Smile n Walk Away

It's been a while isn't it....

There's something I hope you know
but doesn't want you to know.
I can't tell you what it really is,
I can't tell you how it feels like

Remember those times
When we always arguing
over little things, somethings
childish and nonsenses
We are both hard-headed and hate to lose
It's always either me or you
Everything wasn't meant to be
It's always "Here we go again"
I'm glad we found out

Now I know we said things,
Did things that we didn't mean
We fall back to the same patterns,
the same routine
Your temper's just as bad as mine
You're the same as me
When it comes to this
We are just as blind

I kept quiet sometimes,
You kept silent sometimes
Everything are too precious to be broken
So we just let it be
Let it heal and let it be gone
Just the way it is
Just the way we are

One day, Someday
When I see your face
There's not a thing I would say
Lets just stop for a second
Smile and walk away

Turning My Hourglass Around

Noticed I never mention much about my daily life on this blog..
No one actually will read it anyway...cause I know I don't ..

This is the place I actually wrote a whole "damn-alot-that-I-lost-count" number of pages about my thoughts and how I felt for the day...
What I've been through and stuffs..
But always...
always...I'll just hit the red "X" on the right corner after I finished..

This is a place where I reflects on my own..
about what I've done or what I've been through...
it was never meant to be posted up from the beginning..
Ending up a full pack of drafts in here...

Now that I read through it again...
I always found out how stupid I was
I always regret what I've done or never did
or some stupid mistakes that I wish I didn't do but I do...
I found out that I'm always one step behind in realizing the truth or come to my senses.. I always come out with words that totally different from what I initially intended to say or what I really mean to say..
My biggest weakness is that I don't want to lose..
but in a wrong way.. xP

I ....maybe... have hurt a person a lot and also a lot of other people..
I wish I have the chance to say sorry and told them I'm an idiot for what I've done..
but I guess stop appearing in their life would be the best way..
If I continue like this, will you forgive me?



One day before I die I'm gonna leave a will with password to log in here... xD
NOT !

Heal the Past
Live the Present
Dream the Future

I cannot predict the Future
I cannot change the Past
I have just the Present moment
I must treat it as my Last

I'll delete all the drafts today and restart everything ! =)
Cheers !

Time to turn my hourglass around...

Recommendation

Secret Garden
finish the whole drama in 3 days...lol
the best drama for year 2010 on par with My girlfriend is a ninetail fox.

It's a loss if anyone of you haven't watched this both..

never notices hyun bin before even from his old drama
but in here... he's freaking ..yeng?..xD
first time watching a drama which the male main actor attracted my attention
i like Ju won more than Ra im kekkeke..

"That Man" - HyunBin's version

"Eolmana eolmana deo neoreul
Ireohke baraman bomyeo honja
I baramgateun sarang i geojigateun sarang
Gyesokhaeya niga nareul sarang hagenni"



"Reason" - 4MEN



wow..starting to like 4MEN because of this song..xD

I Love You

Hear that song playing in my background right now ?

I Love You by Kim Tae Yeon (SNSD) , OST for drama "Athena"

Slow n Soothing song, with Simple lyrics with simple melody

only TaeYeon is capable in making every song so.... emotional ?

it touches your heart with her vocal...

p/s, basically every song by Taeyeon in my playlist is the best =D

Lyrics

스쳐 가나요?

우리의 사랑은

가슴 아픈 추억인가요?

돌아 서네요

그대의 마음은

눈물로도 잡을순 없나요?

My Love~ 사랑해요 사랑해요

그대 듣고 있냐요?

My Love~ 잊지 말아요

지우지 말아요

우리의 사랑을

나의 눈물이

그댄 보이나요

하루종일 그리워 합니다

가슴 떨리던

그대 입마춤도

이제는 추억이 됬나봐요

My Love~ 사랑해요 사랑해요

그대 듣고 있냐요?

My Love~ 잊지 말아요

지우지 말아요 우리의 사랑을

매일 난 그리움속에

하루를 버티는데

그댄 어딨나요?

