In Mii

Head or Tail

2012-02-17T12:30:00.000-08:00

Life is all about choices
Cut away all the junk, every moment is a choice
You choose how people affect you
You choose how to react in a situation
You choose to be in a good or bad mood
It's your choice how you live your life.

Find something worth dying for
and
Live with it

When you're stucked between decisions
Flip a coin
It's never about chances
It's never about probability
It's never about fate
It is all about that one result you were hoping for while the coin is still in the air.

Head or Tail ?

Now I'm sure ... ;)

It Took Me Awhile

2012-02-10T14:01:00.000-08:00

Locked up between the mountains,

Watching the birds flew freely in the sky.

I wonder, who decided that birds are actually free?

Even if they can fly wherever they please.

What if they find no place to rest their weary wings?

Perhaps freedom is having a home to go back to.

We don’t see things as they are, we see things as we are.

We are always on a strange road,

Watching scenery and listening to strange music.

It is not about being immortal nor having food or rights inone’s hand.

It’s about having tiny wish come true,

Having something to eat when you are hungry,

Or having someone’s love when you need one.

Then one day,

We find that the things we try hard to forgetare already gone.

If this place had been deep within the earth,

I wouldn’t have had to know freedom or loneliness.

I wouldn’t have wished for the sun.

But then a shining light stood outside the prison bars.

Hair shone like the golden sun I longed to see outside.

A hand was reached out and led me out of the darkness

To show me a world… much, much brighter than the sun.

It took me awhile,

For me to see the world from one person

Which doesn’t makes me abandon the world for that one person

It took me a long while … to finally found you.

What took you so long?

Let's start Writing

2012-02-06T13:54:00.000-08:00

There are many books in the library.. Each book contains a wonderful story that will never happen in the reality..
But as you fall in love...
Reality becomes a wonderful story greater than any books or novel that is ever written..

Sharing a story

2012-02-01T10:50:00.000-08:00

A man died and because he had been a good person,
he went to Heaven, where Saint Peter greeted him at the door.
Welcome! he said.
You can enter Heaven right away, but,
because you lived such a good life,
you can also go and check out Hell first, if you like.

The man was rather curious and said - well, why not
and he went down all the stairs to reach the door of Hell, which opened before him.
Behind the door, he saw many people sitting around tables with delicious food!
But they were all very sad, and suffering,
because instead of hands they had long knives and forks as arm extensions and they did not manage to put any of this great food in their mouths.

The man went back up to Heaven and said to Saint Peter:
Wow, am I glad that I can go to Heaven.
That is really some punishment.
Welcome to Heaven, Saint Peter said, as he let the man in.
What did he see there?
He saw many people sitting around tables with delicious food, just like in Hell!

And just like in Hell, they also had these long fork and knive extensions on their arms!

But in Heaven, the people weren't crying or cursing, because they were sticking the food in each other's mouths! "Try this", they laughed. "And this!", and they had lots of fun in the process.

Happiness comes from making other people happy.
Don't be selfish but care for other people, and you will be taken care of as well

Moving on

2012-01-29T12:37:00.000-08:00

I like how life still goes on,
better than expected
even when you stop trying hard to make it better

I'm free and bounded no more
Realizing that I'm perfectly happy
Without the thing I thought I needed

Making the best of everything
I promised to myself
It would be worth it

那些年我追到的女孩

2011-11-22T08:34:00.001-08:00

那些年我们一起追的女孩

每个男孩心中都有一位－沈佳宜。

你，找到了吗？

我只能说，我遇过了~

当时刚在台湾上映，就已经听闻这部电影有多么火红。
时常也一直听到男生说他们的“沈佳宜” 或女孩们都去剪了沈佳宜的发型。
当时还真搞不清楚，只知道是出自个有名作家 - 九把刀。
说真的，还从来没读过他的小说，所以也没去留意。
来到了大马上映，朋友们都争着去看也听来很多好评。
我的个性，并不是很喜欢到电影院看这些偶像恋爱电影，更尤其是台湾出产。
个人比较喜欢大制作！好来屋！

最后还是跟了朋友，为了他的一番心血排队买票份上入场了。
不抱什么期望的看了开头，无聊的笑点让我看见了许多人有非常低的笑点。
也不解有真的那么好笑吗？有必要那么大反应？
当时的想法就已经呈现 “哎，又是这种无聊片，我回去看周星驰还好点”

一直到柯帮了沈顶了罪那一幕起.....
发现故事和回忆不知不觉像平行时空一样一起开始走了。
本身也走进了故事...
帮忙补习功课一起努力和鼓励的画面，安慰发榜后哭着的沈佳宜，暧昧约会的甜蜜，大学分开的送别，每晚期待电话的热情，雨中吵架的心疼，直到多年的失联。
我想有多少人也同样经历过。电影仿佛说了自己的故事。

我也有我的“沈佳宜”

那些年错失的机会
那些年疯狂的幼稚和愚蠢
那些年想念和喜欢上
那些年她的鼓励和奇迹
那些年因为她流的泪，血和汗
那些年放弃了

因为这部电影，找回了许多改变了自己的回忆。
一场再淋过一次的大雨
也为已走的我上了一堂课

When we are constantly wishing for something, we tend to overlook everything we already have.

没有沈佳宜，我还是过得好好的。
现实生活， “沈佳宜”再也不是一个人了，现在“沈佳仪”代表了在生命中出现的每一号人物。不管大大小小，我的世界因为有了你而有了改变。

When tomorrow turns in today, yesterday, and someday that no more important in your memory, we suddenly realized that we are push forward by time. This is not a train in still which you may feel forward when another train goes by. It is the truth that we've all grown up. And we become different.

在平行时空的我故事会有不同？我不会去想，因为我要他羡慕这个时空的我。

P/S
Song of the month
You're the answer to a guy like me -- LeeSsang
I miss you -- Noel

I think?

2011-11-12T11:16:00.000-08:00

I think I Like You

^________^

Time never stops

2011-06-12T03:46:00.000-07:00

9 days 8 nights in Seoul was great.

And the time went by so quickly that I can't believe it's June already.

But why does the time went so slow when I'm working ! It's only a week !! arghh!!

3 + 3/4 months to go !

I miss the life in Seoul. T,T

Wake up in the morning open the tv watch Star Craft tournament (Lame)

Brush my teeth take my bath, put on my bag and off we go.

Go wherever we want, eat whatever we like.

It feels like home =D

And best of all

THIS !!!!

And now I'm back and facing the cruel hard society again.
Tied up from Monday to Saturday

I understand you bunny... I really do

Reminiscing an old song

2011-05-15T13:59:00.000-07:00

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

April is Zzzz

2011-04-20T12:03:00.000-07:00

FYP 1 due date is getting closer and closer.
My supervisor are pushing us tighter.

What can be worse?

.... SICKNESS !

It all started with that damn fever which hit 39 Celcius last week
and don't forget that stupid back pain !

K.O

And worse of all... the next day I had to pass up part of my fyp

AND I HAVENT DONE YET !

And so.....this calls for drastic measures...
I ate traditional pills gave by my grandma
half hour later ....
I ate 2 I-don't-know-what pill is that from my mum
half hour later....
2 pills of Panadol acti FAST
and off I go into my dreamworld ~
Lucky I still can wake up an hour later at 2 a.m =______=

for a sec I felt retarded with a blank mind
I managed to stayed up until morning and sleep dead until afternun

and...

I MISSED MY MEETING WITH MY SUPERVISOR !
all that hard work for the night gone...

n YES ! I'm coughing like hell until today !
Imagine all the air in your body are coughed out
and your lung squeezes and contracts like a flat balloon
Imagine doing 150 sit ups every hour..
Waking up like every hour during your sleep with your chest and stomach muscles pain due to coughing..

Thats how it felt when you got cough
I rather get a fever and sleep the whole day

Cough until now already got 4 packs d..
If this continues I think Im gonna get 6 packs d.. LOL

ALL THE NICE FOOD !
ALL THE SNACKS !

arghh!! worst of all is on the weekends when I lost my voice !!!!!
and when I go to PC fair in KLCC !!!
(Yes...I'm sick and yet I'm running here and there)

I was like "lan c" all the way with only eye contact and no talking when all the show girl comes forward T____T
I feel so bad.. sobs..

April is soooooooooooo not my month..

On the bright side..
a month later I'll be eating ddukboki and landing my foot on Seoul !

AGAIN ! =D

CYR on Maxim !

2011-04-04T14:22:00.000-07:00

Cha Yu Ram on Maxim Korea !

I was like O______O

My Sport Idol ..lol ~__~

But I still prefer the look of her with a cue thou >,<

Again... I love girls and I love pool ~ ^^

I love girls who can play pool ! =D

Back in the days

2011-04-02T13:26:00.000-07:00

LOL

Reminiscing the past photos in secondary school..
Going through the photos with my bros n buddies on trip
Wa...Time sure flies...
I can see how stupid we looked back in the days. xP
All those passed and forgotten memories...
I miss those days T,T

and...

I stumbled back the friendster's blog I wrote back in the days
There were so many post that I found how very ridiculous and EMO I am ...swt
I didn't know I was soooooooooooooo Poetic ! xD (self-praised)

here's a tip of the iceberg of my stupidity..lolz

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If I wasnt in the deep underground I wouldnt have wished for the sun

If it wasnt the rain I wouldnt have know the sky shed tears

If it wasnt the winter I wouldnt have know that a heart can be as cold as the snow

If it wasnt the summer I wouldnt have know your smile shines warmer than the sun

If it wasnt the autumn I wouldnt have know without you the leaves falls n wilt

If it wasnt the spring I wouldnt have know with you around, flowers bloom n the life can be so colorful

If it wasnt you I wouldnt have wished for the time to stop

If it wasnt you I wouldnt have found out the purpose of my Existence.

zzzzzz ... I feel like killing myself...xPPP

Just for a Laugh

2011-04-02T08:05:00.000-07:00

I came across this on my friend's status.
No hard feelings ya fellow accountants.
It's just for a laugh.

Well we study ACCA(Accountant Can Cry Already)

to become an AUDITOR(All You Do Is Think Of Resigning) someday...

so what we really learn?

We learn IAS (I Am Sad) and IFRS (I Feel Really Sad).

Fine, stop acting like a professional, we study real mad

and call ourself Account Service Specialist.

So we end up getting called as ASS

Quarelling and Fights makes me Jealous

2011-03-25T14:40:00.000-07:00

Fighting season this month?

I don't understand cuz I got no one to fight with .. xP
I'm glad I don't have to "Back to December" =D

3 cases happens in a week.
so close that it's kinda hard to accept the fact that things wasn't as harmony as I thought it is.

n things get hard when they are all so close to me >,<
n all I can do is just laugh out with them individually n kinda cool things off.

Conflicts, misunderstandings and over-expectation on your other half...
these things happens..
It suppose to happen..
but once in a while...
Stand on each other point of view for once.
Getting angry and making reckless decision
It's never the best way.
You never know what you'll say or what you'll do
when anger and frustrations blinds you.
You NEVER do the right thing when you lose your temper.

Chill~ a day or night..but no more than that ..
putting away ego-ism and pride.. couples should make up not break up
Two people got together for a reason
Two people got together because of blessings

If you must fight, fight happily.
If you must quarrel, quarrel with a laugh.

Life is short, don't let another day go by without taking a chance on happiness.

p/s Be grateful you still get to fight with people you love, there are people out there who lost and don't even get a chance to get a glimpse on their love ones.

23rd March 2011

2011-03-22T13:12:00.000-07:00

So far so good ~
3 months and 23 days

I never felt better
my hourclock is turned over
and the bottom part
are filled with golden joyous sands of memories
So far 2011 is still going great ^^

No one's gonna ruin my day =) EVER~

Smile n Walk Away

2011-02-27T12:50:00.000-08:00

It's been a while isn't it....

There's something I hope you know
but doesn't want you to know.
I can't tell you what it really is,
I can't tell you how it feels like

Remember those times
When we always arguing
over little things, somethings
childish and nonsenses
We are both hard-headed and hate to lose
It's always either me or you
Everything wasn't meant to be
It's always "Here we go again"
I'm glad we found out

Now I know we said things,
Did things that we didn't mean
We fall back to the same patterns,
the same routine
Your temper's just as bad as mine
You're the same as me
When it comes to this
We are just as blind

I kept quiet sometimes,
You kept silent sometimes
Everything are too precious to be broken
So we just let it be
Let it heal and let it be gone
Just the way it is
Just the way we are

One day, Someday
When I see your face
There's not a thing I would say
Lets just stop for a second
Smile and walk away

Turning My Hourglass Around

2011-02-12T11:37:00.000-08:00

Noticed I never mention much about my daily life on this blog..
No one actually will read it anyway...cause I know I don't ..

This is the place I actually wrote a whole "damn-alot-that-I-lost-count" number of pages about my thoughts and how I felt for the day...
What I've been through and stuffs..
But always...
always...I'll just hit the red "X" on the right corner after I finished..

This is a place where I reflects on my own..
about what I've done or what I've been through...
it was never meant to be posted up from the beginning..
Ending up a full pack of drafts in here...

