Everything will be just fine

Sometimes people come to me,
When they are in need.
Whether it is to find someone to talk to,
Seeking opinions, advise...or just comfort.

I can't say I'm good at it.
But I've always tried my best
Trying to guide them
Based on what I think is the best for them.

But when it comes to my own
I found out I'm not as rational as I think I am
It is always....always
Easier to say than done
No matter how often I tried to run away
The harder I tried to get over it...

I haven't move an inch

Talking to this wall and listening on my playlist in my room
It sucks to be alone
Even when there are people all around you.
It sucks...
When you can't find anyone to talk to.
Felt so alone that nothing makes sense anymore.

I miss the past,
I miss myself,
Where did I gone to?
Of all the things I had given or maybe wasted
What do I really want?
How much exactly do I worth?


Behind that smile is a hurting beat
Behind that laughter, it's falling apart.
It is everything that you'll never understand.
Don't judge me from what you see,
Unless you spent a minute in my shoes.

Just lie to me...
Lie to me that "Everything will be just fine."

Not Give Up, Grow Up

Happiness lies in those who had been hurt and cried,
Those who have searched and those who have tried.
For only they can appreciate
The importance of those people who touched their lives.
We fall in.... not knowing why or how
It is a very special feeling that it doesn't required answers
No matter how stupid we have become.
There is no regrets.

There will come a time where we have to stop.
It is not a one time thing.
You have to do it everyday, over and over again.

It's not giving up...
It is giving what they want.
Swallowing the reality that the best just isn't you.
It is the courage to walk away
And let the other who wishes to be free go,
It's called growing up.
No matter how much it hurts.

Love isn't just about saying it everyday,
It's showing it everyday, in every way.

I'm...
Just in a different way

I do my thing, and you do yours
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations
And you are not in this world to live up to mine
You are you, and I am I
And if by chance we find each other,
It's beautiful...
 --- Fritz Perls


Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world,
Which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night.
Time has stood still since....

Again

When I give you my time,

It means I'm giving you a portion of my life

that I will never get back. 

Don't waste it ~
And I promise I won't waste yours.

We can close our eyes
to the things we don't wish to see
But we can't close our hearts
to the things we don't wish to feel

All we can do is
Not think, Not wonder, Not imagine, Not obsess
Just breathe
and hope that everything will work out for the best.
It is not pretending that troubles don't exist,
It is hoping that they won't last forever
That hurts will healed and difficulties will be overcome.
 
Even though we did our best
But,
There are times when we will ended up with a big mess.
We tried... And that's all we can ever do.
Rest, Pick yourself up and begin again
We have not failed as long as we keep trying.

What would you do?

What would you do
When the one who put you down
Are the only one who can make you smile again

=)

As the quote i once saw said,
Making a lot of friends is not a miracle,
The miracle is to make a friend
Who will stand by you when millions are against you.
No one is perfect yet no one is completely an ass as well
In the end, some people will totally surprise you.

Time decides who you meet in your life,
Your heart decides who you want in your life,
Your behavior decides who stays in your life.

Every morning we wake up with 2 choices
Continue to sleep with your dreams
Or
Wake up and chase your dreams
It's kinda tough to choose  ... for now.. :P

Putting a smile on a person face is all that matters...
It brightens up your world and make it beautiful
Thank you =)

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"No, I'm not fine at all..."

Is one of the hardest thing for me to say.

Time for Motivation

Life is just an endurance race
All we need is to brace ourselves
And hold the hell on.
Fight for what you love
Cherish what you have
Forget what you've lost.

Breathe and have faith
I won't give up
I'll have my chance
I'll prove what I'm capable of
For my world, future and my everything

I have the Courage, I need the Strength

Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.

In life,

It is a blessed thing for any man or woman
to have a friend or one human soul whom
we can trust utterly who knows the best and worst of us
and who loves us in spite of all our faults.
A treasure.