내가 미안해요

미안해요 그대 잊지 못해서

My Love~ 돌아와 줘요

떠나지 말아요

내 곁에서 제발

Translation:

Is it passing away?

Is our love

A heartbreaking memory?

You are turning back

Is even tear not enough

To hold you back?

My Love~ I love you, I love you

Are you listening?

My Love~ Please don’t forget

Please don’t erase

Our love

Are my tears

Visible to you?

I long for you the whole day

Even the kiss

That made my heart beat faster

Seems to be memory now

My Love~ I love you, I love you

Are you listening?

My Love~ Please don’t forget

Please don’t erase

Our love

Everyday I love in longing

I live by longing

But where are you?

I’m so sorry

I’m sorry because I can’t forget you

My Love~ Please come back

Don’t leave

My side please

When you're around

I drive slower when you're around.
I speak slower when you're around.
I walk slower when you're around.
My time passed slower when you're around.
My world goes slower when you're around.
My heart beats slower when you're around.
My life is much more meaningful with you around.

Sometimes ...

偶尔，想起以前的承诺
心...
虽然不如以前般难受
但不时还是会有些刺痛


再给我一点时间吧

I Like Pool ! but I Love Girls who Play Pool !

I love to play pool
Usually I will hang out with a couple of friends for some 'poke' the balls sessions average one time a week every month.
*alrite... this photo is taken 3 years ago ==' it's all I can find~*


One day ...this little fanboy of YoonA was boring...
So he opened the tv n watched the Asian Games 2010 that has been going on.
[ 9-Ball Women's Singles Quarterfinal ]
China's Pan Xiao Ting vs Korea's Cha Yu Ram
n I go.... WoW!

born in July 23rd 1987
Started playing on the age 12
Finish 3rd on the US open
Won her first ESPN match
Ranked 14th on WPBA
Won a Gold in Asian Indoor Games 2009
Won the 2009 Amway Women's World 9-ball Open
and also 1st for alot more events that you and me never heard of ! xD

A World class pool player
One of the best pool player in the world
(I believe just behind Korean-American player Jeanette Lee)

Playing in professional events internationally since age 14.
Beating alot of Top players and gain her reputation in her journey between 2007-2010 !

Got skills n got looks !
TooBad ! She lost in the Quarterfinal in this Asian Games to the Chinese by 7-6

Although she's famous for winning matches in the end even when her score is trailing a lot behind of her opponent,
but seems like she's isn't that lucky this time ...

Awwww....


Can't see her playing in the Semi n Finals T__T

Btw,





Can you believe this is her ?!!!

I Like Girls n I Like Pool
Conclusion,
I Love Girls who can Play Pool ! xD


I find women very attractive when
they get serious, concentrating and feel confident.
Tend to get attracted to arrogant ladies I suppose..xP

YES ! THIS catches my Eyes ! xD
Confident !
Look at those stares ! =D

Cool yet so sweet at the same time ~ ♥

p/s .. She happens to resemble Go Ara in some way ^^

You make me Smile - Aloe Blacc

you make me smile
baby
uhm, you make me smile

I think its safe to say
things just havent been going my way
no work coming in so my money's spent
and i still got bills to pay
but through it all you're right here with me
when im sinking, oh, you come through and lift me
its nothing more then the love that you give me
keeps me from drowning in tears

you make me smile
oh, you make me smile
come through and save the day
you make me smile
you make me smile
in a very special way

everywhere i go
people keep and ask me
where i'd get my joy why am i so happy
in these trying times when a frown is the fashion
im beaming like the sun now how can that be
see the answer to the query is very simple
im always grinning from dimple to dimple

because you love me unconditionally
my happiness is heartsake
now cant you see
you make me smile
oh, you make me smile
come through and save the day
you make me smile
you make me smile
in a very special way

Still can't get used to it

I like being alone in the day

but I don't like being alone in the night

Alone in the room at this late hour with no one to talk to

still can't get used to it....