Now that I read through it again...
I always found out how stupid I was
I always regret what I've done or never did
or some stupid mistakes that I wish I didn't do but I do...
I found out that I'm always one step behind in realizing the truth or come to my senses.. I always come out with words that totally different from what I initially intended to say or what I really mean to say..
My biggest weakness is that I don't want to lose..
but in a wrong way.. xP

I ....maybe... have hurt a person a lot and also a lot of other people..
I wish I have the chance to say sorry and told them I'm an idiot for what I've done..
but I guess stop appearing in their life would be the best way..
If I continue like this, will you forgive me?

One day before I die I'm gonna leave a will with password to log in here... xD
NOT !

Heal the Past
Live the Present
Dream the Future

I cannot predict the Future
I cannot change the Past
I have just the Present moment
I must treat it as my Last

I'll delete all the drafts today and restart everything ! =)
Cheers !

Time to turn my hourglass around...

Recommendation

2011-01-28T12:38:00.000-08:00

Secret Garden
finish the whole drama in 3 days...lol
the best drama for year 2010 on par with My girlfriend is a ninetail fox.

It's a loss if anyone of you haven't watched this both..

never notices hyun bin before even from his old drama
but in here... he's freaking ..yeng?..xD
first time watching a drama which the male main actor attracted my attention
i like Ju won more than Ra im kekkeke..

"That Man" - HyunBin's version

"Eolmana eolmana deo neoreul
Ireohke baraman bomyeo honja
I baramgateun sarang i geojigateun sarang
Gyesokhaeya niga nareul sarang hagenni"

"Reason" - 4MEN

wow..starting to like 4MEN because of this song..xD

I Love You

2011-01-08T13:17:00.000-08:00

Hear that song playing in my background right now ?

I Love You by Kim Tae Yeon (SNSD) , OST for drama "Athena"

Slow n Soothing song, with Simple lyrics with simple melody

only TaeYeon is capable in making every song so.... emotional ?

it touches your heart with her vocal...

p/s, basically every song by Taeyeon in my playlist is the best =D

Lyrics

스쳐 가나요?

우리의 사랑은

가슴 아픈 추억인가요?

돌아 서네요

그대의 마음은

눈물로도 잡을순 없나요?

My Love~ 사랑해요 사랑해요

그대 듣고 있냐요?

My Love~ 잊지 말아요

지우지 말아요

우리의 사랑을

나의 눈물이

그댄 보이나요

하루종일 그리워 합니다

가슴 떨리던

그대 입마춤도

이제는 추억이 됬나봐요

My Love~ 사랑해요 사랑해요

그대 듣고 있냐요?

My Love~ 잊지 말아요

지우지 말아요 우리의 사랑을

매일 난 그리움속에

하루를 버티는데

그댄 어딨나요?

내가 미안해요

미안해요 그대 잊지 못해서

My Love~ 돌아와 줘요

떠나지 말아요

내 곁에서 제발

Translation:

Is it passing away?

Is our love

A heartbreaking memory?

You are turning back

Is even tear not enough

To hold you back?

My Love~ I love you, I love you

Are you listening?

My Love~ Please don’t forget

Please don’t erase

Our love

Are my tears

Visible to you?

I long for you the whole day

Even the kiss

That made my heart beat faster

Seems to be memory now

My Love~ I love you, I love you

Are you listening?

My Love~ Please don’t forget

Please don’t erase

Our love

Everyday I love in longing

I live by longing

But where are you?

I’m so sorry

I’m sorry because I can’t forget you

My Love~ Please come back

Don’t leave

My side please

When you're around

2010-12-26T10:31:00.000-08:00

I drive slower when you're around.
I speak slower when you're around.
I walk slower when you're around.
My time passed slower when you're around.
My world goes slower when you're around.
My heart beats slower when you're around.
My life is much more meaningful with you around.

Sometimes ...

2010-12-25T11:59:00.000-08:00

偶尔，想起以前的承诺
心...
虽然不如以前般难受
但不时还是会有些刺痛

再给我一点时间吧

I Like Pool ! but I Love Girls who Play Pool !

2010-11-25T09:18:00.001-08:00

I love to play pool
Usually I will hang out with a couple of friends for some 'poke' the balls sessions average one time a week every month.
*alrite... this photo is taken 3 years ago ==' it's all I can find~*

One day ...this little fanboy of YoonA was boring...
So he opened the tv n watched the Asian Games 2010 that has been going on.
[ 9-Ball Women's Singles Quarterfinal ]
China's Pan Xiao Ting vs Korea's Cha Yu Ram
n I go.... WoW!

born in July 23rd 1987
Started playing on the age 12
Finish 3rd on the US open
Won her first ESPN match
Ranked 14th on WPBA
Won a Gold in Asian Indoor Games 2009
Won the 2009 Amway Women's World 9-ball Open
and also 1st for alot more events that you and me never heard of ! xD

A World class pool player
One of the best pool player in the world
(I believe just behind Korean-American player Jeanette Lee)

Playing in professional events internationally since age 14.
Beating alot of Top players and gain her reputation in her journey between 2007-2010 !

Got skills n got looks !
TooBad ! She lost in the Quarterfinal in this Asian Games to the Chinese by 7-6

Although she's famous for winning matches in the end even when her score is trailing a lot behind of her opponent,
but seems like she's isn't that lucky this time ...

Awwww....

Can't see her playing in the Semi n Finals T__T

Btw,

Can you believe this is her ?!!!

I Like Girls n I Like Pool
Conclusion,
I Love Girls who can Play Pool ! xD

I find women very attractive when
they get serious, concentrating and feel confident.
Tend to get attracted to arrogant ladies I suppose..xP

YES ! THIS catches my Eyes ! xD
Confident !
Look at those stares ! =D

Cool yet so sweet at the same time ~ ♥

p/s .. She happens to resemble Go Ara in some way ^^

You make me Smile - Aloe Blacc

2010-11-10T10:37:00.000-08:00

you make me smile
baby
uhm, you make me smile

I think its safe to say
things just havent been going my way
no work coming in so my money's spent
and i still got bills to pay
but through it all you're right here with me
when im sinking, oh, you come through and lift me
its nothing more then the love that you give me
keeps me from drowning in tears

you make me smile
oh, you make me smile
come through and save the day
you make me smile
you make me smile
in a very special way

everywhere i go
people keep and ask me
where i'd get my joy why am i so happy
in these trying times when a frown is the fashion
im beaming like the sun now how can that be
see the answer to the query is very simple
im always grinning from dimple to dimple

because you love me unconditionally
my happiness is heartsake
now cant you see
you make me smile
oh, you make me smile
come through and save the day
you make me smile
you make me smile
in a very special way

Still can't get used to it

2010-11-03T13:06:00.000-07:00

I like being alone in the day

but I don't like being alone in the night

Alone in the room at this late hour with no one to talk to

still can't get used to it....

Explanation for previous post

2010-10-26T10:00:00.001-07:00

Right...so the post IS about a girl
But she's not just "Any" girl...
So please don't misunderstand anything !
LAME~

haiz..now I miss my great-grandmother T____T

My heart goes thump thump*

2010-10-13T11:18:00.000-07:00

I finally dreamed of you
I finally had you in my dream

My heart goes off beat

But why you have to go
Why you have to leave

My heart goes stationary

My tears burst right when you vanish
My heart broke when my eyes opened

It was just a Dream

right..nuff wif da stupid crapping up there..
I have stomache for a few days
now I got a few symptoms of getting a appendicitis.
swt...

Bless me it's NOT !
I don't wan anymore trouble !!!! >,<

LED Watch for SALE !

2010-10-12T11:16:00.000-07:00

Selling for RM130.00 !
Color Option : Black / Silver
LED option : Red / Blue
Price : RM 130.00 (Negotiable)
Free Postage for Malaysia!
Other Country will be charged.
Free 2 Battery
Warranty 3 month , 1 to 1 Exchange

CONTACT ME : CALL/SMS
KAY LIM @ 0166360182

Bad Day

2010-10-10T12:01:00.000-07:00

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around...
yea..

Singing karaoke in a stomache condition on a trip.
I went to JB few days ago...
Thursday to be exact

the first day is not so bad..
everythin went well and then....

I got serious diarrhea
n FEVER !
well..for the Fever part
I manage to cool down myself
BY WHATEVER MEANS !
100 plus, the rhino water thing,Panadol,Eno,
but stomache is still bugging me
still ...until NOW T,T

alright, so off with my day
10.10.10
It's not a good day after all.
The bus accident was a tragedy.
Good thing my friend missed their buses.
And some chooses to go back tomorrow. Monday
Good for them !

Well, I get a serious nosebleed just now.
A premonition of the accident?
Nah....
I saw a beautiful lady...
while I was playing pool wif my buddies..
I wonder now if it was the girl who causes this nosebleed
or my mum's medicine causing my body go heaty..xD
well..can't deny, the girl is gorgeous.
n It does catch my eyes for more than 10seconds =)
my eyes just stucked on her until she walked out of my sight. xP
(I dont simply stare at girl for so long know !)

Ah, my stomach in pain again..>,<
not that I needa go to the toilet..
it's more like a gastric ..swt
bless me get better tomorrow.. sob

My Life span just got shorten

2010-10-06T10:40:00.000-07:00

N I LOVE IT !

I think I just died on the last second of the video ! ^~~~^

Because of this screen saver I'm staring at my laptop every minute like an idiot n let it idle..xD *Fan boy alert !*

Not a Good Exam Week

2010-10-01T13:56:00.000-07:00

Exam...after today's 430pm I'm officially ended my 1st sem in Gamma year

People studying for exam..I go watch movies..yamcha...gaming...pool-ing..pps...youtube.. LOL

Today is also the same..I started going through the slides in the middle of the night.
But today I'm not gonna finish through everything, so God bless me tomorrow.
Why?
Heartache....
Yes...Heart in pain
No...not psychologically... it's really physically..
Why am I still blogging and not sleeping?
Probably scare I won't get up tomorrow~ xP joking!

Well, I just started watching My Girlfriend is a Nine tailed Fox
Last Friday to be exact. And I finish 15 out of 16 episode within a week.
And yes, In this exam period ! >,<
I'll get an A for questions about this Drama. xD

Goo Mi Ho(Nine tail fox in Korean)
aww...she's too innocent?
Such a pity it wasn't Yoona who took this role.
but Shin Min Ah did play it well.
It's a awesome drama to watch and I give high ratings for it.
Seriously I would do the same like Dae Hoong if I ever met this kind of girl to love.
Sacrificing and giving with sincerity and pure heart.
But too bad it's difficult in this realistic world we live in.

只对对我好的人好，
对某些人，简直就是浪费感情又浪费时间.
I gotta agree with this in the end.

There is someone who let me down.
Disappointed...
It's like leaving you instead of returning your soul after 100 days
It's just like Dong Ju the vet in the drama said.
Some human betray just for their own and self benefits.
They are not trust-able.
Taking you for granted and see you as nothing.
Friend or not.
They leave me with an answered question.
Friend... or NOT
Now I felt something's missing,
Something inside have been taken away.

My Trust and Faith.

Is it all so fragile ?
Is everything so invaluable ?
Is everything was all nothing but an act?

Disappointment.
This is all I have... This is how I felt.

2010-09-05T10:43:00.001-07:00

Haven update anything lately..

Well, let's just say I'm not good in putting picture and thoughts into words.

Having a "writer's block" everytime.. xP
Writing crap is my specialty, but not with blogging about myself..

hm, so...... this time of year usually and it still is... friends who scattered around the World/Malaysia for studies, work etc etc.. came back for holidays
I met almost everyone except a few...and having a packed schedule almost everyday.
Well, of course...financially break down because of this as well.
TOO MUCH OUTINGS !
A quick income just hit by...and it goes off just as quick.
Outings...Birthdays...Vacations... spending much of them on others than myself.
aiks...now I left only a small budget...headache-ing on how to spend it on myself.
Well..an iPhone 4 is still my choice..hope I don't regret it.

Right, so I'm 20 years old right now.
An end to my TEENAGE years.
Everything was so different from last and the year before.
Friends come and go.
Mixing with different batches of friends from time to time.
Almost like we're having a Season of meetings ourselves.

Well, can't deny.. as year passed I'm getting a bit lonely and lonelier ..sobs
I need to find something new and fresh to start.
I need Yooong >,<

pfft...my head are blocked again..
period.

Are you My Friend ? Hate Me or Like Me

2010-07-22T12:36:00.000-07:00

People in Life are categorise into many category..
I have three in my case.
I have Friends !
I have Almost a Friend !
I have Strangers !

*There are friends who are now in my "Siblings" categories*
Not gonna mention in this post ! They are not important ! xP
erhem..jk..

So..

