectic~


There's so many things to work on recently..
Drama... QN ... NSQ ... Friends ... Socializing ... Meeting..
The drama is due this Wednesday .. To be honest, Im not that satisfy overally..
But, our group had work hard and done it best.. we are not pros to be start with .. xP
hope we can do our best and more than our own expectation that day ~
Gambateh everyone! ^^ jjang!


whoa..there's really alot of things I wana do now
Solving my Rubik's cube
Learn the guitar which I had no talent in it at all T,T
Finish the books that are currently "stuck" for awhile
Finishing and Surpass the task that been assigned.
Workout..
Pay more attention on my Tur-toise that I have abandon for awhile but is still growing larger and larger...
Format my laptop.
EXAMS !!! @@'
bla bla blah~


ok..now what I write from now on is totally random~ don't assume anything aite ^^

On that Night I had forgotten when.
Why you come again,
When I finally put you in the shade.
Stupid question you asked,
Unimportant and unnecessary...
Why you come again,
When I had nothing to say and so are you.
I'm moving on againsting the flow,
And Im still moving.
"Why" , you asked.
I'm trying to Hate you
Yes ! I Hate You

Everything I said and did wasn't just deceiving
But the tear in your eyes and your calm, hard face
Is all nothing...
I'm New , I'm Fresh
I'm feeling so Ambitious
Heartless I will be cuz I already am..
This is all that Pushing me to work harder for Success !


Alryt~

Enough crapping ^^

Her Laugh just makes you smile ~ =)

Basic Camp (Still In Contruction)

20th February 2009

Morning 10:30 am bus to Seremban with my downline Siang Long.
Reach Terminal 2 at 12pm..
hm..Terminal 2 looks isolated in the bus arrival tunnel.. almost like those abandon building you see in those zombies or apocalypse movie.. @@'
It was too dark to take a picture.. too bad..

We took the Shuttle bus back to Terminal 1 F.O.C (but still pretty lebih, why dont they just drop us at Terminal 1 in the 1st place..)

Yoo ..May yen and their friend pick us up at Terminal 1 and we have lunch at McD in Seremban Parade ..
at1st we were planning to buy Shao Pao ..but the tradition of the camp was we eat only VEGE and No MEAT in the camp .. T,T

And so the journey to Tiara Beach Resort begins..
We..well...Yoo decide to take the highway to Port dickson.. =='
but little did he know..the next exit was just a few kilometers away..
RM 0.50 for the toll..
The person in the booth laugh when the screen pop out RM0.50 ..lmao
Can't believe he doesn't ..actually sure bout the way he was going even he went last year before..

2P.M
We reached !!!
After registering and took our Tag..Room number..n Team ( I got Portugal ^^)
n off we go n drop our bags to our individual room and prepare for the Assembly at 2:30pm
The Corridor...Spooky huh..@@'


2 Room and there's 6 of us ...@@' But consider us lucky...cuz the other room have up to 9 person ..ouch~ at least I got my own bed ...xD


The 1st "interaction' we had are.... PARTY~
The whole atmosphere was 'clubbing' style ...xD
People dance...sing...and basically just enjoying ourself before the whole thing start..

Time to find our group...
But in a "unique" way..
Since we receive a flag representing different country..
We have to find the people which are from the same country as ours.
The rules is you can't speak...You can't show them your flag..
So how?..
Think yourself ..xD
It's funny when you get to see everyone act and the way they try to tell you what country they are in ...some kangaroo jumping..some act like tranvestite..etc etc..
I got Portugal...so wondering what I do to tell people what Im in?..
CHEAT~ xD
Holding the flag in my hand and flashes secretly to anyone who approach..xD
Some people don't even know which country they are in ..because they doesn't know the what country is that flag..xD

My Tag and Country ~


Meet my group..new faces..new friends..^^
well, Kenny ..Yoo downline..my crossline was in the same group as me..lucky huh..xD
Total 18 people including me in my group..
One of them is from Myanmar.. One are from MMU Malacca ! @@' But senior la.. Degree in Engineering...

I don't have much picture to post here..cuz basically we don't have time to take photo in the whole so called "process".
Our group photos at Kenny's..I'll post it up when i got it..
Still have some story to share..but Im lazy to type it right now..xP
I'll update again tmr maybe..

chaoz 1st..Don't go anywhere yo..