The inability to open up to hope is what blocks trust,
and blocked trust is the reason for blighted dreams
Everyday
I said to myself every time I woke up
Don't worry,
It will all works out.
Put your trust in
Move forward with faith and confidence.
Enjoy the moment fully.
The joy of the freedom it brings becomes more pleasurable than the experience itself.
As long as we spread our wings
The wind will carry us. 

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Faith

Sometimes when we insist on something
It is not because that we saw hope in them,
But to wish that our persistence and commitment
are able to bring Hope to us.

We have to believe
Even though it might bring sadness and sorrows
We still have to believe.
Believe not because of what we see,
But to believe it then only we can truly see it.

I have Faith and I Believe
Do You?

One day....
You look at the person and
You see something more than you did the night before.
Like a switch has been flicked somewhere.
And the person who was just a friend...
Is suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.
It was a beautiful scene
And it always fluttered my heart

I'm sorry that I was late

Highlights

This is gonna be a looooooooooooong post.
A post that I will show to my children and grandchildren and so on ...maybe? =P


2011-2012 is by far the most active in traveling and busy year of my 22years life.
(I'm gonna exclude out FYP k! I don't want to get reminded ! @,@)

Let's start at the middle of the year on 2011

Went to Korea in May/June 2011 for the 2nd time since 2010.
New friends and New experience 
And of course Dream Concert was the main highlight.
Watching concert in another country far away from home is a first.
A vacation that will go down my memories for life =)

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Went straight to intern after coming back from vacation the next day.
Life is dull but I have to admit I've learned a lot from the internship.
Work, Home, Eat, Sleep... Repeat...
That's how internship life is...

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Well...at least my birthday brighten up one of my day ! =D

I had invited my close friends (classmates) for a dinner to celebrate my birthday. It's the First time I held up something for my own birthday actually.
I can't afford to invite everyone. I will be broke....T___T
I was happy everyone make it to the small gathering and had fun together since Form5.
(Although CHRIS NG PAU SHEN abandoned me even before the dinner starts !)
But, I forgive you. =) I totally understand your situation.. been there, done that...
Seriously bro, you deserve better !
Alright, let's move on...
It's my 21st birthday.

My brothers from 5Science2 and one lost PayFong student I know since primary.

And of course, the big picture (excluding Chris inside)

A friendship that will last for as long as I live ! =)

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Second half of 2011 is getting crazier as well
It was around October.
Traveled to Penang with my best friends at the cost of butt cramping and hours of driving.
Not to forget my broken car windshield ! swt

EAT, WALK, DRIVE, EAT,WALK, EAT and MORE EATING !
This sums up my Penang trip ! HA !

Lesson learned from this trip 

"Choose not to drive to Penang if you don't need to"

Is this the end of 2011 ? 

No Way !!

NOVEMBER !

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Birthday of Dennis Lee 6th November and Chris Ng 7th November

SINGAPORE !!

Celebrating their 21st birthday in Singapore with the Toad/Frog Porridge?
And of course .... CASINO !
Went to both Sentosa and Marina's casino.
What a way to celebrate a birthday.
The security wishes my friend Happy Birthday ! xD

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The End ?

Of course not !!

Now let's start on December ~~

December 3rd

The day I met Miss A's Suzy and f(x)'s Sulli & Victoria !

 3/5 of my dream come true ! xDD (Krystal was not there)

A crazy day taking Taxi and LRT to reach the stadium IDK where.

Awesome ? Not even close to the best..

but before that, let's skip to.........

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....the day before I went Singapore for Girl's Generation Concert.

A KL one day trip with the Marketing gang !

Shopping, walking, eating, and more shopping ! (pointing at the girls)

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Taking picture with the Madam Kwan

(The best group photo I can find get)

Oppsss..not to forget the tired faces at the end of the day.

I am reminded of the incident where I become a Chinese-English translator for a China man in Guardian in Times Square on that day =,=

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And finally 9th December !!!
Singapore again...
Went with 3 friends of mine. Eric, Sim and WeeChen
Tiring night but we enjoy every SECOND !