I have friends who accepted me for who I am... cuz they know me well and know my true self...
I can give them a gloomy "emo" face the whole day.
They take my jokes,
They doesn't care no matter how much I tease and make fun of them.
We shout to each other foul and harsh words everyday.
I can scold and stomp on their head from day to night.
But the next day, you'll see me on the same table, the same people and the same laughters.
Cuz we know, it's verbally and not really actually mean it.
We used to have this Pattern called "NO FRIEND"
When we upset about you, unsatisfied of something a friend does..
This two words NO FRIEND will comes up.
and mostly we will always add in.."Tomorrow Continue"
So, this is the spice between us BEST FRIENDS
We argue, we teases, we make fun, we scold, we stomp your pride, we joke, we make you angry, we make you hate us till NO FRIEND for a day *or a minute*
This what makes a BEST FRIEND ! =) Bro n Sis ! Agreed ?
Well, I believe some people would say "This is crap!" "Lame and unacceptable"
Well, Want me to prove it ?
Let me just say one thing,
this may not be for everyone... but for me... this is what I called a FRIEND
We doesn't turn our back, we doesn't fake anything
We kick your ass when you get on our nerve.
We buy you dinner or drinks at random times.
Nothing separate us and nothing can change this bond.
Friends today, Brother and Sister tomorrow.
We may pour salt to each other wound occasionally,
But we never let anyone down or behind.

This is how I make Friends
Judge me on my looks
Judge me on my attitude
Judge me on my way
Judge me for who I am
But don't judge me on how I treat a Friend
Cuz they who stood beside me proves everything.
Why should you ?
SO JOIN US ! ;)

And there are those who I called Almost a Friend.
I have people who dislike my attitudes and the way I be myself...cuz they don't see much further inside...
And it doesn't bring us both forward to anything.
Well, who give a damn about them ?
The same thing I done, both accepted and dislike by both different person..
Matter of perspective I guess...
There's some questions I needed to ask and for everyone to answer.

This is what I heard from TONS of people in this passed years.
They say I EMO 24/7 ?
They said I look pissed when I'm not smiling ?
They said a lot of negative stuffs ..
Unapproachable ? Egoistic ? Proud ?
I KNOW ! I KNOW !
Heard it like 9123984235789 times already ! ><' I don't blame them... Try stick with me for a day and not 5 minutes... Anyway..In My/Our lives We had a whole different Life and Experiences and We Enjoy Every Moment ! We don't have to fake a laughter, We don't have to worried about misunderstanding, WE ARE STEADY !
NO HARD FEELINGS !
Therefore, I enjoy Life
To be able to do anything we like when we are with our FRIENDS
Without restrictions and live a Crazaayyyy Memories !

This is ME
This is between Me, Friends, and everyone else who's breathing.
So either Hate me or Like me !
Your Choice ~ ^^ Not my Business

So, What makes a Friend to You ?

Girl, I need a girl....

2010-07-19T11:33:00.000-07:00

Girl, I need a girl....

I need a girl who need me to wake her up every morning for class or work.
I need a girl who pissed me off every time we had a conversation, but knowing I would still love her no matter what.
I need a girl who drag me around all the time n end up in places we both doesn't know.
I need a girl who I can make her feel special and have every privileges I can gave 24/7.
I need a girl who act boldly and doesn't care her image in front of me.
I need a girl who suddenly shout at me in the middle of the crowd and make me felt guilty.
I need a girl who will suddenly go silent n for me to guess what actually she wanted and if I fail she will ignore me for a day.
I need a girl who always give me obvious hints and I have to act dumb before giving her the surprise.
I need a girl who make up herself before going out but knowing that I love to see her without it.
I need a girl who hit me a lot at random times with lame excuses.
I need a girl who wash the dishes with me when we ate with our family and after that I have to pay back hours of massage for each plate she washed.
I need a girl who would tell me stories,happy or not that happened on her daily life to me everynight.
I need a girl who accompany me shopping for food n anything needed every weekend.
I need a girl who take me along n ask my opinion for clothes.
I need a girl who always can't finish her food n I have to finish it up.
I need a girl who shout at me,and vent out her anger on me when she's upset.
I need a girl who will force me to eat something she like n I dislike.
I need a girl who I can tell my stupid jokes on.
I need a girl who I can take care of and needed me to remind her on everything but actually I'm the one who needed her the most.
I need a girl who I can give flowers to every single random occasion.
I need a girl who's stupid enuff to have no sense of direction but smart enuff to guide me to the right direction in life.
I need a girl who likes to travel around with n get lost together.
I need a girl who said she will cook for me but in the end there's never once I ate her's but instead I'm the one who cooks for her.
I need a girl who I can honestly tell her my problems and show my weak side.
I need a girl who I can put a smile on her face because that what makes my day perfect.
I need a girl who makes me smile every second I thought of her.
I need a girl who I can squeeze the life's blood out of her hand whenever we are together.
I need a girl who I can make her feels like she's the only one in the room in a crowded place.
I need a girl who argue with almost about everything but in the end I have to lose no matter what.

I Don't Need a Girl....

Love Light - CNBlue

2010-06-16T12:26:00.000-07:00

I always wanted to post this song up here to share
but everytime my mind flew away and I forgot about it...xP
this is a very soothing song with sweet lyrics..
nothing special...but just loving it... ^^

when i look at you my face gets red
when i see you my heart goes thump thump
i talk with shyness like a kid
when i look at you i just smile out of nowhere
like a fool I keep doing that
I think love came to me

Youre the president of my heart
Youre my chests star embroider
Im Genie for you girl
You make me stop breathing
whatever you want
because i love you
Theres no reason for my love you know

youre a darling
youre more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and youre beautiful even when i look at you
youre my love light

when i see you i feel like im up on the clouds
it may be immature but i keep doing this
i tihnk love came to me

youre a darling
youre more beautiful than the stars above in the night sky
the shining thing deep inside my heart
my very own love light

i love you darling
give me light next to me whenever
every night i look at you
and youre beautiful even when i look at you
youre my love light

youre lovely
youre mroe blinding than the sunlight up in that sky
you shine the dark places inside my heart
my own love light

i love you lovely
even if i close my eyes i see you
looking at you like this
youre still blinding even when i see you
youre my love light

2010-06-06T02:48:00.000-07:00

3 weeks of holiday...

First week went to Korea n had a blast of a time !
I don't know how to start n where to start the story...
Afta I arranged all my photos maybe.. =)

the 2nd week was like a pit stop for me...
staying at home most of the time
going out yamcha... gaming...wasting time n so...

n then the 3rd week to Redang
there goes my money flew ~

In debt n broke currently..
wonder how Im gonna survive June T,T
las few days outing with friends..gotta thanks Dennis n Waichun for sponsoring me a few bucks on my dinner...
n yesterday err..i mean today...Dennis n Hueyshian, Waichun, Kent n Me went WC's house n chat till 5am in the morning ...
Lookin forward to the next gather n hope with more friends..^^
its great to look back at all the stupid n interesting things that we all did together in the past...
wow..we sound like a gang of old folks ..xD
stop now for a while..just a quick updates..
gonna blog bout my trip when i got the time i suppose..

chaoz~

Time for a Change

2010-05-15T11:53:00.000-07:00

3 am in the morning d lu..

9pm gonna start check in d..

Gonna leave Malaysia for a week.

Not bad for a idea to leave this place for a distance in a while.

Getting emo every night for no reason is seriously killing me slowly ==''

Hoping to clear n refreshen up myself in a whole different environment =)

Gonna change myself in a week's time

Bless Me~
Cheers ~!!

Woke Up

2010-05-09T12:29:00.000-07:00

I posted something yesterday...

n right after I woke up today

The rational side of me woke up and I snapped..

Why the hell do I need to mention all those crap?

Why do I have to tell people what I did?

It's all in the past.

I just have to find someone who will appreciate.

Find someone who will wrote what I've done for them instead.

Someone that will appreciate, cherish and do not take things for granted.

Cheers~

I Don't Give a Damn

2010-04-30T12:30:00.000-07:00

Who are you

It's all about you

You, Yourself and You

Where were you when everything is falling apart

You ran away n just quit it like always

Left with no reasons leaving nothing but only deceiving

A hypocrite with nothing worth believing

Cowardly, You're a coward

Throwing everything on me n moving yourself forward

Blame it on me like you always did

Throwing me away like some useless garbage

Where were you? Where were you?

You told me we should go our separate ways

So why ? So why? So why?

You still come whenever I'm needed like always

You know I'm easily deceived, I can't deny

You found me

You found me

You got me

You got me

It's time to get even

I don't give a damn

A Smile of Cruelty

2010-04-21T14:20:00.000-07:00

I had so many things I wana post up
But every time something will comes up and I'll be lazy to be putting effort here..
Mood swings alot these few weeks... I mean months... or years.. ==''

So I guess no Yoona post..
no "Complaining" post
no "Whining" post
no "Silly" post
Today =) Cheers~
I'll crap about something that hits the head at this moment....

em..Crappy..
Please hit the RED X on the top right corner if you're not interested in EMO

My friend wrote a quote from a poem in his status..
And it reminds me of this line in the same poem..

"Admirer as I think I am, of star that do not give a damn"

I look at the stars every night
Yes, I Do...Do not Doubt about it.

I get sad when its cloudy
I get moody when its raining

I think Y'all know that this isnt this simple right..
What looking at stars or admiring at stars gonna do with me ?
It's a metaphor
(i think) *English not good nuff*

My Star
Even if it's faraway and seemingly unreachable
It never stop me for dreaming n hoping
that one day
I'll reach n achieved everything I'd dream of
I'll be Happy =)
To find a meaning in our lives that comes,
not from the outer universe,
but from within ourselves.

I'll keep look after my star
In a distant
If I were to lose them
I hope Time would play its role as the healer
And I would eventually learn to go on without them
Can I ?

It's been long
It's been too long

Still....

Your Smile Never Fails to Make Me Smile

你自然就会放下

2010-02-26T02:16:00.000-08:00

Someone posted in Facebook
Taking it n posting it here.. =)

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水

溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到
他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他

联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好
不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想

记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担

这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
自然会有人为他担心为他着急
不用你来费心

那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢
也许曾经你们是相爱过的
但是请记住那是曾经
过去的就是过去了
如果大家真的适合在一起
那么当初就不会分开
无论是谁提的分手都一样
这段感情曾经就是存在破裂点的
不管是谁错结果都是一个你们分开了

分开以后
如果一方试图想挽回而另一方没有同意的话
那么这段感情就是过去了
他是理智的因为他已经明白了两个人不适合
而你还一遍一遍的告诉自己
你们当初如何如何相爱
不可能那么容易就分手的
这样只会让你更加难以放弃
却不会让对方再次回头选择你
除非大家都有意要和好

否则你一个巴掌是不可能拍响的
所以尽早打消这个念头吧
至于他是不是有意我想你自己心里比谁都明白
不要觉得自己有多可怜或者把自己弄的很可怜
这样做一点意思也没有
他不会因为你可怜而喜欢你
你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
不是你做不好是你不想做
你不是怕忘记他你是怕他忘了你吧
别说什么他离不开你的

其实分明就是你离不开他
他若是离不开你
他就不会不要你
整天死死巴着人家不放的人是你
不懂事的人是你
难道你没看出来吗
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式

傻孩子．
忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
那些．都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．是无法面对．

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
找寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．早上不再有人工闹铃．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．她已离开．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
所有的人都对你有信心．
所以．你也要充满信心．
你是坚强的．积极的．乐观的．洒脱的．
以前是．以后也会是．
总有一天．那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活．

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好,
你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。
那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的

对你好了。。。
因为那时的我，已经将你放低。。。。
原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的。。。。
其实这个世界，真的没有非要谁不可，
走自己的路，别回头

Can You Feel My World

2010-02-20T10:48:00.000-08:00

Can You Feel My World ...

Just venting out, don't take this post too seriously

2010-02-16T04:20:00.000-08:00

I always thought I have a Good temper...
but I guess I don't..
(What you guys think ? Do I have a good temper n patient enuf? )

But, sometimes I really got pissed by those people
who take things for granted.
Who only think for themselvs n doesnt consider about the other's situation

叫我来就来,叫我走就走
当我是什么???!!
做好人也有极限
说好时间就那个时间
不要最后一分钟才告诉我!!
不能就早说,别叫我等电话,
说好了是今天会给个电话, 叫我等!! 但最后一个电话都没有
让我因为你这个"朋友"浪费了整天的时间!!
And it's not the first time ... like how we said in chinese ..
Put Aeroplane...
.. I also got my own life for goodness sake..
And one thing I got pissed is because..
Why can't you just tell the TRUTH !!!!
WTF!! If you can't make it today
Then just tell me you're not available and that you need to go out with the others.
Then i can stick on with my day..
And the most ridiculous part is..
Going out with who also you need to lie..wtheck.. is that necessary?
Why you have to tell me to standby n wait for your call ??
You have tight schedule ?? puii!!
We already decided one day before..
and suddenly you told me you can't manage your time the nex day..wat da heck
You want go dating den ma tell me lo...
Do I always have to follow you ? Call me to wait your call to see when your gonna be free..You go "busy" Dating also need me to wait for you finish dating...
walao...
That doesnt make any sense.. I'm not you PRIVATE SERVANT
it'll give me an idea that you will settle your things in a while n then let me know
but it took the whole day n not even a message to inform me sooner..
and ends up im like a fool sitting at home just because of you .. a FRIEND

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pfft...
im not trying to scold anyone or blaming
not even the "subject" in this post..
just venting out my frustration n anger
no hard feelings and for godsake...
You are still my friend..
But I do hope you...please...stop giving me troubles
and sometimes please do something to make me happy a bit will ya..zz

Haiz...烂好人...
I'm such a hypocrite..
Guess no one will believe I'll still treat those who treat me badly as a friend
but, I cherish each n everyone
they all came into my life for a reason
maybe thats how my mindset makes me a "hypocrite"

My Weekends

2010-01-16T09:21:00.000-08:00

Alright...