Explanation for previous post

Right...so the post IS about a girl
But she's not just "Any" girl...
So please don't misunderstand anything !
LAME~

haiz..now I miss my great-grandmother T____T

My heart goes thump thump*

I finally dreamed of you
I finally had you in my dream

My heart goes off beat

But why you have to go
Why you have to leave

My heart goes stationary

My tears burst right when you vanish
My heart broke when my eyes opened

It was just a Dream


right..nuff wif da stupid crapping up there..
I have stomache for a few days
now I got a few symptoms of getting a appendicitis.
swt...

Bless me it's NOT !
I don't wan anymore trouble !!!! >,<

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Bad Day

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around...
yea..

Singing karaoke in a stomache condition on a trip.
I went to JB few days ago...
Thursday to be exact

the first day is not so bad..
everythin went well and then....

I got serious diarrhea
n FEVER !
well..for the Fever part
I manage to cool down myself
BY WHATEVER MEANS !
100 plus, the rhino water thing,Panadol,Eno,
but stomache is still bugging me
still ...until NOW T,T

alright, so off with my day
10.10.10
It's not a good day after all.
The bus accident was a tragedy.
Good thing my friend missed their buses.
And some chooses to go back tomorrow. Monday
Good for them !

Well, I get a serious nosebleed just now.
A premonition of the accident?
Nah....
I saw a beautiful lady...
while I was playing pool wif my buddies..
I wonder now if it was the girl who causes this nosebleed
or my mum's medicine causing my body go heaty..xD
well..can't deny, the girl is gorgeous.
n It does catch my eyes for more than 10seconds =)
my eyes just stucked on her until she walked out of my sight. xP
(I dont simply stare at girl for so long know !)

Ah, my stomach in pain again..>,<
not that I needa go to the toilet..
it's more like a gastric ..swt
bless me get better tomorrow.. sob

My Life span just got shorten

N I LOVE IT !

I think I just died on the last second of the video ! ^~~~^



Because of this screen saver I'm staring at my laptop every minute like an idiot n let it idle..xD *Fan boy alert !*

Not a Good Exam Week

Exam...after today's 430pm I'm officially ended my 1st sem in Gamma year

People studying for exam..I go watch movies..yamcha...gaming...pool-ing..pps...youtube.. LOL

Today is also the same..I started going through the slides in the middle of the night.
But today I'm not gonna finish through everything, so God bless me tomorrow.
Why?
Heartache....
Yes...Heart in pain
No...not psychologically... it's really physically..
Why am I still blogging and not sleeping?
Probably scare I won't get up tomorrow~ xP joking!

Well, I just started watching My Girlfriend is a Nine tailed Fox
Last Friday to be exact. And I finish 15 out of 16 episode within a week.
And yes, In this exam period ! >,<
I'll get an A for questions about this Drama. xD

Goo Mi Ho(Nine tail fox in Korean)
aww...she's too innocent?
Such a pity it wasn't Yoona who took this role.
but Shin Min Ah did play it well.
It's a awesome drama to watch and I give high ratings for it.
Seriously I would do the same like Dae Hoong if I ever met this kind of girl to love.
Sacrificing and giving with sincerity and pure heart.
But too bad it's difficult in this realistic world we live in.

只对对我好的人好，
对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间.
I gotta agree with this in the end.

There is someone who let me down.
Disappointed...
It's like leaving you instead of returning your soul after 100 days
It's just like Dong Ju the vet in the drama said.
Some human betray just for their own and self benefits.
They are not trust-able.
Taking you for granted and see you as nothing.
Friend or not.
They leave me with an answered question.
Friend... or NOT
Now I felt something's missing,
Something inside have been taken away.

My Trust and Faith.

Is it all so fragile ?
Is everything so invaluable ?
Is everything was all nothing but an act?

Disappointment.
This is all I have... This is how I felt.

Haven update anything lately..

Well, let's just say I'm not good in putting picture and thoughts into words.