Life is complete ~ <3 xDD
First time met them close up in real person. Beyond words to describe them.
Was stunted the moment the cube thingy opens up and I saw YoonA.
It's unbelievable !
So beautiful that you refuse to believe she's real and actually standing in front of you ! =D
THIS IS THE BEST ! weeeeeeeeeee~
Alright..enough spazzing around....
Moving on to next Event.

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The committees...
NSQ camp...
Been doing this every year in December for 4 years...
Comment ? No comment... =)  one word... TIRED

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Last thing to end the 2011 ~

Christmas ? Exchanging present ? 

Marketing gang again ....

Got myself a water bottle...err..i mean tumbler from Jess xD

 I guess that's the end of the main event on 2011 ? =)

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2012

Let see......where to begin...

 Lunch at SenjuTei ?

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 My homemade dinner ?

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BOD 2 hours presentation ? ( We are the top score team ! F yeah ~ xD)

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Another KL trip to change Miss Marilyn Leo's iphone which didn't succeed and we end up at Chilli's instead ?

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Going to Mixx and watch Elysia got drunk and do crazy stuff? 

(I hope I didn't do anything stupid @@)

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Jesslyn's Birthday ~~

Me running up and down is all I remember...lol

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Start of 2012 ! Chinese New Year of course !!

Let's start with What I did on Chinese New Year ! =D

 I don't know what she doing =,=

And of course...

Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeping....

And not to forget my first light's out on 1st day of New Year ~

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Chinese New Year = Gathering

Like the usual tradition, secondary school friends ~

Gambling, gambling and gambling ! =D

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MMU Malaccans...

Visiting, visiting and visiting... a memorable one ;)

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My Family = Awesome ! =)

Had a family reunion lunch on the 3rd day.

This is the first time ever everyone in the family (not one missing) are present eating together.

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Time sure flies...finally finished our FYP and had dinner with our supervisor

Miss Christine Tan Nya Ling

She's intimidating and I'm intimidated by her ...@____@
but she's a fun and nice person to hang out with actually... =)

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Finished our FYP and Final exam ~

It's time for another trip !

Singapore ! USS !

Staying with my aunt in Ang Mo Kio and that saves us a lot of expenses !
Had dinner with her at a chinese restaurant i-forgot-the-name.

She's too shy to take a picture with us.
So I'll just post up our group photo instead =)

Had a wonderful time in USS

Forgetting everything else outside the Studio and just have fun ~ 

Meet up with WeeKiat's cousin Xin Yuan for dinner at Marche.

We had to missed to Crane show for this dinner...too bad ...

And we forgot to go for the Singapore Flyer =,=

Next time maybe.....=)

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It was a tiring day for us guys...T,T

They never get tired of shopping huh ?

Had Charlie Brown for our last dinner in Singapore before heading back to Malacca.
The place we had our dinner is a strategic place to "eat ice cream with our eyes" xD
I know WeeKiat is enjoying it ! 

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Now for the recent last vacation I had.

Phuket, Thailand

From the hotel, the view from my "bedroom"(living room)

It was a nice place to chill and relax.....

I wish I can sleep all afternoon at this fine weather whenever I can.

The food is great...and the night clubs are a must visit xD

It wasn't an all out relaxing vacation that I expected. They keep walking around in town shopping and eating....that wasn't my initial plan thou..

Well, next time if I'm here again... I'm gonna stay in the 5 star resort with their own private beach and relax myself there. Feel the breeze~ Take a nap beside the beach...

I love peace ~ =)

Next time.....next time... 

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Crazy time I had in this few months...

Every month I will be going for trip...vacation...overseas...concerts...

A life that was not wasted at all ! =)

But time flies... all these fun and joyful moment just passed in a blink of an eye...

I can't believe it's already 2 weeks passed since I came back from Phuket..

It felt like yesterday @____@

Now back to new short semester...final semester of Uni life ~

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Crazy Friends...Crazy life...Crazy experience

Well, it's not as crazy as what I recently shocked at...

I don't know when ... and I don't know how..

I have fallen for someone I thought I never would.

If you're reading this and think that you might be this person I'm talking about...

Yes, It's you ...don't doubt about it...