So..I'm gonna update this few weekends before my 3rd sem started.

First Week !!

Went to K.L with Kenjii on Sunday afternoon by BUS!!!
I wish I could drive thou,
but due to my mum have to fetch my sis to school the next morning
(which is Monday, cuz im spending overnight)
but oh well...
I got out of risk from getting another speed ticket atleast xP

Alright, met up with JianShen there at Pudu.
(He had to wait for us for an hour, cuz he took an hour earlier bus)

And so, my plan changed from going to Times Square to nothing
(due to some reasons)
and we took the bus to PJ Seksyen 17

And we are very very very unlucky ....
100+meters from his house...(on foot)
Imagine bigger than a 50cent size raindrop falls like raining bullets
Running is futile
Instant soaking ==''''

His house is not bad at all
just that the water pressure is too low
and takes time to finish bathing ..swt
Doing basically nothing in his house cept online again
Well, once the rain stop
We took bus again...==''
to I forgot where but I remember they call the "Mamak Stall"
MURNI
heard of them?
they told me that they have anything you want
from Western to Mamak style...
I don't know about that
but I ordered a steak
my friend have fried rice with chop
and I saw Spaghetti on the next table
Nasi Lemak, Maggi goreng, Giant Currypuffs @@
n yeah...I mean Giant !
and the whole street is their "territory"
table from the head to the tail of that street ..exaggerating

Okie, after having dinner...
We decided to walk home
On the way I got myself tauhu fa for supper ^^

And so, blah blah blah for the night
Dota for midnight
and feeding mosquito just when I'm about to sleep ==''
Oh btw... this is where I sleep ..

And this is Kenjii who's sleeping..

nice pose eh..xD

Right,

Next day !

SMS PJ to have lunch at KLCC later noon
before that, waking up at 9 am is a pain T,T
just to visit UTAR with my friend to settle his "Problems"
Now only I know,
Utar n MMU both **** xP
Maybe becuz our previous admin went to Utar d.. xD
Taking a cab to Utar RM3.50
But why the heck I have to WALK down this looong road

in this HOT day to go back !!

Reach KLCC with empty stomach at 3pm ==''
Have a plate of Teppanyaki and Sandwich from Subway
My Breakfast + Lunch !! xD
Met up with PJ there and have lunch together
cit chat for awhile
and found out many things that I didn't know about in foundation years
haha...man..I gotta find more chances and go out yamcha often xP
Well, after lunch and short window shopping
(Not much time to shop) T,T
Kinda sry have to let PJ came all the way from WangsaMaju
here to KLCC just to have a lunch with me ...aiks..
Well, I guess I'll make it up some other day =)

Right, head to Times n SgWang from KLCC
Search up and down, and still I can't find my shoes.. T,T
Mission Hunt Shoe Fail yet again until today
Well, atleast I bought a shirt for RM59.90 =) for CNY ^^
Too bad I don't have much time to actually go in every shop
and also head to Pavillion
Well, I guess Im gonna continue some other weekends..hopefully..

Oh, did I mention I almost lost my wallet *Full of Cash* ?
@@'' I left it in one of the store in SGwang
Imagine hundreds of them !!!!
But, lucky I found it and I got it back at al-ikhsan
the people there kept it for me ..phewwww !!
Good thing they are honest :)
Thankiu very much !!

And there we go again.. after shopping
Walking to Pudu...Damn the road is long ==

8+pm bus

Ah~ heading home finally
watching shows that I've downloaded in my laptop through the whole journey
And guess what !!
There's a Indian(?) guy in his 40s I think
watching porn behind the bus ==''''
(the bus is only less than half full of passengers)
not that I saw what he's watching but the sound coming from behind....
!@#@$#%^&
*moaning sounds*
I believe anyone of you who heard will instantly knew what is that !
at 1st my friend thought it was me..
but I was wearing headphones !!!!
I still hear the "sound" even with my headphones on...
Imagine how loud is that !!! @@''

Stupid Halfly Evolved Hairy Monkey !! =='''
(Sry, I'm only refer to the guy, no Offence! )

Ok, enough of that Indian guy sh*t

Kelvin fetched us at Sentral later on
and we went supper somewhere in Tengkera,
ate "Mian Fen Gao" before heading home individually.

A tiresome day ..I think I'd walked more than 50 km in one day ==''
Go anywhere also walk.. my legs are killing

And then my whole weekday stuck bored ==''

The Next Weekend !!

Friday actually,
start journey to Genting with Eric n his fellow housemates
10 of us 2 cars 1 destination.
Nothing much interesting happened during the road
Until........
Noob Eric blown his Car tyre ==''
Not the tyre blown by itself..
But noob Eric drove his car n ram onto the sidewalk n blown his tyre
Stupid...at cyber reverse ram my car..
Now at petrol station burst own tyre..
Realli noob xDDD
*For photos please refer to my Facebook*

I'll put an end here la..Lazy d..xPP
the Genting trip let the photo in my FB says it all =)

Chaoz~
Fullstop.

Ok Ok, I update..

2010-01-04T11:38:00.000-08:00

Update eh...

What should I update ??!! TT'''
Not that I ain't got nothing to blog about.
DAmn! I'm getting lazier each day.

Christmas and New Year..
hm..
lets just skip that part aite..
Trust me...
The enthusiasm ..the fun..the interesting stories...
NON !!
I hope Xmas 2010 and New Year 2011 celebration will not let me down !!!

Alright..let's just talk about today..erh...yesterday .. (4th Jan 2010)

Sleeping at 6 am n waking up at 2pm is not a good habit !!!
Watching tv , reading the papers ...wow..My life is bore as Hell!!!

Alright, it's not...for today
Went Portugis Settlement for dinner at 730pm
Sponsored by our NSQ founder Mr.Lim KB
(He won a lot in Genting !! xDD)
DAi lou Mr.Lim, Michael n wife, Kent, Wenyao, Cavan n Me
Ate over RM300+ *plus beer la of cuz*
Not bad for the dinner cept my stomach bloating up lyk its gonna blow @@''
Have a short walk beside the "New" small jetty and fooling a few small lil kids there..
Damn I miss that place...Where I laugh, yelled, cry, fooling around, citchatting...etc etc in the past years....

Alright...enough of the past..

We off to GoGo after that..
Sing ar Sing ....until almost 12 am ..they send me to a nearby CC and I met up with Chris..
For No/Sudden reason.. we both play a match of game and go back home...(Random) =='''

and here I am..stilll blogging about almost nothing in 4 a.m

Owh!! n I'm planning to go Korea this June !! Listen!! Planning only...
Still need to wait an answer from my aunt before everything finalize ..

Yipiieee !! ^^

Alright.. I hope that satisfied u Aunty Wendy and River YangTze
I wonder why I'm blogging when they are only a few of you viewing.. xDD haha

Oh yea btw....

I'm ANTI 2PM-Taecyeon from now on xDDDDD kakakaka
don't ask me why!!!

Haircut !!

2009-12-10T11:19:00.000-08:00

I had my haircut !!

Back to the Secondary school style !! ^^
Don't ask me why I do that !!
Cuz I oso don't know !@#$#%$#^$^&

New Chapter or New Story ?

2009-11-29T11:30:00.000-08:00

I Love driving around alone in my car at night.
Without much vehicles and pedestrians on the road.
I could relax my mind and just enjoy the short journey re-watching the drama of my life.
Circling around town and every corner of places I could fit the car.
Listening to songs and music while reminiscing every pieces of memories I could get from every single places I been to.
Family,Lover,Friends and even total Strangers.
Every single events that happened,
Has their soul printed on those every corner,
Came back to me as if I'd abandoned them there.

As I watch the stars and moon that I'd forgotten for a while.
I found back that Peace in my mind that left me alone some time ago.
Looking back to the pages,
There are Happiness and there is Sorrows,
Laughter, Tears, Promises, Betrayal, Comedies, Tragic, Heartwarming and Lies.
But...still
How could I missed so many things that I could wrote them in my page of Life?
There are still a lot of people I'd missed them out in my page.
People who I Neglected for certain reasons,
People who I Disappointed because of something or someone.
Did I ...written too much of nonsense and chose the wrong character for my scene ?
Or the script had already been set and written from the start.

I guess it's time for me to burn them away.
I'll just let the New story go on his own.

Let's go Baby... a New Chapter of a New Story is starting!! ^^

WARNING

2009-11-21T12:21:00.001-08:00

Help me Define the word... "Friend"...

is it...

"the person who is important to you when needed, and should be discarded when you don't need them" ...

or

"the person who you called when needed, and can't even spare a minute to answer one call from them when you don't need them"

Well, I found this meaning of "Friend" in you...
I hope you know who you are IF you happened to read this post.

I just want you to know, please..do whatever you like, but if it's over the line...it's over..
A goody good guy may help you on anything at all if needed, but, they have their own pride and respect as well.

PLEASE DON'T GET TOO OVER

Insomnia

2009-11-14T12:54:00.000-08:00

From 13th Nov 1 p.m until right now 15th Nov 4:50 a.m
I'd only slept for 2 hours
I can't believe that I actually lie down and do nothing on the bed until the morning.
(Despite the "Muslim singing" and the Chicken alarm)
The things in my head are torturing me long enough to keep me awake.
A very long time had passed, and I thought that I already gotten through all.
But I was wrong.
The moment ... appeared in front of me.
All the hard work and miserable time I'd gone through,
All goes to waste in just mere seconds.

The rain today was salt to my wounds.
Being alone ,quiet and cold in the house.
Sick and helpless.
It was a very long day....

In the Past,
I love to Sleep.
Cuz the Dream are the only thing I have.
Me n U.
Right now,
I don't even dare to close my eyes anymore.
Cuz Nightmare take the only Dream I have away.
You Left me Alone.

Sorry

2009-11-08T12:29:00.000-08:00

Actually was thinking to write out the whole "Complicated" day I been through to surprise Chris n Dennis B'day...
But it was such a long story and the song playing on my laptop keep on spinning in my head.
And I end up writing this crap ... =='''

Out of Randomness

Sorry,I Love You

Baby I'm so Sorry
Oh My Love
Baby I'm so Sorry
Oh I'm Sorry My Girl

Look into My Heart
Can you See My Love
Baby I'm so Sorry
Everything doesn't matter
Oh bring it on
Come back to me

It's Sunday
Oh Morning Girl
My eyes open and I'm alone
Everyday Every night
I want to hold you my girl

Baby I'm so Sorry
Time and Time
Baby I'm so Sorry
I'm so Sorry Girl
Look into My Heart
I just want to hold you my girl
Everyday Every night
I wanna hold you my girl

Oh what should I do
Oh baby please tell me
What should I do

I want to see you My Love
I wont run away
Gonna stay awake all day
thinking of you

Just listen to me
Baby I'm so Sorry
My Love
I'm so Sorry Girl
I'm so sorry
Baby I'm so Sorry
Sorry that I Love you My Girl
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry

Oh your long black hair
Making my day, I don't have to pray
So beautiful and so damn rare
The way you treating me
Feel it all in my Heart
Forever from My Heart
I Promise you

She's The One

2009-10-24T13:31:00.000-07:00

Another random post of what I always write while getting bored and listening to my fav songs
~,~

Time to let it go
Please don't let me go
I can't let you go
You gotta listen
Please ... listen

We can make this work
How can it be true
Breaking up is so blue
We gotta make everything alright
You make everything alright girl

Forever your my girl
Forever be my world
You're the only one
You're the one

Back to the corner
When all still isn't over
How can this be
When everything is still even
I'm still in heaven

Baby don't worry
Baby I won't be going
You won't be lonely
You are my only
Baby I won't be going
Even the sky is falling down
It won't bring me down
For you I won't

Forever be my girl
Forever your my world
I'm the only one
Your the one

There's only one thing left to say.

Note***

I'm NOT EMO-ing

Don't Wake Me Up

2009-10-21T13:25:00.000-07:00

Suddenly "xin xue lai chao" logging in my friendster.
Digging to the hidden side of my hard drives.
Looking back at the old pictures ...

I really miss the old days so much T,T

I wish I could turn back the time just this Once...

Even if I couldn't change anything , even if I have to live through all of it once more..
I got no regret....

... too bad...Time is Irreversible

I can Only Dream

Liar n Fakers

2009-10-17T10:42:00.000-07:00

Lie Lie Lie Lie Lie,
It was all a Lie.
Lie Lie Lie Lie Lie,
Everything
Lie Lie Lie Lie Lie.
*From the Lyrics in "Lets Break Up - Lee Seung Gi" *

I Hate Lies
Lying to me is worst than stabbing me with a knife
I'd seen a lot of Lies,
White Lies or Black Lies
Even thou I Detest Lying
Every time I'll just forget and get over it.

I'd seen a lot of People,
True Friends and Fakers.
Every time I'll just play their games along.
Cuz I believe everyone has their reason.

This time,
It's just too much,
I had heard the same Lie for too many times.
That mask of yours disgust me.
I snapped.
I can't take all the faking and lies already.
I got sick of it, disgust by their looks and words.
Acting "Mr.Know Nothing" when I'd already knew everything is making me crazy.