Having a "writer's block" everytime.. xP
Writing crap is my specialty, but not with blogging about myself..

hm, so...... this time of year usually and it still is... friends who scattered around the World/Malaysia for studies, work etc etc.. came back for holidays
I met almost everyone except a few...and having a packed schedule almost everyday.
Well, of course...financially break down because of this as well.
TOO MUCH OUTINGS !
A quick income just hit by...and it goes off just as quick.
Outings...Birthdays...Vacations... spending much of them on others than myself.
aiks...now I left only a small budget...headache-ing on how to spend it on myself.
Well..an iPhone 4 is still my choice..hope I don't regret it.


Right, so I'm 20 years old right now.
An end to my TEENAGE years.
Everything was so different from last and the year before.
Friends come and go.
Mixing with different batches of friends from time to time.
Almost like we're having a Season of meetings ourselves.

Well, can't deny.. as year passed I'm getting a bit lonely and lonelier ..sobs
I need to find something new and fresh to start.
I need Yooong >,<

pfft...my head are blocked again..
period.

Are you My Friend ? Hate Me or Like Me

People in Life are categorise into many category..
I have three in my case.
I have Friends !
I have Almost a Friend !
I have Strangers !

*There are friends who are now in my "Siblings" categories*
Not gonna mention in this post ! They are not important ! xP
erhem..jk..

So..

I have friends who accepted me for who I am... cuz they know me well and know my true self...
I can give them a gloomy "emo" face the whole day.
They take my jokes,
They doesn't care no matter how much I tease and make fun of them.
We shout to each other foul and harsh words everyday.
I can scold and stomp on their head from day to night.
But the next day, you'll see me on the same table, the same people and the same laughters.
Cuz we know, it's verbally and not really actually mean it.
We used to have this Pattern called "NO FRIEND"
When we upset about you, unsatisfied of something a friend does..
This two words NO FRIEND will comes up.
and mostly we will always add in.."Tomorrow Continue"
So, this is the spice between us BEST FRIENDS
We argue, we teases, we make fun, we scold, we stomp your pride, we joke, we make you angry, we make you hate us till NO FRIEND for a day *or a minute*
This what makes a BEST FRIEND ! =) Bro n Sis ! Agreed ?
Well, I believe some people would say "This is crap!" "Lame and unacceptable"
Well, Want me to prove it ?
Let me just say one thing,
this may not be for everyone... but for me... this is what I called a FRIEND
We doesn't turn our back, we doesn't fake anything
We kick your ass when you get on our nerve.
We buy you dinner or drinks at random times.
Nothing separate us and nothing can change this bond.
Friends today, Brother and Sister tomorrow.
We may pour salt to each other wound occasionally,
But we never let anyone down or behind.

This is how I make Friends
Judge me on my looks
Judge me on my attitude
Judge me on my way
Judge me for who I am
But don't judge me on how I treat a Friend
Cuz they who stood beside me proves everything.
Why should you ?
SO JOIN US ! ;)

And there are those who I called Almost a Friend.
I have people who dislike my attitudes and the way I be myself...cuz they don't see much further inside...
And it doesn't bring us both forward to anything.
Well, who give a damn about them ?
The same thing I done, both accepted and dislike by both different person..
Matter of perspective I guess...
There's some questions I needed to ask and for everyone to answer.

This is what I heard from TONS of people in this passed years.
They say I EMO 24/7 ?
They said I look pissed when I'm not smiling ?
They said a lot of negative stuffs ..
Unapproachable ? Egoistic ? Proud ?
I KNOW ! I KNOW !
Heard it like 9123984235789 times already ! ><' I don't blame them... Try stick with me for a day and not 5 minutes... Anyway..In My/Our lives We had a whole different Life and Experiences and We Enjoy Every Moment ! We don't have to fake a laughter, We don't have to worried about misunderstanding, WE ARE STEADY !
NO HARD FEELINGS !
Therefore, I enjoy Life
To be able to do anything we like when we are with our FRIENDS
Without restrictions and live a Crazaayyyy Memories !

This is ME
This is between Me, Friends, and everyone else who's breathing.
So either Hate me or Like me !
Your Choice ~ ^^ Not my Business


So, What makes a Friend to You ?

Girl, I need a girl....

Girl, I need a girl....