Dang..It's hard to get you out of my head ...@___@

this is awkward...

but I guess I have no choice but to follow the law of nature ;)

It is better to have tried and failed than to have failed to try...

I guess that's all for the highlights of my life from May 2011 - 19th March 2012 ?

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life

It Goes On

 

I Just Fall

I'll walk for miles
Trust in me
I will not just let it be
Although it would take awhile
I swore to fix that broken smile 
Prove me wrong that
This broken road is more than I can take
There is bound to come some pain
Surely as they are storms and falling rain 

Playing it on my stereo
I know i ain't no romeo
You must be an angel
You know it's you
So please don't run away
I promise to show you a way
This is our time
We can make it last
The things that I never knew that I wanted
Is with you
How could I never knew

It isn't always going to be easy
Anger tears and laughter
It's when you want to be together despite it all
That's when you're truly sure.



After so long
I just fell.

Next minute

None of us knows what might happen in the next minute
Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere
It takes you by surprise
It leaves you stunned in disbelief
We can't always understand them
but we can always trust in them
We tend to question everything that comes and leaves
But all it matters is to just have a little faith
Move forward and being sure of what we hope for

Everything will come to an end in this world
It's a fate that cannot be avoid
Because of that
When you find something/someone worthy
As time goes on
You will realize that if you really devoted and love,
Each second and each moment are important
The whole life will not be enough

Here we go again

I've been idle for quite a while
It's been a long time since I felt this way
The last thing you think of before you sleep
The first thing you think of when you wake up
That strange feeling that your life would be totally empty
A totally unexplainable feeling that can not be described in any way possible
It confuses you terribly
Tried to deny
Tried to put behind my mind
To no avail
Denial drives me crazy



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Speed

It's never for fun
It's never for pride
The world are forgotten
When your vision and mind combined
 
I never liked being alone
Right seat was always my throne
Everything were left behind
Nothing comes to mind

Was I scared?
Yes I am
A deadly dare
I am always prepared

Immersing in the speed
You felt the danger
You felt the adrenaline
You're in charge
You're alone
A reminder of your life is in your control

Slow me down

 Listening to some favorite songs
On my way to where I belong
A thought that words don't say
My heart was in a fray

Playing some video games
Reminded me of someone's name
This is our time to runaway
Stopped me from what I've to say

You never fail to amaze
I was never so afraid
I could do better
Its never too late


You're never satisfied
We can't leave without a fight
I got nothing else to hide
Take a bite at my heart tonight

To see what can't be seen
To hear what can't be heard
Come slow my pace down
I promise I will always stick around

Head or Tail

Life is all about choices
Cut away all the junk, every moment is a choice
You choose how people affect you
You choose how to react in a situation
You choose to be in a good or bad mood
It's your choice how you live your life.

Find something worth dying for
and
Live with it 

When you're stucked between decisions
Flip a coin
It's never about chances
It's never about probability
It's never about fate
It is all about that one result you were hoping for while the coin is still in the air.

Head or Tail ? 

Now I'm sure ... ;)

It Took Me Awhile

Locked up between the mountains,

Watching the birds flew freely in the sky.

I wonder, who decided that birds are actually free?

Even if they can fly wherever they please.

What if they find no place to rest their weary wings?

Perhaps freedom is having a home to go back to.

We don’t see things as they are, we see things as we are.

We are always on a strange road,

Watching scenery and listening to strange music.

It is not about being immortal nor having food or rights in one’s hand.

It’s about having tiny wish come true,

Having something to eat when you are hungry,

Or having someone’s love when you need one.

Then one day, 

We find that the things we try hard to forget are already gone.

If this place had been deep within the earth,

I wouldn’t have had to know freedom or loneliness.

I wouldn’t have wished for the sun.

But then a shining light stood outside the prison bars.

Hair shone like the golden sun I longed to see outside.

A hand was reached out and led me out of the darkness

To show me a world… much, much brighter than the sun.

It took me awhile, 

For me to see the world from one person

Which doesn’t makes me abandon the world for that one person

It took me a long while … to finally found you.

What took you so long?