Faking myself to believe every lies.

I'm sick of that smiling face
Sick of them who thinks they knows me well
Sick of those thick faced.

I know who's my true friend is and who's not
I had ENOUGH!
I had to be Denial

I'm Sick of
Living in pretense

I'm Sick of you People !

I was like ... Mesmerized

2009-09-24T08:38:00.000-07:00

Since our Miss Sungai YangTze keep complaining me for being Emo all the time. ==''
Guess I'll heat up my blog here from being cold n emo ..

Alright, so How I'm gonna heat it up?

EAsy~

Try Guessing ?

...

...

...

...

...Can't get a clue?

...

.....

...Come one

It's Obvious!!

...

......

I'm obsessed with...

...

....

...

YoonA ~ lah u doink!!! xD

Alright, It's not like I love to blog about her.. (err..actually I do..xP)

But this time, it'll really makes the boy's heart melts, your eyes shine, and of course..

Envy and Jealousy from the girls ! hahahahaha

So okay, I got this from Soshified

YoonA was chosen as a model for Amore Pacific's Innisfree - a company that promotes use of natural cosmetic products.

I'll let the photo do the talking and your eyes to do the judging.. ^^

Bye bye for now~ =)

*p/s click photo to see larger picture*

I Love this one~ ^^
Beautiful Place + Beautiful Girl

忆难忘

2009-09-23T11:38:00.000-07:00

每一天
每一分
每一秒

画面总是不停浮现
影子总出现在眼前
试着遗忘所有一切
但却没勇气睁开眼
有过冲动握着你手
偏偏忘记已是过去

有没后悔那天邂逅
是否应该拒绝问候
你应该不应该舍弃
握在手中的那糖果

其实绝非爱得不够
看透不需真正拥有
说了一千句别执着
却阻不了心脏跳动

遥远背后看守就够
全然退后豁出所有
衷心祝福后就放手
这种感觉没有尽头
为你幸福付出所有

Loooooooong way to go

2009-09-18T11:18:00.000-07:00

Near Death experience
...

How many times does one person need to experience,these so called "Accident" until they actually die for real?

I look back to the old days from 4-5 years old to my 19th.
I'd encountered alot of .."things" that suppose to take my puny lil life away.
Falling from high places to drowning
From Suffocating to near Heart attack
From "almost" broken neck and backbones to car accidents.

Wonder if someone never notice
Wonder if that driver never break
Wonder if the mattress wasn't there
Wonder if ....

wow... i don't even wana think about it right now

I guess it's not my time yet... xD
I still got a loooooooong way to go man...

Nostalgic

2009-09-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

Tonight is kinda weird...

Seems like I'm repeating the same night as last month.
Eating my Maggi + Sausage + Egg + Chocolate Milk + Bread for Dinner
While watching "Hello Baby" alone at home.
Siting on the same place, facing the same direction, eating the same thing....

I want changes...
I need a drastic change in my life...
Anything... anything at all...

RAndom

2009-09-14T12:16:00.000-07:00

I Have a Dream
I Have My Wish
I Hold on to My Words
I Do What I Said
I Break No Promises
I Hold on to My Commitment
And I Don't Regret !

All this sums up Me being an Idiot
xXP

I'm 19

2009-08-30T08:51:00.000-07:00

I guess I should've wrote something about this..
to Thanks everyone who had Wished me..Celebrate with me.."Surprise" me... Sia sui me n so on..
haha

Ok...

Firstly, have to thank my bros: Yoo and Chris
They gave me a present 5 days before my B'day ==''
A Nike T-shirt with my nickname on it.. haha Cool~
Thanks ya guys.. ^^

Just Do It~

4 days later..

XunHuai,WeeChen,Kent,JianShen,WeiChian celebrated mine and KaiWen's at Jetty
2 B'day in one.. Save Money huh...haha..and 2 days earlier somemore..
but too bad I have to leave early to go to da "Next Street" right after I ate the cake.

Meet Shenny,Limyet,Shant at Dreambox
If it wasn't the waiter "slipped" I really wouldnt have know it was to celebrate my B'day..haha
But, in the end they still GOT me ..
Shant n Shenny make a prank , Shant makes me believe there's a pervert outside the toilet and Shenny is in trouble ==''
and so....
Rush out the room to bump into a "squad" of waiter and her with a Cake ..
Ok.. I admit.. It really Surprises me..

I really enjoy the day with 3 different batch of friends with me.. ^^
After class dinner with a bunch of Friends in Campus
Sing K with my Secondary school friends
Kena tipu by da "S" gang.. swt~

Next day,
Having tea with Eric,Alvin,Weekiat,Angela,Andrew,Weijie at Nadeje before Eric n Weijie go back Kelantan...
Thx for the Layer cake Eric =)

After having dinner at Kg.8 with da rest of the gang
We went to have a yamcha session at Mori
Dom and Ziyan was there before us..
Wow, what a surprise to saw Chee hou singing there.. haha
JianShen,YeeYang and ChinMing coincidentally was there as well..
Everything looks normal at 1st..but after that
They told the singer to sing B'day song ..and the worst things is I have to stand up..
walao.. T,T n CheeHou only found out it is me.. haha..
anyway..thanks guys..^^

Alright..it's 12am + n I continue my night to Aloha
Siwei,Michael n wife,Kent and Kelvin was there..
have a few drinks there and again..the singer on stage sang B'day song again..
Imagine B'day song in a club...swt~
but anyway..have to thanks them also la..haha..^^
a second round to Arena! wohooo.. met another Kelvin there..haha
A great night..but scary as well when on the way home..
Kent drove his car on the one way road in the Opposite Direction!!! @@''
And I have to take that risk by following him behind ..swt~ Good thing nothing bad happens..n no Police...haha..

Oh..btw..thanks Weekiat for the meal at LeGarden
and Of cuz my Birthday present for the day..
ManU won Arsenal 2-1 ! xD haha

And the best for the last...
Thanks May, My 3rd aunt for her present~ ^^

Love it ~

A very unique day this year..
With many different people..different pattern..different style..haha
Glad to have you all~
And here I thanks everyone who wished me through Phone, SMS, Personally, E-Mails, Comments, Wall post etc etc
And I wish you all have a Dream Come True as Well ~ Cheers~ ^^

Silent

2009-08-16T11:59:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna stop speaking from now on for at least a week or longer.
And this only meant towards Close Friend and Friends
(Conversation between "strangers" like Hi Bye friend or Lecturer etc etc won't be affected)
Don't ask me why..
And I hope you guys don't get pissed off by me when you're trying to talk with me. xP
So all my friends listen up!
If I ever say a word to you guys..please remind me to shut up.. Thank You ~ ^^

Oh ya..
one question
Am I consider as a Good person or a Bad person?
I got so Terrible meh ? >,<

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

2009-08-06T11:43:00.000-07:00

That day PJ suddenly write the lyrics n send me ==
n so making me crapping here again..xP

Going back to the Corner,
Where I First saw You.
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag,
I'm not gonna Move.

They try to hand me Money,
But they Don't Understand.
How Can I Move on,
When I'm still In Love with You.

Whenever I step in here
This song played and played repeatedly
and I never got sick of it..

Maybe...
Cuz I'm not Moving..

When can I start to move on
Pack up my backpack
Throw away that cardboard
And that picture of you

Three years later...
This song will remain in my page for Three more years
I'll stay here for Three more years
I'm not gonna move
I'm not moving
Maybe I'll really get famous
As the man who can't move

When you wake up one morning
If you start missing me
And wonder where on Earth I could be
I'll be right here waiting
And I'm not gonna Move

I'm the Man who Can't be Moved

"Hello" (Random Post)

2009-07-29T10:36:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello
Remember what I do wrong, so here I go
Putting a Hole in My debilitated Heart
Are we really so Far apart?

Hello Hello
There is no place I cannot go
Walk out the door and up the streets
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Your Heart is the only place I can't be

You touched my heart you touched my soul
You Changes my Life and all My Goals
Goodbye my Lover Goodbye my Friend
And love is blind and that I knew when
Sometimes Goodbye is just a Second Chance

And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
I'll just make the same mistake again
I'm not calling for a second chance

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
As you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be

And I think I'm gonna Hate It Girl
How you embraced my hand and say Don't Let Go
How you say you Missed me when you're Alone
Now there's only Me and my Silent Phone

Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars fall down
And wonder where did I go wrong
Once again I cannot sleep
Hello Hello
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
I'm so Hollow..

Replay

2009-07-26T11:34:00.000-07:00

A random post I made up while i'm listening to my fav songs..=)

I dedicated my all to this song
Yeah dedicated to all my brokenhearted people
So sick of love songs
But still singing that love song
Are you ready..

Lets go...

We hold and held
I sing and sang
Close your eyes
Hear the bells
Memento of ours

Im going back, yeah I'm going back
I found it, yes but it's all now black
You left and , yeah I fell
You break it and now my sorrow swell

What can I do now
Oh I'll make it all well
We gonna take it away
Day by day
Yeah, Forever baby
Day by day
Forgive me ..

Oh my heart break like a wave
Oh Girl say my name
Lets spread the fame
Lets play the game..

Oh girl I cry cried
Falling apart ,
Oh girl I cry cried
To not say Goodbye

As time passes..
Don't bury our Promise...
I can bear it in some way...
I can stand in some way...

Oh you're my everything
And I think I'm gonna hate it girl
Make up...
Need a Replay
Shake up...
oh Let's Replay
Break up..
Accept my Apology
(I need a Replay)
Oh Let's make up
And make our own Love Disease
Incurable Disease
Let's singalong
Scream my name and feel our pain
Break my voice and it's all vain

I think I'm gonna Hate it girl
But Let's Replay..Replay...Replay

Memorable Day - 20th July

2009-07-20T03:52:00.000-07:00

20th July

Today is a very Special day..For me...
I can still remember last year as if it was just yesterday..
20th July .. it was a Sunday in 2008...
This year it landed on Monday huh... =)

But..
Too Bad...
This year is different.. Totally different..
Don't know whether I can officially "Celebrate" today as an anniversary in the future or not..
Don't know whether I can even mention it in the future or not..

Happy 1st year to Me ~ ^^

The story still have to go on..
Cuz the story isn't over yet ...

Wherever it takes me to...
I still have to keep building my Bridge..

My Sassy Girl

2009-07-19T12:07:00.000-07:00

My Sassy Girl...
Yea..I know its a based on a Korean Drama from few years ago
I never watched the drama before
So I don't really know how different is the story between these two..
but today I watched this movie and found it really touching in the end.

Hm..guess I'll go find the drama and see whether it's better than this movie or not..xD

Here's a short synopsis from the net :

My Sassy Girl is the tale of the first and last time Charlie Bellow falls in love. From their initial meeting, trouble is the name of the game. Imagine an amorphous mass of dating disasters and you get an idea of the relationship between the young couple. Some mysterious force with the strength of gravity between two planets must be at play between Charlie and Jordan as the relationship truly makes no sense on the surface. Everything seems pitted against the two of them. Things suddenly come to a halt when the two write letters confessing their love for each other. Agreeing to meet a year later to read the love letters together, Charlie and Jordan go their separate ways...

I really love the ending and the thing both the hero n heroine said...

This is a few of my favorite quotes..

Jordan Roark : We have to stay alive, because we have to see how the story ends.

Charlie Bellow : Whatever she was going through it was beyond anything in my experience and beyond my ability to fix. I had no right to judge her, if I chose to stay with her – knowing the risks – all I could do was give her love and respect, and see how the story would end…

Charlie Bellow : If we never see each other again... And you're out walking one day and you feel a certain presence beside you... that will be me, loving you, wherever I am.

*Conversation between Leo and Charlie*

Charlie Bellow : On the reasons to stop seeing her side we have: One, on going physical danger. Two, high likely-hood of a broken heart. Three, uh career sabotage. Four, she is clinically insane. Five, she seems to enjoy my pain. Six, fourteen piece matched set of Louis Vuitton emotional baggage. Seven, I haven't even kissed her yet, for God's sakes. Uh eight, she's ruining my life.

Leo : And the reasons to keep seeing her?

Charlie Bellow : I'm in love with her.