I need a girl who need me to wake her up every morning for class or work.
I need a girl who pissed me off every time we had a conversation, but knowing I would still love her no matter what.
I need a girl who drag me around all the time n end up in places we both doesn't know.
I need a girl who I can make her feel special and have every privileges I can gave 24/7.
I need a girl who act boldly and doesn't care her image in front of me.
I need a girl who suddenly shout at me in the middle of the crowd and make me felt guilty.
I need a girl who will suddenly go silent n for me to guess what actually she wanted and if I fail she will ignore me for a day.
I need a girl who always give me obvious hints and I have to act dumb before giving her the surprise.
I need a girl who make up herself before going out but knowing that I love to see her without it.
I need a girl who hit me a lot at random times with lame excuses.
I need a girl who wash the dishes with me when we ate with our family and after that I have to pay back hours of massage for each plate she washed.
I need a girl who would tell me stories,happy or not that happened on her daily life to me everynight.
I need a girl who accompany me shopping for food n anything needed every weekend.
I need a girl who take me along n ask my opinion for clothes.
I need a girl who always can't finish her food n I have to finish it up.
I need a girl who shout at me,and vent out her anger on me when she's upset.
I need a girl who will force me to eat something she like n I dislike.
I need a girl who I can tell my stupid jokes on.
I need a girl who I can take care of and needed me to remind her on everything but actually I'm the one who needed her the most.
I need a girl who I can give flowers to every single random occasion.
I need a girl who's stupid enuff to have no sense of direction but smart enuff to guide me to the right direction in life.
I need a girl who likes to travel around with n get lost together.
I need a girl who said she will cook for me but in the end there's never once I ate her's but instead I'm the one who cooks for her.
I need a girl who I can honestly tell her my problems and show my weak side.
I need a girl who I can put a smile on her face because that what makes my day perfect.
I need a girl who makes me smile every second I thought of her.
I need a girl who I can squeeze the life's blood out of her hand whenever we are together.
I need a girl who I can make her feels like she's the only one in the room in a crowded place.
I need a girl who argue with almost about everything but in the end I have to lose no matter what.

I Don't Need a Girl....

Love Light - CNBlue

I always wanted to post this song up here to share
but everytime my mind flew away and I forgot about it...xP
this is a very soothing song with sweet lyrics..
nothing special...but just loving it... ^^



when i look at you my face gets red
when i see you my heart goes thump thump
i talk with shyness like a kid
when i look at you i just smile out of nowhere
like a fool I keep doing that
I think love came to me

Youre the president of my heart
Youre my chests star embroider
Im Genie for you girl
You make me stop breathing
whatever you want
because i love you
Theres no reason for my love you know

youre a darling
youre more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and youre beautiful even when i look at you
youre my love light

when i see you i feel like im up on the clouds
it may be immature but i keep doing this
i tihnk love came to me

youre a darling
youre more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my very own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and youre beautiful even when i look at you
youre my love light

youre lovely
youre mroe blinding than the sunlight up in that sky
you shine the dark places inside my heart
my own love light

i love you lovely
even if i close my eyes i see you
looking at you like this
youre still blinding even when i see you
youre my love light

3 weeks of holiday...

First week went to Korea n had a blast of a time !
I don't know how to start n where to start the story...
Afta I arranged all my photos maybe.. =)

the 2nd week was like a pit stop for me...
staying at home most of the time
going out yamcha... gaming...wasting time n so...

n then the 3rd week to Redang
there goes my money flew ~

In debt n broke currently..
wonder how Im gonna survive June T,T
las few days outing with friends..gotta thanks Dennis n Waichun for sponsoring me a few bucks on my dinner...
n yesterday err..i mean today...Dennis n Hueyshian, Waichun, Kent n Me went WC's house n chat till 5am in the morning ...
Lookin forward to the next gather n hope with more friends..^^
its great to look back at all the stupid n interesting things that we all did together in the past...
wow..we sound like a gang of old folks ..xD
stop now for a while..just a quick updates..
gonna blog bout my trip when i got the time i suppose..

chaoz~