Nice movie ~ =)

YoonA ^^

2009-07-15T10:28:00.000-07:00

Got nothing to do..
Although having class few hours later at 7 a.m =='' sux ..
But still.. My mood is up to make this post..xD
*Since YT ask why I didn't make a post bout it..I'll do it now..xD*

Girls can take few look as well and get some idea on changing your own hairstyle~ xD

Starting with the 2007

To this... ^^

To this... xP

To this... xD

To this ... @@''

To this ... ~,~v

To this...=)

To this... ^^

And Now to THIS !! ^^
Aint it Pretty? xD lol

Forgive me for being so... obsessed... ==''
Just for fun... ^^

Peace

2009-07-08T10:39:00.000-07:00

8th July 2009

Lied on my bed at 3:44 am
Woke up at 9:05 am
Reached class at 10:14 am
Class Ends at 11:32 am
Fall sloppy-ly on my Sofa at 11:50am
On my Laptop 11:52 am
The Tv 11:52 am

A piece of Secret Recipe's New York Cheese cake (leftovers from Mum's Bday)
A glass of Lemon Ice Tea
Die Hard 4.0 movie
Alone and Peacefully
Watching one of my favorite movie
Eating one of my favorite cake
Drinking one of my favorite drinks

So peacefully that nothing comes into your mind
Where it just you, the cake, the beverages and the action packed movie
The first time ever I'd experienced such... Peace
It all takes place between 12:20 pm to 3:00 pm

Once in a while...
Life can be Good sometimes...
But still it's a long way to go..
There's a lot yet to be learn and done

I Forgot

2009-06-29T10:18:00.000-07:00

Have you ever forget to breathe ?
I actually forget to breathe just now..
It's almost as if I concentrate on doing or thinking something and "forget" to breathe.
Freaky... @@''

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Totally random from this point onwards ... =)

I forget to breathe
I forgot to tell you something
Forgot to apologize for nothing
I forgot that life's not fair
I remember wanting to believe
But now I don't remember why

It's starting like the dreams I had everyday
As we pass by a fragrant road in this beautiful season
My cautious footsteps pound in my head
When you come closer while smiling for me
Everything has a scent because of you
Like the ocean in summer
Like the sky in late fall
It's a dream that starts when the blue light sparkles

Where's my Tinkerbell ...

Trying to remember
Remembering the rhythm
Recalling how it beats for you
It came and go

When your near me
You know I can't see things clearly
I can't breathe
and my heart stop beating
I forgot how to breathe

One of my Fav Movie

2009-06-25T12:01:00.000-07:00

Don't know why...just feel like posting something about this...

A movie that inspire me the most on LIFE

A movie that makes me feel ashamed of myself right now

It's a movie from few years back ..I watched it 2 years ago..
and recently I repeatedly watched it the 4th time already..=)

The Pursuit of Happyness

A movie based on a true story
about
an on-and-off-homeless salesman-turned stockbroker.

p/s this is also the movie that make me start playing Rubik's cube.. xP

I Need a Spelling Lesson

2009-06-25T11:32:00.000-07:00

Great~

The 2nd week of my "Beta" year had just passed..

First, the number of people in class are tripled compare to Foundation year..
But, Loneliness level are 100 times higher.. sob

Pros and Cons

Good thing is..I pay more attention to class now..listening to every word the lecturer was saying..
Miracle huh..xD

Bad thing is.. damn.. lack of all the jokes, fun, gossips bla bla bla..
Class are just plain boring ...
Some Indian lecturers are giving me a major headache..
Not being racist here..( well..a lil..xP)
Their English with their Indian-ish accent are making my head spinning like they do when they talk Tamil..swt~
I wonder how my Financial Accounting going to pass..T_T
Seriously need help when exams coming..
Save me !! Someone ?!!

Totally Random~

Sometimes when I reflect back on all the beer I drink I feel ashamed.
Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the brewery and all of their hopes and dreams.
If I didn't drink this beer, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered.
Then I say to myself, "It is better that I drink this beer and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver.

Make sense huh...

I am free, no matter what rules surround me.
If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them.
I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do

Responsibility... Is there anyone here qualify to be call Responsible?

The correct spelling - Happiness
I spell - Happyness

Happiness cannot be achieve with only 'I' myself..
Happyness needs 'Y'ou to be achieved together...

Simply Random

2009-06-23T11:14:00.000-07:00

I understand that Scissors can beat Paper, and I get how Rock can beat Scissors, but there's no fuckin way Paper can beat Rock. Paper is supposed to magically wrap around Rock leaving it immobile? Why the hell can't Paper do this to Scissors? Screw Scissors, why can't Paper do this to people? Why isn't notebook paper constantly suffocating students while they take notes in class? I'll tell you why, because Paper can't beat anybody; a Rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. When I play Rock/Paper/Scissors, I always choose Rock. Then when somebody claims to beat me with their Paper I can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "Oh shit, I'm sorry. I thought Paper would protect you.. =_='

Life is like a roller coaster, I'm about to throw up..
and
I'm not Crazy, My reality is just different than yours..

and
Sometimes I just sits and thinks, and Sometimes I just sits..

无重力 - Willbert Pan

画面不动了情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因让时间停了
在伤心的镜头被停格

电梯不动了爱也停止了
可是坠落的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单漂浮着

无重力腾空慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛飘荡的心却摔得更重

我爱你你爱我是不是还不够
我不懂为什么付出的全落空
无重力爱坠落粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手还能抓住什么

我爱你你爱我算不算是承诺
全世界都沉默没声音的嘶吼
无重力爱坠落最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我撑到最后

画面不动了情歌不唱了
爱情的重播键明明一直按着
什么原因让时间停了
在伤心的镜头被停格

电梯不动了爱也停止了
可是坠落的感觉怎么还在呢
热闹的街道还在狂欢着
为何我却孤单漂浮着

无重力腾空慢慢跌入无尽的黑洞
没知觉的伤痛
飘荡在半空的心越挣扎却摔得更重

我爱你你爱我是不是还不够
我不懂为什么付出的全落空
无重力爱坠落粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手还能抓住什么

我爱你你爱我算不算是承诺
全世界都沉默没声音的嘶吼
无重力爱坠落最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我撑到最后

（I love you）

我爱你你爱我是不是还不够
我不懂为什么付出的全落空
无重力爱坠落粉身碎骨的我
不受控制的手还能抓住什么

我爱你你爱我算不算是承诺
全世界都沉默没声音的嘶吼
无重力爱坠落最缓慢的折磨
只剩遍体鳞伤的我撑到最后

Starting a New Me

2009-06-18T11:21:00.000-07:00

Ego-ism blinded us

Ego leads to Selfish..
Selfish leads to tons of Problems

I always ask what's wrong with people
but, Before that...
I should have ask what's wrong with me first..

Expecting too much and giving too less..
Overconfident in everything and being un-confident at the same time
Being Maturely Immature at the same time..
Trying to be someone I'm not.. Is gona take a hard effort.
I'm gonna change myself from this second
No matter how and what it takes..

Teach me when I'm wrong
Scold me when I'm wrong
Hit me when I'm wrong

I rather being scold in the face and change myself after wards
then being hated by people in the heart without me realizing.

I'm still learning..
I'm still growing up..
Lead me..Teach me...Guide Me...

Friends,Family,Enemy,Strangers,Whoever...
I Love you all~

Hypocrite

2009-06-14T11:05:00.000-07:00

I'm a hypocrite
Everyone agree? =)

A guy who always said, want the best for the others..
But in the end always ending up hurting people in a way ..
Accidentally or Purposely ..
Always done things without consideration of the others
In my own narrow minded way, I thought what I'm doing is always right
Always thought that I have the best way for the others..
Without realizing I'm just being selfish all along.

Why always regretting doing something only after I'd already done it.
Can't I be more rational and wise for one heck once in a while??
I'm always got deaf...
Blinded by emotions
Always confident about knowing what's inside people's mind
Paranoid is a word for me..

Doing everything with a heart of hoping the best for someone
Aren't always a good thing ...

Think before You Act !

Ｄｒｕｎｋ？

2009-06-13T13:18:00.001-07:00

Now only i Realise im such a hypocrite..

Went to Aloha again wif NSQ frens..
Headache..drunk i guess..
i dun even know wat im doing now cept for writing a blog due to my moodiness..xD
but now nothing matters anymore
thx for everyone today that went Aloha..
Especially Si Wei !! ^^
Kent..Ah Heng tht already drunk..xD
and one more MMu fella whom i forgot his name..sry ya..
swt~

Glad i still have all of you guys.
well..of course everyone that i know is included depsite the NSQ frens＾＾
ｈｅｅ
ｇｕｄ　ｎｙｔ　ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ．．．ｓｗｔ～
ｉ　ｍ　ｄｒｕｎｋ．．ｚｚｚ

搞笑 - Show Luo

2009-06-12T02:45:00.000-07:00

那一条牙膏在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎么熬
这么多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬但是至少要让我知道
你好不好

我们的小狗食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑借着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀

还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹希望听到有人会提到
你好不好

Something Girls Never know

2009-06-10T10:42:00.000-07:00

Something Girls Never know

Girls wont understand why Boys want to learn to be Strong.
Because they know It's Fragile inside despite the Rigid appearance.

Girls wont understand why Boys doesn't cry easily.
Not because a Boy can't cry,
But they know It's Over when the Tear drops.

Girls wont understand why Boys still care for them even after a Break up.
Because they know,
They aren't trying to be friend,but to get back that Love they used to have.

Girls wont understand why Boys always get mad at them.
Because they know,
Scolding them is to hope that they don't get con by others in the future.

Girls wont understand why Boys care so much bout your ex.
Because they know,
Not that they aren't confident bout themselves,
But afraid that you'll leave them as well.

Girls wont know why Boys always blame themselves after a Break up.
They are just hoping that there's only one man crying in this relationship.
And in the mean time hoping the Girls can find a better relationship.
As long as She can be Happy
It's the last Wish a Boy can have.

2009-06-08T11:13:00.000-07:00

No one Knows...

Short Updates

2009-05-11T09:29:00.000-07:00

woot~

It's been a while since the last updates...
Been very very "Busy" for the past few days..or weeks..xP

Following Yoo around..following best buds around, pool-ing, gaming, lepak-ing, watch football match, working on assignments and project at the last minutes, mahjong..etc etc..
wow..damn busy huh...xD

Final Exam is coming next week !
and seriously* I haven't revise any of the subject yet T,T
Having problem with all the subs..damn... *Should da pay more attention in class huh~*

http://mlkstd.mmu.edu.my/~1081101095
yep~ the website project for PCA I have working on for 2 whole day are finished ^^
If ya gona complain bout me being obsessed with yoona..
NO I'M NOT!
just that it makes the process of making the website fun instead of getting me frustated for doing it .. xD

Time sure flies..It's now May
I can still remember all the incident that happened lasst year at this time clearly as if it was just yesterday..haiz..nostalgic..

Oh, and not to forget...
Thx "Small Fish" for buying Eclipse and Breaking Dawn for me ^^
Fresh from KinoKuniya and paid in SGDollars
aiks...feel sorry I didn't pay a cent for it ...
THANK YOU!!!

One more month to go and we're going to Beta year *I hope I pass all the sub >,<*
I got Marketing Management as I want it..
I don't know whether if that's I really wanted..
but whatever...I'll do my BEST!!!
Marching for Success at age 27-28 !!! ^^

Random

2009-04-27T11:55:00.000-07:00

Nothing to mention
Nothing to see here...

Just a very random post to shout out
IRONIC........

xD

I miss the old times....xP

Post for Fun xP (Life Threatening)

2009-04-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

I said I'll make a post bout Yang Tze and Ah mao..
and here I am for this Short simple post...xP
Don't kill me ya...xD

They both look alike?

But I personally think that she looks like "her" ... xD

And for Ah mao...

See...80% Look alike !!

YoonA !!! xD
To prevent everyone from having nightmares after seeing the post..

Cheeers~ ^^

Friday,Saturday,Sunday

2009-04-19T10:54:00.000-07:00

Weekend !!!
aite...gonna start with Friday...

Ziv and Yoo came to Malacca from K.L to support us..
Am very grateful and appreciate their help...THANK YOU!!! ^^
but one question both Ziv n Yoo ask still bugging me until now..
" What you really want? ..."
Seriously..I always thought I know what I want all along...
but now I realise I don't...

A better Future with loads of money?
A car?
A big mansion like house?
A lovely wife with 2 kids?
CEO of a Big company?
Peace?...

haiz...this gonna take some time...

alrite..nvm..continue with Saturday~

Going to the PC fair at Mahkota with Chris...
plus..fetching noob Kiat and his friend along...
Man..the crowd...
suffocating...
Met loads of friends there..working..promoting..shopping..xD
Bought myself a 320gb external hard drive for RM 255 ..man I'm broke now..T,T
no more money to buy anotha speaker...sob..

My New Hard Drive that Make me go Broke..T,T

After having dinner ..went to have a movie with Chris..
" Knowing "

It was a good story..but the ending is kinda...unacceptable..haha..
atleast its not a hero save the world kind of movie..xP

Went pool-ing with Dennis and Kent afterwards...
until midnight and we went to have supper at Chris neighbourhood..
chit chatting like idiots..laughing..fooling..embarrassing..xD
a great time although it's just four of us old buddies...

AND SUNDAY~
Woke up at 10 am..
bath and got ready...
Eat my breakfast..the BIG PAU every Sunday.. bought from my parents..
and went out with Chris..........again...
Dennis and his darl HueyS for........... breakfast AGAIN.

Went to MP for bowling ...3 game !! ..wa...money are slipping away from my wallet T,T
Daytona...Time Crisis...Secret Recipe...
aiks...No more money....AGAIN...
And something ridiculous happen as well...

When we are in the toilet at MP's food court..
I accidentally bump into a guy..
Sudenlly he called me...
At1st I thought he is too "sensitive" and want an apology from me..
but turn out asking me .....
"Are you interested to be a model? "
I was like...wtf... Me?
Nonono..I'm not interested..sorry ar...swt~

First..Im thin like a stick...un-photogenic...why would I join..making fun of myself eh..haha..

Lepak around the mall..the time sure flies..
Went fetchin Kent back to MP AGAIN! from his house at Malacca Baru..(zz petrol banyak eh..)
Have our Dinner at US pizza..(Pizza Hut is full!)
and went straight on to Facebook..GAMING! xD
it's been awhile we play together..^^
Have a short Tea at the mamak..watching MU lose to Everton..(Penalty) T,T ..sob..
Bad day...haiz..

Overally...Today ..Yesterday..and day Before Yesterday is the Day of SPENDING MONEY!
My 2 month of "salary" ...Gone..T,T
How to Survvive till May ??!!!

Oh btw...
Short Hair =)
well..the front and back only la..xD
some ppl prefer short some prefer long...
so i choose to stay in the middle !! kakaka..

I Lied...

2009-04-11T12:34:00.000-07:00

I lied to the world..
I lied to everyone..
My family..My best friend..Friends...and Myself..
Hahahahahahahahaha!!!!!
Out of my mind..... =='

Lied to everyone for myself ..
Selfish huh..
Faking a smile..Giving them a shitty looks with those confident words..
No one ever doubt..
Doing it like a pro..

Is this gonna end.. ?

I suppose ...it will never met its ending..
Until I can really met someone who could end all this..

七个对不起

2009-04-10T09:37:00.000-07:00

七个对不起,换来女孩跳楼，男孩疯了。

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……

A Story to Share

2009-04-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

A true story I just read from the net.
I don't know whether it's a true story or not thou . xP

**

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog's owner, his wife, and their little boy were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle. I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home.

As we made arrangements, the owners told me they thought it would be good for the four-year-old boy to observe the procedure. They felt he could learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker's family surrounded him. The little boy seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on.

Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker's transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker's death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives.

The little boy, who had been listening quietly, piped up, "I know why."

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I'd never heard a more comforting explanation. He said, "Everybody is born so that they can learn how to live a good life - like loving everybody and being nice, right?" The four-year- old continued, "Well, animals already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long."

How?

2009-04-05T12:48:00.000-07:00

How to Hate a Person?

How to Hate them so that you don't Love them?

How...

Sa-d Man

2009-03-30T10:22:00.001-07:00

I don't feel so good...
Mentally and Physically...

All the things that shouldn't comes out came all at once...

Unable to describe.. that suffocating blood gushes all out to the head and burning me inside out from the chest....

Just can't figure it out ...what's wrong with me...
Did I ate something wrong?..
I slept too much just now?

Hate this feeling.. ==''

WHATEVER!!!! WHO CARES!!!!

I got plenty more important things to be done !!!

FIGHT!!!

Walao ..again..

2009-03-28T15:02:00.000-07:00

Walao...busy finishing the moral...
6 am sleep again....sian diao..zzzz

Insomnia

2009-03-27T14:59:00.000-07:00

Cant get it off my head...
6am...still cant sleep...haiz..
Confused...
Everything just doesnt feels right........
What should I do...Am i doing it right?...

Should I....

2009-03-26T11:38:00.000-07:00

It's beeen months since I last had my haircut..

Messy long hair right now ...zzz

Hm..Want something New..Something different...

Should I make it Short?

Leave it longer and dye it?...

Stick with now..change it alil n look emo?

Or...

Bald?!..

Noway....@@' I'll shoot myself first !

Or...

Maybe I should curl it like him...xD

hm...
any opinion? ..xP

I could be a Better Man

2009-03-25T12:27:00.000-07:00

I thought that I was stronger.
Holding on to my words.
I swear it's True

You look inside
You would see how much I really cry
You'll find secrets hidden,
Best friends and Lies.
But what you'll see the most
is how hard it really is to stay strong
when nothing is ever right
and everything is always wrong.

Have you ever wanted to talk,
But never really dared?
Or missed that opportunity
To tell them that you cared?
Pretended that it doesn't hurt,
and said that its ok?
Spending each day wishing
It'd all just go away?
Acted how you're "supposed to"
So no one ever knew
And never let them see
How you really felt inside?

A chapter in the story of my life
A lesson to make me stronger
I thank that broken heart because that made me who i am...

I hope I could Understand...
I could be a Better man...

We find rest in those we love,
and we provide a resting place in ourselves
for those who love us.
For all you are and will be.

Random post

2009-03-23T13:16:00.001-07:00

Ever heard of the story.. "The Boy Who Cry Wolf" ?
Well.. somehow the story came up on my mind ..every time before I sleep...

This is post is written based on whatever my mind comes up with at the moment..
It's gona be shitty..meaningless..confusing..

A boy who lie about everything...
Well..I'm not gona tell what he lied..
But the people around are not happy with it..
He's selfish and would do anything for his own benefits..
He lie..He cheats ..and He betrayed..
He scammed..He act..and He use people as a tool..
He felt no remorse...He felt no Shame...He only thinks that He's Right...
He always gets away with it...
But,that's what he thinks..
Even when caught red handed..
The boy will make up silly stories and excuses that doesnt makes any sense to get away.
People around are already sick of him,
People already gave up on him..
No one actually trust him...
True friends who once stay beside him.
One by one..driven away by him..when they aren't on his side..
Still living in his own fantasy..
The boy still doesnt realise how much he is hated
Inside everyones heart..The boy is Hated..
He doesn't have any true friends..
People around him arent any good man or woman..
People around..are just waiting for the chance
The chance to GET HIM
But still ..He doesn't know..
Some sincere people telling him all the truth..
advising him to change..and turn back..
Still..He doesn't care or take it..
A very hardheaded and egoism boy they said..

One day,
When the people are starting to back on him..
The people starting to stay away from him..
Whatever he said are no more accepted by everyone..
He still hold on to his ground..
Telling everyone to Trust him..
Blaming his fault on everyone beside himself..
Blaming others for accusals..
Complaining there isn't any true friend..
Anything to say he's Right and never Wrong!

Eventually..in the end..
The boy can't take it..
The boy left town..and went abroad..somewhere to start anew
But, It doesn't last long..
When the mistakes he done..
Are Repeated again and again ..wherever he goes..
His Life was ruined..
He got desperate..
Searching help from everyone..
Anyone he could find..
And now judgment hit upon him..
He was cheated all his money..
He was deceived by those who say who would help him..
He had been used to commit crimes..
Set up and framed..
Abuse and mistreated..

The boy's life..Full of Lies
and yet He search for Trust..
"A Liar who cry Trust"

Sometimes...When I... If...

2009-03-23T12:54:00.000-07:00

Just some silly survey I do in the middle of the night when Im seriously Bored... =='

*Sometimes..*

sometimes i just need:

- some time..someone..something

somtimes i want:

- knock my head on the wall

somtimes i like to:

- Nag alot..

sometimes all it takes:

- just one lil thing to crush my all..

somtimes i picture:

- the future in my head (which it never gona happen)

sometimes i wish:

- I can change everything..

sometimes i find:

- the world is silly ..

sometimes i take:

- things for granted..tht sux..

sometimes i look:

- around and all i see is..reality

sometimes i hate:

- myself for devoting

sometimes it’s nice:

- when good memories and happy thoughts came into my dream..

sometimes it hurts:

- just by thinking and looking at somethin tht shud hav been long gone..

sometimes it makes me happy:

- when false hope lying to me..but im still fighting to achieve!!

sometimes it’s sad:

- when everything goes isnt the way you hope..

sometimes i listen:

- to people thoughts..

sometimes i sleep:

- with regret of the day..

sometimes i like to watch:

- movies..or just passerby while sitting on the street..

sometimes i feel:

- empty..Dead..

sometimes i rant:

- to the sea ...

sometimes i never:

- realise how stupid i am..

sometimes i really:

- plain Stupid...

*When I’m ..*

sad, i want:

- just one pat on the back and the word.."Everything will be Fine"

happy, i need:

- Friends..family..love ones..to Share~

mad, i wish:

- I will not be mad..

overjoyed, i find:

- Im and look ridiculous..

indifferent, i like to:

- ignore..

content, i never:

- stop request for more ..xP

frustrated, all it takes:

- is just one Understanding..and patience..

*If..*

You saw your best friend on one side of the road, but you also saw one of your close family members on the other side, and they were both in serious danger, who would you go to help first?

- Saving my family members and shout to my friend to be AWARE!! (Family are The Most Important..I'm sorry..)

You had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose?

- I would be happy to go to the past..but I'll choose the future..since going into the past will only make myself experience the same old thing AGAIN..and probably the same Bad things that happened..I don't want it anymore..

Jesus was standing right infront of you, what would you say to him?

- Arent you supposed to be nailed on the cross?

Alright alright~

2009-03-15T11:13:00.001-07:00

Alright...no more yoona picture here..xP

juz a simple post im gona update..
briefly post some photo i just grabbed from frens and talk a tiny lil bout it =]

Start with the beginning of the month..
Our group of 6 having presentation on PBU a.k.a Business Management on Nokia for Mr.LJ *xD swt~* class

Our group ~ ^^ and Congrats Rainbow our Best Presenter awarded but Mr.LJ ^^

And next...is our Drama presentation for English..

The simple script of ours are based on the short story.. The Devil
Basically..the story are almost completely the same as the original cept that we perform it in a comedic way ..xD
ohh..and for the info..im the old - gona-die *touchwood*-poor old man..xP
oh boy..im the only character that are not greedy in this drama..xD
see their *evil* face @@''
Oh..and im not picking my nose..=='

@@'' Shocked.. Ah Sim looks horny..xD but he's got a few pretty dance moves up his sleeves oo ..

The two "Devil" in our drama team..xD Evil Mickey and Ultraman @@''

This is the group presenting the "Champion Bull Fighter"

they got the best performance overally in the group..
im the foreign guy from China that met up with two bull, two Ahmad or Mohammad wateva..and one "TV girl" in Malaysia @@''
The wacky ..weird.. oh my god ! got two bisexual!! *one already changed his clothes..* PM11

Wtf!! !@#$

Alright..after PM 12 finished their drama aswell.. we went to Le Garden to have a celebration dinner ?
Im dying while everyone enjoying heh..haiz..

Guess i was out of my mind...~_~'

Group photo ~ =) but Dominic was out of the pic..geeez..

Perfect~ =) but sei Yong xin..head so big block my face.. =='

Our PM11-12 Football Team !! xD

Guess stop here for awhile..
wana continue watching the drama "You are My Destiny" now..xD chaoz~

Owh!!! Btw~

Sorry~

I ...

Lied.......

YoonA !!!!! xD
hahahahahhaha..

paiseh paiseh..joking nie..am not as crazy as you guys think i am..xP
Just For Fun ^.^v *PEACE~!*

Hectic

2009-03-08T12:47:00.000-07:00

Hectic~

There's so many things to work on recently..
Drama... QN ... NSQ ... Friends ... Socializing ... Meeting..
The drama is due this Wednesday .. To be honest, Im not that satisfy overally..
But, our group had work hard and done it best.. we are not pros to be start with .. xP
hope we can do our best and more than our own expectation that day ~
Gambateh everyone! ^^ jjang!

whoa..there's really alot of things I wana do now
Solving my Rubik's cube
Learn the guitar which I had no talent in it at all T,T
Finish the books that are currently "stuck" for awhile
Finishing and Surpass the task that been assigned.
Workout..
Pay more attention on my Tur-toise that I have abandon for awhile but is still growing larger and larger...
Format my laptop.
EXAMS !!! @@'
bla bla blah~

ok..now what I write from now on is totally random~ don't assume anything aite ^^

On that Night I had forgotten when.
Why you come again,
When I finally put you in the shade.
Stupid question you asked,
Unimportant and unnecessary...
Why you come again,
When I had nothing to say and so are you.
I'm moving on againsting the flow,
And Im still moving.
"Why" , you asked.
I'm trying to Hate you
Yes ! I Hate You

Everything I said and did wasn't just deceiving
But the tear in your eyes and your calm, hard face
Is all nothing...
I'm New , I'm Fresh
I'm feeling so Ambitious
Heartless I will be cuz I already am..
This is all that Pushing me to work harder for Success !

Alryt~

Enough crapping ^^

Her Laugh just makes you smile ~ =)

Basic Camp (Still In Contruction)

2009-03-01T11:40:00.000-08:00

20th February 2009

Morning 10:30 am bus to Seremban with my downline Siang Long.
Reach Terminal 2 at 12pm..
hm..Terminal 2 looks isolated in the bus arrival tunnel.. almost like those abandon building you see in those zombies or apocalypse movie.. @@'
It was too dark to take a picture.. too bad..

We took the Shuttle bus back to Terminal 1 F.O.C (but still pretty lebih, why dont they just drop us at Terminal 1 in the 1st place..)

Yoo ..May yen and their friend pick us up at Terminal 1 and we have lunch at McD in Seremban Parade ..
at1st we were planning to buy Shao Pao ..but the tradition of the camp was we eat only VEGE and No MEAT in the camp .. T,T

And so the journey to Tiara Beach Resort begins..
We..well...Yoo decide to take the highway to Port dickson.. =='
but little did he know..the next exit was just a few kilometers away..
RM 0.50 for the toll..
The person in the booth laugh when the screen pop out RM0.50 ..lmao
Can't believe he doesn't ..actually sure bout the way he was going even he went last year before..

2P.M
We reached !!!
After registering and took our Tag..Room number..n Team ( I got Portugal ^^)
n off we go n drop our bags to our individual room and prepare for the Assembly at 2:30pm
The Corridor...Spooky huh..@@'

2 Room and there's 6 of us ...@@' But consider us lucky...cuz the other room have up to 9 person ..ouch~ at least I got my own bed ...xD

The 1st "interaction' we had are.... PARTY~
The whole atmosphere was 'clubbing' style ...xD
People dance...sing...and basically just enjoying ourself before the whole thing start..

Time to find our group...
But in a "unique" way..
Since we receive a flag representing different country..
We have to find the people which are from the same country as ours.
The rules is you can't speak...You can't show them your flag..
So how?..
Think yourself ..xD
It's funny when you get to see everyone act and the way they try to tell you what country they are in ...some kangaroo jumping..some act like tranvestite..etc etc..
I got Portugal...so wondering what I do to tell people what Im in?..
CHEAT~ xD
Holding the flag in my hand and flashes secretly to anyone who approach..xD
Some people don't even know which country they are in ..because they doesn't know the what country is that flag..xD

My Tag and Country ~

Meet my group..new faces..new friends..^^
well, Kenny ..Yoo downline..my crossline was in the same group as me..lucky huh..xD
Total 18 people including me in my group..
One of them is from Myanmar.. One are from MMU Malacca ! @@' But senior la.. Degree in Engineering...

I don't have much picture to post here..cuz basically we don't have time to take photo in the whole so called "process".
Our group photos at Kenny's..I'll post it up when i got it..
Still have some story to share..but Im lazy to type it right now..xP
I'll update again tmr maybe..

chaoz 1st..Don't go anywhere yo..

Presentation Day (English)

2009-02-22T05:48:00.000-08:00

Aiks...
Updates are delayed for too long @@'' swt~
still haven got the pic of the camp from my fren yet T,T
(bo pian mar..he at K.L..)
hm..since Rainbow and Xiaoyann alredi posted the picture..
guess I'l just update alil on our English presentation day 1st =)

Alryt..I didnt get much sleep that morning...
(it was A.M. marh)..
I stayed up till almost 6 a.m after watching football with Yoo and Kelvin at my house..
means I oni got 1 hour to sleep since my class is on 8 a.m @@'

Ok..manage to woke up at 7+ ..i forgot the exact time..cuz I was very Blurry~ -_e
(ok I admit..my mum woke me up since my alarm failed it's Job..)
Cleaning up myself in 10 minutes..
meaning brushing my teeth and buttons my clothes at the same time..
manage to go school on 7:35am..
Hectic day !
It's raining ..and TRAFFIC JAM!!
Alryt..it aint that bad actually..
beside..I saw twin rainbow ^^
I took the pic..but cant see the other one clearly thou..hm..

Oh my..seems like the 2nd rainbow was too light for my 2megapix camera to catch @@' swt~

Reach class at bout 8:10a.m
good thing the lecturer didnt lock the door @@'
my plan to lock the lecturer outside... FAIL
hm..nvm..I'l get her Next Time!!!

My job was pretty easy ..
Presenting "Point of View" of the story The Devil.
Which consist of only one sentences..kakakaka xD
but eventually..it turns out I have to present "Character and charaterictic"
Since our "partner" Alvin was absent due to Mr.Sandman put too much sand on him and he couldn't wake up..
oh well..I just read what the paper wrote and add a lil something that I don't even know what crap Im talking about and finishing off my turn.. xP
Everything went smoothly..*I guess
^^

Firstly..Have to thanks my group members for doing so much work and preparing so many things when I didnt contribute anything atall..
Group members introduced :
Mr.Sim Wei Quan SNSD fan xD (Leader)
Ms. Rainbow Lim Pro make-up artist
Mr. Chua Khai Yee Stayup Late 'King'
Ms. Ong Xiao Yann Losing weight
Mr. Alvin Yee Haiz..nothing to say..

Now it's time for the drama preparation ! FIGHT!! xD
Our Group~ ^^ *sei zai Alvin absent*

Me n Xiao yann =)

Me n Rainbow =)

Khaiyee - Sim - Me

Alright..here's some Bonuses !!
Wana see the difference between The Success !! and The Nerd?

Sorry faggot... didnt mean to step on you.. xP
But your looks just make it hard to resist ...xD

woot~!! 5 a.m !!
better get sleeping..
will talk a lil bout "yesterday" birthday party of May Yen on the next post ^^

chaoz~
PEACE YA!! ^,^v

Update?

2009-02-16T08:27:00.000-08:00

Watch !!!!!!!!!!

Love is in the air~
No kidding !
Look !

Ah~ aint that sweeeeet~ ^^
No discrimination aite ! WORLD OF FREEDOM !! kakakkaa..

Alright..nuff with the silly things..
hm..
beside writing "nonsense" in my blog..actually...
I HAVE NO DAMN IDEA WHAT TO WRITE ALREADY!!! @@''

Aiks..guess I'll just briefly mention alil bit on how I gone through this week then..

Alright, lets begin just the days before Valentine then...

apparently....

nothing special happens ! xD

meh...so bored huh? ..

Yea..beside hanging out (lepak-ing) around with friends..
Helping some friends hunting Valentine presents..
giving ideas...and OF CUZ! Planning what to do on VALENTINE! xD

So, wondering what am I doing on that Day?
Where couples going out in pairs...walking hand in hand..
Movies..shopping...
Roses..chocolates..
Candle light dinner...
Presents...
sitting under the stars..
Feeling the breeze..
ooowh..thats so sweet huh...

Well...Going out with my friend from U of cuz~
I have Sushi for Lunch...
Winning at Bowling...xD
Feel the breeze , Watch the sunset and ebb tide at Portuguese Settlement..
And of cuz..Our Dinner there as well.. =)
Went to the "I don't know what it called" thing (just behind the Pirate ship at Malacca Raya) for sight seeing..
Met with Kent and Ivan there as well..
Ran into a "Couples" of friend alot ...haha..how sweet..
Too bad I don't have any pictures to upload here...hm..

We do nothing much or special actually..due to lack of time and no backup plan..aiks..
Feel kinda bad thou..haiz..
But I got to admit..I enjoy hanging out with them even thou we aren't doing anything ^^..

We 'guys' went to CC to play "Left 4 Dead" at midnight..after Eric fetching the girls back..haaa
It was "CHAOS" ..haha..almost turn the whole CC upside down for peace sake..xD
Back at home at round 4am morning..A very different Valentine I had ever came across..xP

NEXT DAY~

woke up by the call of Yoo..and Dennis followed after...
Ivan was going back today at 5pm..
So..quickly I bath..eat...and off I go to meet them at Wongkok..
go to the arcade..window shop..and talking crap among each other..haha..
after fetching Ivan back at 4..we went Pool ..again...winning streak again..xD
so proud huh...kakaakaka..

as for dinner..Kent,Dennis,HueyS,Me ..went to old Newton..
ate that stupid SUPER HOT SPICY + MAKE YOU CRY SAUSAGE ..AGAIN!!!
(Kent say he could finish it ..and so..I ordered and Dare him..)
Well..we did finish it...3 of us ..xD *crying in tears*

Alright..
the plan next..
Left 4 Dead ...AGAIN...lol..addicted..
Dennis didn't followed..
Me and Kent went CC after fetching Yoo with us..
after 3 hours of game played..
Football time...aiks..
Kent went back 1st..and Kelvin join me n Yoo at Mc'D at DP
MAN U won!!! 4-1 muahahaha..
and so ..back to home at 3am..and finishin off my part in english till 5am..
Which turns out what all I have done are all...useless...lol..==''
alright..thats bout the end of this few days..

NOW!!!

Something I would like to show..
Something that makes my heart feel weird weird..kakakaka

YOON A !!!
From SNSD ( So Nyeo Shi Dae ) a.k.a Girls Generation

Wouldn't have know this group exists if I haven't watch that dance Ah Mao try to "kaji" and also from SIM who are already crazy about it..haha..

Look how cute she is....xD

Lai~ ONE MORE !
Alright..I supposed you people will tell me to stop aswell..
gona stop here then...
chaoz...

DON'T LOOK AT ME !

Today's the Day

2009-02-13T12:47:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine to all~ ^^

Everyone..single or not..

Stay Happy! Healthy! but not Filthy ya..xD

Cherish every person in your life wholeheartedly .. =)
Love them all...
Unconditionally and no Regrets !

**Love to all~!

Kay

p/s..next post gona b update shortly..gona put picture d..(requested by YT ==')

....

2009-02-11T10:47:00.000-08:00

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*HIT MY HEAD XXXXXXX times* !!!!
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!@$!@#
!@##@$
!@#!@%
!@#%$%#
DIU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F**k up!!!!
MAHAI!!!! ARGHH!!!!!!
AIYSEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DIU LOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RETARDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHAO XX XXX !!!!!
*HIT HIT HIT* !!!!!!
*STABBING STABBING STABBING* xD !!!!!!! WALAO!!!!!!!
DIAO!!!!!!

Sorry...just vent out the inner discomfort ...xD
Im okay ~ kakakakaka...dun worry..n sorry for being rude yar...xP

Revolution?!

2009-02-08T10:52:00.001-08:00

Wow..getting "pawned" by a middle age man trying to teach me "LIFE" today.
Well..can't say he's unreasonable and what he said are all crap.
Just that the way he talk and the way, he tried to let you know what he wants you to think are way too EGO.
And ya.. he doesn't realize that what I told him are actually the same thing as what he wana tell me.
That 30minutes "lecture" ..I was sitting there, looking into his eyes..hearing his every word..and..
WONDER~
Are you done yet? Can I say anything? I wana sleep.. *yawn*
Sometimes , we.. human ..always thought that we are superior..
Same like this old guy here...telling me "Revolution" ..
Visions!
His vision...
wow..sounds cool huh...NOT
Basically...admit it...you're Advertising..thats your base..your basic...
Telling people everywhere that you are greater than anything...
And telling people what you are when you are not..
oh man..Tell me bout it when you achieved it aite...bleh...xP
Circling around mentioning the same thing ..again and again and again...bla bla bla..
BUT!
In the mean time, trying to "psycho" me that what he said ..are totally different thing..
well, acting like he knows alot i assumed.
Counterplea whatever I said without knowing what I really meant. xD
And whenever I mention .. "Its the same thing.."
Funny..his face will change and he will change the topic and talk to his colleague.
Guess he's underestimating me as a kid
You ask...
I scare of him?
Aiks..
Trust me..it's hard to act SERIOUS and not to laugh on the same time.
Ah..Can't say much ..I'll stop here i guess..
don't want any hard feelings in the near future...xD

I Have Nothing..yet...I Have Everything

2009-02-07T13:27:00.000-08:00

When you do something wrong...
You must do it thoroughly..
When you need to get over the pain..
Endure it till the end..
One day..
We will found out ...
It's nothing...
You are Born..You Live and then You Die..
Those are precious and important to you..
Are always kept in your Heart.
Your treasure..
Only you know**
It's nothing to anyone..
But, it's everything ..
Everything you only had...
Right here...
Inside your chest..
Deep inside where no one can took it away...
Mourn no more..cry no more..Regret nothing.
You have it...
Blessed with it...
Cuz you're born with a Heart.
Your everything..

In Mii

Head or Tail

It Took Me Awhile

Let's start Writing

Sharing a story

Moving on

那些年 我追到的女孩

I think?

Time never stops

Reminiscing an old song

April is Zzzz

CYR on Maxim !

Back in the days

Just for a Laugh

Well we study ACCA(Accountant Can Cry Already)

to become an AUDITOR(All You Do Is Think Of Resigning) someday...

so what we really learn?

We learn IAS (I Am Sad) and IFRS (I Feel Really Sad).

Fine, stop acting like a professional, we study real mad

and call ourself Account Service Specialist.

So we end up getting called as ASS

Quarelling and Fights makes me Jealous

23rd March 2011

Smile n Walk Away

Turning My Hourglass Around

Recommendation

I Love You

When you're around

Sometimes ...

I Like Pool ! but I Love Girls who Play Pool !

You make me Smile - Aloe Blacc

Still can't get used to it

Explanation for previous post

My heart goes thump thump*

LED Watch for SALE !

Bad Day

My Life span just got shorten

Not a Good Exam Week

Are you My Friend ? Hate Me or Like Me

Girl, I need a girl....

Love Light - CNBlue

Time for a Change

Woke Up

I Don't Give a Damn

A Smile of Cruelty

你自然就会放下

Can You Feel My World

Just venting out, don't take this post too seriously

My Weekends

Ok Ok, I update..

Haircut !!

New Chapter or New Story ?

WARNING

Insomnia

Sorry

She's The One

Don't Wake Me Up

Liar n Fakers

I was like ... Mesmerized

忆难忘

Loooooooong way to go

Nostalgic

RAndom

I'm 19

Silent

The Man Who Can't Be Moved

"Hello" (Random Post)

Replay

Memorable Day - 20th July

My Sassy Girl

YoonA ^^

Peace

I Forgot

One of my Fav Movie

The Pursuit of Happyness

I Need a Spelling Lesson

Simply Random

Starting a New Me

Hypocrite

Ｄｒｕｎｋ？

那些年我追到的女孩